young-il is the cutest š£ god i love him so much
Not the kind you can shake off. The kind that burrow in behind your eyes and make it feel like your skull is splintering from the inside. The kind you hide because life wonāt slow down for your pain.
It started young. Before Junho ever needed a kidney, before they even knew the full extent of how hard life was going to get. Inho learned early to swallow his pain because his stepmother already had too much on her plateāmedications, bills, long shifts at the market, and a fragile kid who needed more than they could afford. Inho was now an adult barely. He didnāt want to be a burden.
Sometimes Junho would find him like that: tucked in the fetal position, drenched in sweat, barely breathing through the pounding in his skull. And baby Junho, bless him, would climb in bed and curl around him, whispering nonsense, trying to āpet the pain away.ā It never worked, but Inho would pretend it did.
Inho got good at hiding it. He had to. On the police force, you donāt get to be fragile. You donāt get sick days when your paycheck is feeding three mouths and buying dialysis supplies. He never disclosed his conditionāhe couldnāt afford the scrutiny. So he powered through shifts half-blind, vomiting quietly in the station bathroom before heading back out to the street. There were days he drove patrol with one eye closed and his fingers white-knuckled on the wheel.
Even from his wifeāGod, Inho hid it from her too. Said it was stress, just too many hours, said he was fine when he came home with that tightness in his jaw, his body trembling under the blankets. She knew. Of course she did. Sheād sit beside him in the dark, quietly massaging his temples, kissing his forehead, running her fingers over pressure points on his brow. She never said anything, just held him like he wasnāt cracking open inside. Inho thinks of her hands even now, sometimes. Thinks of the quiet kindness, the way she never asked for an explanation.
And then she got sick. And the Games came. And everything broke.
Inho fought through the pain the entire time. People think the hardest part of the Game is the violence. But for Inho, it was the nights. The lights, the noise, the cold. He bit into his knuckles until they bled to keep from screaming. Sometimes heād black out and wake up unsure if it was from a migraine or from sheer exhaustion. He only won because he was used to pain. He knew how to compartmentalize. Heād been doing it his whole life.
When Inho came home and found her gone, the grief screamed louder than any migraine ever had. He howled until his throat tore, and for one small, twisted moment, he was glad the pain in his head was drowned out by the pain in his chest.
But the migraines never left. If anything, becoming the Front Man made them worse. The maskāheavy, suffocatingāmakes the pressure unbearable. The screens are too bright. The intercoms too loud. He lives in a world of sensory torture, and no one sees it. Heās careful. Clinical. Keeps the lights in his quarters low. Takes his pills in secret. Breeds loyalty through silence. The guards never suspect anything. The Managers know better than to ask why he sometimes retreats to his room, breathing like heās drowning. And when the VIPs are around, he wears his mask like a wall. They donāt see the tremor in his hands. They donāt notice how often he excuses himself mid-conversation.
And then came Gihun.
Inho, as Young-il, was supposed to monitor him. Test him. Chip away at him. But one night, the mask slipped. The migraine hit like a hammer, and InhoāYoung-ilācouldnāt hide it fast enough. He curled up in the shadows, fingers pressed hard to his temples, shaking, trying not to cry. Trying to breathe.
And Gihun found him.
Gihun knelt beside him without asking anything. Just placed Inhoās head in his lap and began to gently rub circles into his forehead, along his brow, down the sides of his nose.
āMy mom used to say this helps,ā he murmured.
Inho wanted to pull away. He should have pulled away. But the pain was too much. And the touch was⦠kind.
So he stayed.
And in the dark, with his head cradled in the lap of a man who didnāt know who he really was, a tear slipped down Inhoās temple and into his hair.
Because Gihun was comforting Young-il. Not him.
Gihun didnāt know he was touching a monster. Didnāt know the blood on Inhoās hands. Didnāt know the mask behind the man. Inho was glad it was dark. Glad Gihun didnāt see the tear.
Because if he did⦠he might have pulled away.
my favorite image right now
SQUID GAME | 2x04 | Yeoseos Gaeui Dali
Squid Game (2021-2025) 2.05 "One More Game"
Obligatory Soulmark AU heh
Also soulmark is supposed to be on the left hand, š¤¦š½āāļøIām an idiot lol
Apparently the Squid Game director made the cast test out the pentathlon game to figure out the right time limit, and now all I can picture is a cursed behind-the-scenes AU where Inho is like:
āCircle guards, weāre playtesting. Mask up. Game time.ā
So now youāve got a bunch of poor exhausted guards, who thought today was just gonna be corpse disposal and trauma, suddenly lined up for Red Light, Green Light like itās gym class. And then Inho shows upāfully masked, trench coat flapping in the wind like some kind of dystopian PE teacherāand joins the game.
Heās doing everything with them, completely dead serious. Theyāre crawling through the honeycomb challenge and Inhoās right there, carving his shape with surgeon-level precision, muttering āInconsistent sugar texture. We need a 12.3% longer boil.ā like itās a bomb diffusal exercise.
gihun with some suspiciously boyfriend-shaped cats hmmm
What are they
Lee Byung-hun as Hwang Jun Ho
we hear gi-hun talk nonstop about how 'smart and cool' sang-woo is in season one, and I feel like jun-ho used to talk about in-ho like that to literally anybody and everybody. "yeah, my brother is the coolest! he's my role model and the reason why I became a cop. he inspired me every day. oh and did I tell you he gave me his kidney and saved my life?!" (jun-ho already told them that at least five times), and now the mention of in-ho's name alone is enough to trigger him, especially when it's kind of confirmed / canon that jun-ho looked up to in-ho.
man, probably wishful thinking, but I need the hwang bros to just not die in season 3 and get to be brothers again :(