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#1 BABY, NOT EVEN CLOSE🙏🔥🔥

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Ellie Letting Abby & Lev Go Makes Sense.

People who complain about the ending of TLOU2 being about Ellie forgiving Joel's killer are kind of missing the point in my opinion. I think there's a fair argument that Ellie doesn't actually forgive Abby, nor is the ending about the triumph of forgiveness. It's more so about Ellie honoring Joel's memory by not taking away a parental figure (Abby) from a lonely kid (Lev).

Joel fought for Ellie's survival to Salt Lake City in part 1, and then fought like hell to save her at the end of the game even though it would potentially cost the vaccine. This is also what sealed his fate. Debate about rather or not this was the right thing to do aside, he saved Ellie's life.

So, when she's helpless to return the favor, especially after they've made plans to try to patch things up, she gets caught up in avenging her perceived failure. She is fixated on the part of Joel that was fearless and did things like torture and kill people. The Joel before their falling out. These memories and thoughts help motivate her to carry out the revenge plot.

It's only when she remembers her final memory of Joel - the caring parental figure who prioritized and jeopardized everything just to save a kid he'd grown attached to, that she realizes that Joel probably wouldn't want this. Lev is a kid who, like Ellie, lost everything - mother, sister/best friend, and community. No matter how oppressive Seraphite culture or F.E.D.R.A QZs are, that was all Lev and Ellie knew, and it hurt to essentially be ran out even if it was ultimately for the best. Abby is like Joel - dangerous, lethal, hardened, and fiercely protective. When the first thing Abby does after being freed from her restraints by Ellie is to save Lev and cradle him, that's when it starts to click for Ellie, that much like how Joel's chosen purpose became to protect Ellie, Abby's chosen purpose is to protect Lev.

It's also why Ellie threatening Lev's life in order to get Abby to fight her is also symbolic. On this trip Ellie has become extremely detached from who she was before Joel's death. Lev in this context represents the Ellie we knew before all of this happened, so Ellie threatening Lev, an innocent child that has nothing to do with Abby and Ellie's fight and was even the reason why Abby let Dina live earlier in the game, symbolizes the risk of her going beyond the point of no return: that she will loose herself. Become unrecognizable. She's not just holding a knife to Lev, but to her old self.

But, when she recollects that final memory of Joel, that was so full of warmth, how he said he would save her all over again if given another chance even though he knew they would still eventually fallout, because he cares about her and wants her to be able to live her life on her terms, she remembers that Abby is doing that for Lev, and that just like herself, Lev deserves someone who will fight for him.

And that honors Joel memory more than killing Abby would have.

You’re My People

I wrote a short little Abby and Lev thing post-canon of both games that kind of explores Abby as a character and the similarities between her and Joel and their approach to parenting / protecting their children. You can find it here on AO3 or read below the cut!

The nightmares that woke Abby up in the night often differed slightly from each other.

Sometimes she’d be her younger self, walking in there and finding what Joel Miller had done to him, her father’s brains splattered on the floor.

Other times she’d be her older self watching her younger one going in there, not listening to her when she warned her what she was going to find in there and crying quietly as she heard her own screams.

Recently though, her nightmares had been about Lev, about the same fate meeting him that had met everybody else Abby had ever loved. It’s one of those dreams that has woken her up in the early hours this morning and left her unable to get back to sleep so, rather than continuing to try, she’d decided to get up and sit by the window in the abandoned old apartment they’d managed to find and recover in on their journey to the fireflies.

She looked over at him, watching his chest rise and fall in the even breaths of sleep, and knew she’d do all in her power to keep him safe and alive for as long as there was breath in her lungs. She wondered, perhaps, if that was the same thing that Joel Miller had felt and that had been what had caused him to kill her father, kill all of the fireflies, to save one child.

She hadn’t understood it at the time because the kid he’d saved wasn’t even his by blood and her sacrifice could have meant a cure for everybody. But, as she glanced over at Lev again, she found herself understanding Joel now for the first time.

Lev wasn’t hers by blood either but she imagined what she felt for him must be what most parents feel for their children. She’d give up anything for him and that would include a cure too, she thinks, and she can’t help but wonder when she started thinking this way. She remembered encouraging her father with what he was doing, telling her she’d want to make that sacrifice if she was immune.

But Lev was different.

Perhaps in part, it was due to him being the only thing she had left now. But still she’d given up everything for him even before that was the case and gone against the Wolves to protect a Seraphite. Was she as terrible as Joel was for feeling this way? She’d realised fairly quickly that him being dead hadn’t made her feel any better but did she deserve to suffer the same way she’d felt he did, had ensured he did?

She heard Lev stir, a slight whimper coming out of him indicated his own nightmares, and she moved to sit with him on the bed, gently easing him into her lap.

“Shh,” she soothed gently, pressing her lips to his dark hair. “I’m here. It’s alright, bud, we’re okay.”

He relaxed after a moment and settled in her arms and she stayed there just holding him close. And with the weight of him in her arms, she found she didn’t care anymore whether it made her like Joel or not. She’d do whatever it took to keep him safe from any other harm because to her, nothing and no one else mattered anymore as much as him.