More Of An Idea Of A Person Rather Than An Actual One

do you think henry ever stayed up late unable to sleep, staring at the ceiling in his room thinking about the fact that he had killed two people and didn't hate it. thinking about the fact he might go on to kill more people just for the thrill of it; that if he killed himself he might just be saving the world from another serial killer, and how nice it would be to die the saint and not the sinner

i need this, this is much more dramatic than a thermos

1920′s Traveling tea case. From America in the 1920′s, FB.

oh the urge to be part of a hedonistic slightly deranged secret society

am I the only one that thinks we don’t really know much about Charles?

I mean, he was always a side character, we don’t really get to know him, anything. I feel like we know almost nothing about him, and then, in the second part of the book he is a really really important character. the police and FBI interrogations, his slow mental breakdown. we get so much information about him at once, his relationship with Camilla, his problems, him being abusive. but despite all of that I still feel like he wasn’t detailed enough and it’s confusing.

anyone feels the same?

whole life convincing yourself that you’re emotionless, cold and unbothered only to realise many years later that you created that version of yourself because in reality you couldn’t bare the thought of being vulnerable in any way

and when you finally realise that it’s not something to be proud of you also realise that it’s too late to re-learn everything

you feel great shame because you finally see that you weren’t actually strong - all of it was a weakness. the thing you hated the most. you couldn’t embrace it

and worst of all - you realise that you’ve become exactly like the person who hurt you in the beginning

Man, once a month I go to into The Secret History tag and occasionally find some amazing art, but the rest 99.9% of it every time is the same 3 quotes from the book posted for the 20000th time: "I'm nothing in my soul if not obsessive", "Forgive me for all the things that I did etc etc", "Beauty is terror", "Morbid longing for the picturesque", random completely unrelated to the book dark academia moodboards, photos of Donna Tartt, The Goldfinch posts for some reason, "THE CHARACTERS ARE HORRIBLE PEOPLE IT'S THE ENTIRE POINT OF THE BOOK!/!)", Henry Winter stans, Francis lovers and 'cubitum eamus', "The Secret History is so insane/so funny if you think about it-", cringey fake deep pseudophilosophical one liners.

same bro, same

"I shall move somewhere into the woods and try to improve myself."

1914, Franz Kafka

how can i romanticise studying at awfully modern university? the building is fairly new and of course everything is technically advanced. but there is no soul in it

what should i do to feel very dark academia mysterious historic beautiful classical aesthetic?

i need help i ain’t agreeing with my university years being so basic

My friends: "you've never had a crush on a fictional man in a book?... you're lying"

meanwhile, men in the books I've read:

• man murders ppl to test out a theory

• man makes a person out of limbs to test the limits of science and then abandons it

• man turns into a bug and dies

• man shoots another man because the sun was too hot

• man stabs his friend because of moral corruption and arrogance

im not lying it's not that hard i promise