the only reason why he had a child was because he became obsessed with the idea of normalcy
emotionally repressed and wouldn't know how to talk to you
conversations would be limited to "how was your day?" and "how was work?"
being emotionally present and vulnerable is uncomfortable for him
he would show up to teacher meetings just to reassure himself that he was taking taking care of you and cared about your grades/how you're doing socially
sometimes you would go on a walk together, make s'mores, or he would teach you how to fish
these little moments would keep you clinging to the idea that he really did love and care for you/convinces you that he was a good dad
his job takes up most of his time, so he would rarely be home
and when he is home, he's sleeping
when he would have to leave during the night, there would be a note and a pitiful breakfast waiting for you on the kitchen table
lots of babysitters, LOTS of them
he is obsessed with the idea of normalcy and that he would be a better father than his own, but he never puts in the work
"Don't forget to let the dogs out and feed them, I'll be back at 9" he isn't back until eleven
he keeps three meals on rotation and the rest of the days are filled with frozen food or take out
weirdly overprotective, but isn't actually there when it counts
the best he could do for a packed lunch is different kinds of lunchables
his emotional repression and social anxiety would cost you your social life, as it would be hard to make friends because you didn't grow up with a father who encouraged you to be social or teach you how to be confident
spontaneous rants about what is right and wrong/trying to instill a strong moral compass in you to compensate for his own self-doubt
he always drinks a glass of whiskey before bed
waiting for Will to show up for school performances and he's not there
you're often late to school either because of the babysitter or he doesn't get up quick enough
"Can we get ice cream?" "I'm sorry, baby. Not today, Daddy's a little tired. Maybe next time." "You're always tired..."
buys you things instead of apologizing
cathedrals (hannibal references) everywhere for those (me) with eyes to see (autism)
hannibal ruined me, all I can read are books with cannibalism now
mutuals can always dm me but be warned i talk like your coworker who is trying too hard to get to know you and my response times are akin to the response times you might get if we were communicating by letter
Everything I read by @cervviidae is so heartbreaking and heartwarming at the same time, I cannot BELIEVE I never found them before this year.
Their fic èclair is so tender, and I've got more of them lined up to write full reviews on, but this one is so heartachingly sweet; it's a testament to Hannibal's love for Will and his fear of rejection, and of Will's love for Hannibal despite him being a fool.
Supernova Love | spacedogs oneshot
There were four minutes and thirty-seven seconds left when a body slid next to his, just an arm’s length away. Adam focused on the ratty shoelaces of his midnight blue converses, not wanting to risk conversation. He was so close to this night being over. In three minutes he could just go home and lay down in bed, star projector on the ceiling, and a documentary playing softly in the background.
“Hey!” They yelled over the music.
Adam’s heart seized with anxiety, his chest clenching painfully, and he swallowed thickly. Maybe he could just pretend that he couldn’t hear them.
“Hey!” They yelled again, louder.
Reluctantly, Adam turned, his head heavy on his his neck, and looked. It was the guy from earlier with the silly shirt. He was taller up close and more intimidating than the little doggies let on. He had nice eyes though, sharp cheekbones, and a soft jawline. And he was sucking on another cigarette. The tip of it glowed in the dim room and a puff of smoke followed a moment later, the teen taking a moment to chew on the flavor.
“Hello…” Adam said. His nose wrinkled at the smell of cigarette smoke wafting his way. The guy smelled like he had already smoked a pack of them.
“You good?” He asked. “You’ve been here a while. You sick or some shit?”
Adam swallowed and replied, “No, I’m not. Just, uhm, overwhelmed.” He knew that he was half-shouting just so he could be heard over the music, but it sounded quiet to his own ears.
“Mm,” The guy acknowledged. His bony fingers plucked the cigarette from his lips and offered it to Adam.
Adam vehemently shook his head and the guy paused like he just realized something, then shrugged and took another drag.
Adam watched his cheeks sink in with the motion, strangely enraptured by the sight of it. The guy made eye contact with him for a second as he inhaled and Adam quickly looked away, it felt like a burn. When he exhaled, he turned the other way and Adam blinked in surprise.
”You gonna drink that?” He asked, gesturing to the drink in Adam’s hand.
”Uhm, no. I don’t drink,” Adam said timidly. He forgot he was even holding the cup.
”What?” The guy asked, leaning closer to hear him.
”Uh- I-I said I don’t drink!” Adam repeated louder. The smell of cigarettes become stronger and his head spun from it. The strangers face was startlingly close for a moment and he felt like he could barely breathe.
“What?!” They guy exclaimed, reeling back. “You don’t smoke or drink? The fuck’re you doing here then?” A few ashes fell off the tip of his cigarette.
Adam’s face felt hot, irrationally embarrassed about not participating in casual substance use. “I’m here for my friend!” He explained.
”Oh yeah? Where is he?”
She, Adam wanted to correct, but it felt pointless.
“Uhm I don’t know.”
”So, he just left you here?”
”I guess.”
The other teen’s upper lift lifted into a little snarl, something that Adam didn’t see a lot of people do. Then, he muttered something, but Adam was never good at reading lips.
”What?” Adam asked.
The guy waved it off, taking another drag from his cigarette. It was too short to keep sucking on, so he dropped it and snuffed it out under his leather boot, then picked it up and stuffed it in his pocket. Adam wondered how many were in there.
From his angle, he watched the other teen’s shaggy ashen-blonde hair flop from its gelled style and when he stood back up, a few strands had fallen over his forehead. It looked better this way, he thought, but the guy ran a hand through his hair to smooth it back. Adam could see the sweat on his neck glistening beneath the strobe lights.
“Wanna get out of here?” He asked.
With you? Adam wanted to say, but he nodded regardless because he really, really did want to leave. He would rather leave with a stranger than stay a moment longer.
Shirt Guy—Adam was calling him that in his head now—walked past him and through the doors. He trailed behind him like a shadow, face-to-face with little dachshunds. The outside air was blissfully cool and he took a deep breath of fresh air, savoring it as his lungs expanded. They walked down the steps descending into the roundabout in front of the mansion and sat next to each other on the last one.
“So, what do you do if you’re not drinking or smoking?” Shirt Guy asked. His voice sounded different when it was quiet and he had an accent that Adam somehow didn’t notice until now. He was just too overwhelmed before to register it.
“Uhm, I read or go to the park. I go to the museum too…when I can,” Adam said. He wondered why Shirt Guy was even talking to him, he didn't think he was interesting enough.
Shirt Guy grinned wolfishly and said, “So, you’re a nerd.”
Adam’s lips pursed in displeasure. “I guess,” He shrugged. “What do, uh, what do you do?”
”I fix cars.”
”Oh,” Adam said. “Cool.”
Shirt Guy snorted like he knew that Adam didn’t actually care and that was a little embarrassing.
“You like milkshakes?”
“...Milkshakes?”
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Read the rest on Ao3!
https://archiveofourown.org/works/64567516
my holy trinity of "how much angst can I fit into this poor fictional character"
Imagining Hannibal and Will shebang for the first time and Hannibal is so excited to dote on Will, but after taking just a minute to catch his breath, Will is already snoring, leaving Hannibal to pout at the edge of the bed like a sad dog
Post-orgasm Hannibal: very hyperactive, makes sure Will gets all the aftercare and affection, very cuddly, hungry
Post-orgasm Will: *turns his back to Hannibal and falls asleep in less than 5 minutes*
me when I make a burger and the hot grease splashes on my face
Hannibal 1.01, "Apéritif"
I understand why people say their dogs are their children now because I am RAISING this puppy, I literally have a stroller for her, this is my child
tv shows | movies | fanfiction#1...HANNIGRAM SUPPORTER˚✧₊⁎<3ao3: @laruangoso | fic requests welcome!
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