The most terrifying part of having memory issues is when you can feel something from 5 seconds ago be thrown out the window and there's an empty hole where it once was. You remember that you forgot something.
aaaaand we're back to square one
emotional dysregulation is so weird because i've been near crisis point depressed all week but now i'm back to being a hyperactive diva just because i put on a new playlist
You know, not to be an asshole, but I hate that all the stories about eating disorders are about bulimia or anorexia. I have binge-eating disorder and there is not a one story about that. No manga, no webcomics, no films, no nothing. Not a fucking one. It's like bulimia and anorexia are the only eating disorders that exist in the mass consciousness. And it seems to always be contextualized in dysmorphia. Like... maybe I'm just fucked up?? I have BED that resulted from PTSD. (There was a period of fatphobia, though this is distinct).
What are you supposed to do when you’re agoraphobic but you don’t have any hobbies to pass the time being inside the house?
I’m terrified of the outside world but I’m also terrified of being trapped inside with my own brain
I’m spiralling
OCD symptom i struggle with but don't see talked about a lot: inability to trust your own memory and/or perception.
as an example: i put my headphones in my bag. i say im sure they're in my bag, but what if i imagined putting them in my bag? i have to check, so i stick my hand inside and grab them. but then i have to check *again* because what if i just so happened to have another object shaped and sized exactly like my headphones that i just forgot about? so i have to pull them out of my bag and look directly at them to fully confirm they were in my bag
this is a fairly benign example but this also happens with other worse scenarios for me and it's. not fun
people with adhd give me some project/hobby ideas or good boredom cures because i have nothing to do in my life and i am hanging on by a thread
the only reason i'm not an alcoholic is because every alcohol i've tried tastes like absolute ass and i physically can't swallow more than a mouthful
when are privileged people going to realise that bringing diversity to media and the market does not mean privileged people writing marginalised stories, but rather it means uplifting marginalised creators so we can all exist on an equal playing field
(this is not to say don't write a diverse range of characters — that's great when you do it with good research and respect — but i want to see equal platforms for marginalised creators, not just marginalised characters)
it really pisses me off and actually really hurts that i haven't seen a single kind or wholesome post towards trans men. it's always either people posting that they want to sleep with us or that we need to stay strong and whatever because of the hate targeted at us which is appreciated but like.. i already know that i and other trans men are valid and that we are hot but some of us really just need a hug and told that we are loved and cared about. i am tired and i know the rest of us are too