Fuck You Calories, We Don’t Want You.

I swear the hyperfocus I get while fasting will mean I drop dead. I'm going to beat my fasting record (23 days)

if i can't see every bone of my chest, then i'm not sick enough.

„Suicide is selfish“ let me be selfish for once in my life.

I feel proud for not getting the food I want to eat

"Honour your cravings" by acknowledging them and proving they can't get to you

Introduction (age 21)

Hi. You can call me Newt because ain't no way I'm sharing my real name on here in fear that someone I know finds me. I'm pretty fucked up in a lot of ways

I'm a survivor of child and adolescent torture after having been severely abused and also a victim of TMBC (trauma-based mind control) and RA (ritual abuse) throughout my childhood. I was abused for 13 and a half years before being removed by social services once I became confident enough to talk about what was happening.

I have Bipolar 1, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Some sorta restrictive ed (probs atypical ana), a psychotic disorder, Complex PTSD, and fibromyalgia. I also deal with sleep problems and a bunch of other physical health issues that are undiagnosed

I'm trans FTM and use he/him Pronouns. I started medication in 2021 after being sectioned to a child inpatient unit where I live and started antipsychotics which made me gain 25 odd kg. I'm now working to lose that weight now I'm feeling more "stable".

I was clinically anorexic before starting on antipsychotics and hoping to get back to that state.

I will mostly be posting about my ed.

If you don't like that, block, don't report.

You have your safe spaces, I have mine.

Nice to meet you all! :D

honestly love my therapist (well he's my nurse but closest thing I have to help atm)

"Well, even if you die from starvation, at least you'll have your teeth" all because I won't drink sugary squash as it hurts my teeth and drink sugar free squash

Could not stop laughing

Brooo, I start feeling suicidal for the stupidest shit

im so big i literally have no option but to ⭐️ve

sometimes i wonder how amazing it'd be if i could just grab a pair of scissors and cvt off the unwanted fats from my stomach, arms and thighs

i've gotten to the point where it feels worse to eat than to starve