~**~ Pinterest Inspirations ~**~

Day 2 End

Wow... what a day.

I'm finally calling it and getting ready for bed (maybe quietly read a couple chapters of my new fated lovers book on my phone).

I feel like I did quite a bit but also not writing enough to meet my schedule. I'm not sure how I feel about this. Am I overestimating how much I can do each day or week to meet my goal at the end of the semester? I really hope not. I really need to finish this thesis proposal so I am not behind (also not having to pay for another semester of thesis credits...) Money is definitely on the line.

My hope is that I can start tracking my wins and knowing that it will be ok in the end.

Another day, another progress post 🩵

04/05/2025

I just want a freaking free day!!! 😤 Do you ever get so tired of studying and school that you don't know how you're going to last another 30 days?? That's why I am right now. I can't. I just can't right now.

I so want to just say f it and go take a break for a day, but I also feel like I can't. I also don't work like most people, and nighttime is my friend. But then, I can't even enjoy a relaxing night because I need to do work... Make it make sense. Why do I feel punished in society simply by being a night owl? That's not fair.

Grievances aside, only 1 more day of this workshop, and I seriously still don't know how much I'm learning. I'm not sure if this will feel worth it in the end. Maybe I need to reevaluate tomorrow morning before I decide to go.

Me feeling angry (also exhausted and frustrated) at the whole world rn:

Completed

✅ Full-day workshop ✅ Check and respond to emails ✅ Clinic note revision ✅ Grocery shopping ✅ Phone call with partner ✅ Dinner and snacks ✅ Watch Me Before You (I cried my eyes out for this 😭) ✅ Phone call with parents ✅ Clinic notes x4 ✅ Add article summaries to class notes ✅ Read research articles for thesis (30 minutes - that's all the energy I have for today) ✅ Shower (finally!!!)

To-Dos

I cut out some original plans cause I overestimated how much energy I had lol. Full-day workshop is a energy-drainer... Time for bed 😴

Another super cool post for keepsake 🩵

I’m always getting stressed out by things happening so here are some resources I find helpful

Music

I don’t know about you but I find piano music are really relaxing and soothing

Piano music playlist

Peaceful piano Spotify playlist by @spotify

Piano background music Spotify playlist

Rainy sounds

Burning fireplace sounds

Wave sounds

Videos, movies, dramas

Buzzfeed Celeb

Food

Buzzfeed Worth It Season [1/2/3/4/5]

Movies

Free movies/tv

Marvel movies masterpost by @girlintoomanyfandoms

Classic chick flicks by @jamescookjr

Cinemasins

Studytubes

Studytubes by @memorisu

AmandaRachLee

Cheyenne Barton (@studyrose )

Music

The Voice Kids [Australia/Germany]

Video games

Buzzfeed Multiplayer (eg. Until Dawn, Dead by daylight, Cooking Mama)

True crimes and supernatural

Buzzfeed unsolved

Comedies (old but gold)

Friends

Mind your language

Bewitched

Dr Ken suggested by @akydemics

Exercise

Fitness & health for student by @abby-studies-art

Deep breathing exercises

Sleep

Guide to sleep by @educatier

Tips for balancing sleep & education by @brbimstudying

The perfect night sleep by @paintitbright

How to go to bed early and actually fall asleep

Night routine and sleeping tips

Tips and tricks for getting enough sleep by @candydsgn

Meditation

Meditation and focus by @studyquill

Put a thought in the star

Treat yourself

Simple ways to treat yourself by @anitastudy

Guide to treating yourself by @pennyfynotes

25 No/Low cost self care acts by @gaygirlhustle

Water

How to drink more water ft printables

Hydration masterpost

Breaks

Use the pomodoro method where you study for 25 minutes and rest for 5 minutes to allow your brain to re-energise itself.

Take a break

Types of study breaks by @samsstudygram

Tips for getting better rest by @overstudies

9 things to do on a study break by @studyzine

Study break ideas by @gomedorgohome

What to do during a study break by @emmastudies

Things i do when taking a study break by @produitivity

Meals

Study break snacks by @gentlysoft

15 food to ease your study life by @studybowie

Easy recipes for students by @aestudier

Broke college kid masterpost by @dumplinghead-usagi

Bullet journal

Start a bullet journal

Apps

Apps that help me destress by @gracelearns

Forest

Overdrive

Positivity

My positivity tag

@chibird

@cwote

@lovelysuggestions

A website that compliments you

Who is the cutest

Quizzes

Buzzfeed quizzes

Pottermore quizzes

Others

Learn coding

All you need for high school

Math help and advice

How to take notes

Mental health masterpost

Ace your essays

Ace your exams

How to be productive

Free printables masterpost

Stationery masterlist by @architstudy

Other masterposts

Selfcare masterpost

A little reminder for the day 🩵

Nothing better than having my dog next to me while I am working hard on my thesis 🩵

P.S. Technically I asked for a cat but got chosen by a dog. I call it fate.

04/03/2025

Decided to take it chill today. And truly, I keep reminding myself that I deserve it. Yes, I can study more, always. But do I want to not let myself take a break and rest after finishing 2 group projects? No. I need to take care of myself and relax before I can keep going, especially since the semester ends in a month and not a week.

Me seriously needing a facial and massage to take off some stress:

Completed

✅ School

✅ See clients

✅ Part-time job

✅ Nap

✅ Dinner

✅ Play A Little to the Left

✅ Check and reply to school emails

✅ Go to bed before 12am (finally!!)

Hope you are giving yourself permission to rest as well 🩵

Day 4

On days like this, I feel like I'm stepping backward, unwinding all the hard work I've put forward in the past few days. It hasn't even been a week yet...

My dog has been whining right before I go to bed to be taken out. Having presentations and essays back-to-back for my classes. Group projects are due soon. Spring break is in a few days. My thesis work is ongoing but not where I need it to be. - Things just aren't right.

I want to feel excited again. I want to feel alive again. I want to be free.

When I got home from school today, I laid down on the couch and started reading a webnovel. I ended up napping for two hours, and then realize that I still need to make food and it'll be time for bed. But I still have my daily assignments I need to get done, and my notes, and my thesis, and... My mind is going in a spiral but my body is moving like a turtle. All I want to do is read my webnovel and escape my stressful reality at the moment.

I'm going to muster the little strength that I still have to complete the essentials for tomorrow, and then call it a night. Maybe it is a day of necessary rest today.

04/07/2025

OK, I feel well-rested today, and I am still proud of myself for deciding not to go to the workshop yesterday because my friends are all complaining about how they are exhausted and annoyed. Their emotions are getting to me, so I'm dipping out for the sake of my peace 😅

I'm actually starting my study day early today, so let's see how it goes~

Completed

✅ Breakfast ✅ Listen to chill podcast ✅ Revise thesis paragraphs (2 hours) ✅ Play A Little to the Left 😺 ✅ Phone call with partner ✅ Therapy ✅ Watch anime ✅ Check and reply to school emails ✅ Fill out surveys (got a gift card!) ✅ Play Xbox with partner ✅ Clinic report formatting... (30 minutes)

To-Dos

⏹️ File taxes ⏹️ Clinical document x1 ⏹️ Clinic report results x1

I started off strong with my thesis, and woohoo! I worked on it for 2 full hours today so I can send my new draft to my advisor, and I'm just so proud of myself rn. I kinda took the rest of the day a little too chill, I guess lol. I can definitely tell how much I do not want to do my taxes, even tho I've done it before and I know it is really not that hard. I also ended up playing Xbox longer than expected so I didn't have too much time to finish the rest of the tasks.

End of Day: 12:28am - we'll try again tomorrow 🩵

03/17/2025

Proud of myself!

I started working on school stuff again after everything that's been going on. It was nerve-wracking at first, having to go through a lot of emails and reply to some from weeks ago. BUT... I got through them all!

Completed Tasks:

✅ Read (and organized) my school emails

✅ Research team meeting

✅ Review weekly task list

✅ Eat

✅ Take care of my dog

✅ Therapy session

✅ Finish 1 exam

✅ Added article summaries to class notes

What a relief! Now I can hop on Xbox to play with my partner and enjoy my dinner!!

~**~ Pinterest Inspirations ~**~

I noticed myself living in fear whenever I started looking at my semester planner and seeing how many things I had failed to complete thus far. It is an overwhelming feeling that keeps me frozen and stuck.

I don't know if I can get everything done before the end of the semester. And right now, this is my worst nightmare. I have always succeeded in higher education and I think I have feared failure to this extent.

But my partner is right, I can do anything I put my mind to. This is not about whether or not I can do these tasks, it is the fact that everything needs to get done so what will I do now to make it happen. This is not about whether or not I have faith in myself and how hopeful I am about this situation or hopeless about the current misfortune, but what would the adult part of me do now to make things work out without minimizing my needs and suppressing my emotions.

This is a lot. It feels heavy like I am carrying bags of stones on my shoulders while climbing a mountain. But this time I need to face my fears like a responsible adult instead of running away from my troubles and avoiding everything.

I can do this. I WILL do this. 💪🏻