Yes My Feelings Are Valid But I Don't Want Them

I hate this I play vrchat a lot and when someone flirts with me on there I flirt back not because I have any feeling for them but because I crave the attention and then when I’ve had enough I drop them and feel absolutely awful for it afterward, like I wish I could tell them the truth and let them know it’s not them…it’s just simply out of my control which is why I try to stay mute as often as possible because the healthiest relationship I can have is unfortunately with a mute whom I can project onto and receive attention from without hurting them or having them expect things I cannot give.

Cluster b culture is flirting with EVERYONE because you want attention and then feeling confused because you actually don't feel anything romance related. It took me years to know that I'm aroace and that I flirt a lot due to my need of attention. My confusion with my sexuality + my need for attention = years of denial of my true identity T.T

This except when I’m favorite personing someone, it’s literally unbearable but at the same time I don’t want it to stop…because if it does I’ll fall into the numb again. :/

have u ever been in so much emotional pain to the point where ur chest starts to hurt and it feels hard to breathe because ur brain is in so much agony to the point where it manifests that pain into physicality to cope with how much it hurts

Pokemon Fashion Icons

COLOR CAS GACKGROUNDS PT 1

ive been kinda lacking w ideas in the cc department bc i cant really make meshes anymore(╯︵╰) or really use blender for sims so i made ten cas color backgrounds in colors i like!!!

theirs not much else to add other than they work with all of the other cc facets you might have just dont have more than one cas bg in game at a time!!! so enjoy!!!!!

1, terracotta 2, future blue 3, banana yellow

4, mocha 5, cut grey

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Literally! I’ll cry while talking about it then not really feel anything and just shrug and truly go “anyways…” 😅😂 then they are like you wanna talk about it more? And I’m like nah I’m good it’s passed PFFFT!

Me, whenever someone learns about my childhood and trauma:

(TS4) bknysimz PS2 nostalgia bundle

Let’s take a trip down memory lane with this PS2 nostalgia bundle by bknysimz.

Contains: Game stand PS2 video games PS2 Controllers in Pink and Black Functional PS2 Slim in Pink and Black PS2 Controller override in Pink and Black PS2 Memory Cards Gaming Guitar PS2 Video Game Overrides

Y2K Video Game overrides contain: - Bratz: Rock Angelz - Hannah Montana: Spotlight - The Simpsons: Hit & Run - Catwoman

Classic Game overrides contain: - Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas - NBA Street - Scarface: The World Is Yours - WWE SmackDown vs Raw 2007

All meshes are 100% meshed and textured by me. All LODS. Gaming stand has multiple swatches (some with and without certain shadows!)

Please choose one override for the controller and video game.

TOU: No conversions over to GTA, FiveM, Sims 2, Sims 3 and so on. If you want to recolor, please do not include my mesh in your own file. Please link to the original file instead.

I suggest using bb.moveobjects on.

AVAILABLE ON PATREON.

BETTER IN-GAME LIGHTING MOD

✩ Do not: re-upload my CC, claim my CC as your own, use as a base/part for your CC!

I have always been very upset because the lighting of the game spoils the appearance of my characters, which I create for hours in CAS. With these thoughts in mind I started working on this mod. And now my characters can look the same in the game and in CAS with this mod.

GENERAL DESCRIPTION

default in-game lighting mod for The Sims 4;

base game compatible;

completely redesigned outdoor and indoor lighting;

brighter and cleaner lighting everywhere at any time of the day and weather;

the brightness of the lighting varies depending on the time of day and weather, but it’s always “clean”;

conflicts with mods that affect in-game lighting, you can only install one such mod in your game!

FILE TYPES (install only one version!)

BRIGHT PALE - bright pale lighting;

BRIGHT BASE - bright base lighting;

BRIGHT SATURATED - bright saturated lighting;

AVERAGE PALE - average pale lighting;

AVERAGE BASE - average base lighting;

AVERAGE SATURATED - average saturated lighting;

DARK PALE - dark pale lighting;

DARK BASE - dark base lighting;

DARK SATURATED - dark saturated lighting;

I advise you to install the AVERAGE BASE version first and try others based on your impressions of it.

For example, if the light seemed too bright to you, then you should download the DARK version. Or if the light didn’t seem bright enough to you, then you should download the BRIGHT version. And also with saturation gradation: if the BASE version seemed too dim to you, you should download the SATURATED version and vice versa.

MORE INFO AND DOWNLOAD (EA)

Thank you a lot for all your support 💘!

I’m jealous of those who can function like a normal human being. They don’t have anxiety holding them back from everything, they don’t struggle to get out of bed or have to put on an act that everything is fine when its not. They don’t struggle to hold friendships and relationships… they don’t feel sad for no fucking reason everyday. Those that can hold jobs and work towards their dreams, the ones who have self esteem and see the beauty in themselves. Those that know what its like to feel safe and secure, not insecure and fearful of it all. 

I do this because I think I can trust them but then I’m the back of my mind I’m like “this is bad they will take advantage of me/mess with my mimicking or think badly of me” AND THATS ON TRUST ISSUES. 😀

Why am I like this?

Radio Eyes

Just some simple eyes with catchlights ଘ(੭*ˊᵕˋ)੭*

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6 swatches

found in facepaint

slider compatible

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DOWNLOAD | 3/04/23