Burymeinplainsight - BuryMeInPlainSight

16 pieces of wheatthins plain 140

1 smart kettle corn popcorn 100

240 calorie snack

NEW UPDATED SAFE FOOD LIST

Tea

Coffee

Splenda

Fruit

Vegtables

Pop corn

Zero sugar torani coffee syrup (0 cal)

Diet soda

Diet energy drinks

Soy milk

Eggs whites (only 18 calories)

Zero sugar coffee creamer 15 calories per table spoon

When I go home I'm gonna throw away all the foods I shouldn't be eating. The fatty chicken, the oatmeal, pasta. And what else I'm not supposed to have.

I WILL GET THINNER. I don't care HOW I get there but I will get there. Fuck being obese

Blueberry tea with splenda 0 calorie treat and bubble gum

I'm not losing weight fast enough. For now on I will limit myself to only 500 calories perday. Although I'm losing weight and I'm watching the scale go down I would want the weightloss to actually be noticeable.

So for 500 calories a day I will just have to get used to the hunger. I no longer want to be a big chick all it attracts is abusers and liers

I wish I could survive on as little calories as possible. I long to punish myself for the wrong I've done to my ex, my mother or just anyone really that I have displeased with my presence. I need to punish myself. Only then I'll be a good girl inside and out. I'd say a good number for myself would be 500 calories. I need to punish myself. I CANNOT exists on food. My suffering will be atonement for all my sins.

Pumpkin spice iced coffee 120 calories

Zero sugar torani syrup -

Ice- 0 calorie

Pumkin spoce coffee- 0

Splenda Zero calorie- Just added a lot in

Zero sugar coffee creamer 15 cal per tbsp

15×8=120

Well I fasted for one day and it went pretty well. I went to work as usual then got home and got some rest. I got called into to work so that helped as well. I don't want to give in and order pizza like last time again. I want to continue to lose weight. So far I'm down 7lbs from where I started (no I'm not posting body stats there's pervs on here )

And ways thinking about going on another fast soon as my first day was a success. Surprised to step on the scale and be down 7lbs. I'm tempted to eat but I know that's not the right thing to do. Pretty soon I'm gonna purchase myself some protein powder to put in my iced coffee (gross I know but I NEED protein to stay full)

My goal in life would be to survive on 500 calories max. Which is something I'm working towards....

Low calorie food list

**Food items should be weighed for accuracy

Tea- 0 calories

Water- 0 calories

Coffee medium roast/flavored 0 calories for flavored check the bag to make sure.

Arugula 5 calories per cup

Lettuce- 5 calories per cup

Egg whites- 18 calories per egg yolk has to be removed

Alfalfa Sprouts- 8 calories per cup

Napa Cabbage 13 calories per cup

Cucumber 16 calories per cup

Celery- 14 calories per cup

Radishes - 19 calories per cup sliced

Bok Choy- 20 calories per cup

cabbage- 22 calories per cup

Mushrooms- 22 calories per cup

Eggplant 35 calories sliced

Swiss Chard 35 calories per cup sliced Asparagus 40 calories per cup

Spinach 41 calories per cup

Summer Squash 34 calories per cup

Diet soda - 0 calories

zero suger coffee creamer 15 to 25 calories always check the package-

splenda - 0 calories

Tomorrow I will start taking pictures of my foods that I eat and post them to my account. Even if I drink a cup of water.

Help me stay motivated!!

Recently I have fasted for a full 24 hrs - after that I gave in and rapidly ate some pizza (again) so I had a horrible stumach ache, gas and bloating. I feel terrible as I lack will power and self control. So today will be different. I'm gonna be good and fast untill supper time (let's see how long my will power will last)

Oh and the scale is down 4 more lbs so I'm doing good losing weight but I fear it's not fast enough. Oh well I'll just have to be patient and take the best of what I can get.

Fuck today is gonna be rough. I'm already feeling shaky and nausea due to the fatty sugary foods I ate. I'm also starting to realize that I don't deserve kindness as fat whore. I should be grateful for whatever kindness someone does to me and having sex is a luxury for me. It's a miracle anybody really wants me.... but I know I can redeem myself through fasting and food restriction.