Yeah This Is Me…

Yeah this is me…

are you mad at me. have you been mad at me. will you get mad at me. when will you get mad at me.

How the Terror characters would show their affection

Francis Crozier, James Fitzjames, Harry Goodsir, Thomas Blanky, Thomas Jopson

Francis Crozier

- Francis has been rejected and hurt so many times, sometimes he wonders if you are a figment of his imagination.

- But when he feels your hand grasping his when parties get to be too much or your head resting on his shoulder on the carriage ride home he remembers you did choose him.

- Francis in turn showers you with affectionate words and shows you his love through acts of service.

- When alone he serenades you with Irish poetry and showers you with compliments

- You could be doing something as simple as reading in front of the fireplace and his voice will break the quiet with something like “Sometimes I wonder if you are a siren of the land, calling me back to home when I need it most.”

- To him you are his home, in fact you have become his everything, he makes sure you know this by writing letters as frequently as possible when out sailing.

- He says how he misses your reassuring smile and the long nights you both had simply conversing on new topics while basking in the light of the fireplace.

- Now when this captain is home he practically brushes away the title completely. He is your husband at home nothing more.

- So there are times you come home from long ‘polite’ tea parties that were ‘mandatory’ to attend. Finally you can drop the facade and simply relax, except you have to make dinner and do the dishes-

- But as you walk into the kitchen Francis can be seen chopping onions in a few-sizes-too-small apron.

- The sight was enough to make you burst into tears, although you heavily appreciated it nonetheless.

- Knowing this Francis simply smiles, one of those smiles where you can see all his teeth and says “I was hopin’ to have it done before you got home.”

- As his words settle over you, you smile and offer to help.

- He shoos you away and says if you truly wanted to help you would pull up a chair and give him something to listen to (by this he means your voice)

- These events happen interchangeably with Francis sometimes coming home from another meeting where he was scorned and laughed at.

- Yet when he comes home there you are a clean house and cooking dinner.

- The Irishman couldn’t be any happier nor would he want anything else in life, title and legacy be damned.

James Fitzjames

- James Fitzjames is a man imprisoned by every word that falls from his mouth and every move he makes.

- His words have always just been a way to appeal to his superiors and to craft a mask to hide his heritage.

- When you came along and that mask finally slipped you became his lifeline and pillar.

- Words never meant much to him, they were cheap and unreliable.

- So he shows his love through physical affection and gifts.

- James likes physical affection because unlike words it solidifies that you are there and do care.

- While he has to reserve more intimate touching at home because of what is seen as ‘proper’ for high society he doesn’t mind it too much.

- At parties or generally in public James brushes against you as much as possible. Sometimes even keeping his hand barely touching the small of your back. Because good lord the scandal he would cause if he held your hand the whole night.

- As soon as the two of you are alone (such as the carriage ride home) his fingers are entwined with yours and he is pressed up against you.

- Please rest your head against his shoulder that man would physically melt.

- When you two have free time at home he will lounge against you and surprise you with kisses at random.

- After a long day he just wants you to hold him, hold your hand to his cheek and rest your forehead against his. All day he heard about new taxing expeditions and about how great it must be to be in his position. However he’s equally as willing to just hold you instead, huddled into a too-small couch.

- You are his peace of mind and his anchor just be there, that is all he needs.

- Speaking of expeditions, when this man is away from you he becomes lost.

- He’ll write to you when he can, and I know I said words aren’t his go to when it comes to you, but what choice does he have while at sea?

- You get letters from James in which he laments about the “absence of your warmth hardens his heart”.

- Other examples include him writing “my title is the albatross around my neck for my only title should be as your husband.”

- When he does get back from sea expect him to be really clingy. Like “oh you’re going to the markets? I’ll escort you there.” Or even just being more affectionate in public, which gets both of you some side eyes and disturbed looks. Despite the two of you simply just leaning into each other.

- He is also big on gifts, anything that he can afford that you so much as look at longer than normal he will get for you.

- ”Love close your eyes” and when you do you feel something cold but soft around your neck. When you open your eyes pearls lay against your chest. The very same pearls you were eyeing last weekend.

- His smile when you gasp and say something along the lines of “James you shouldn’t have!” Is unmatched. He definitely puffs out his chest in pride for being able to get you something so nice.

- To be honest the biggest reason he spoils you with gifts is so that you have something of him when he is away on expeditions.

- Which he also loves to bring you back things from different trips.

- When he stationed at tropical islands he brought back a few shells he thought were pretty

- Those shells are displayed on your dresser, a reminder that no matter how far he goes he still thinks of you.

Harry Goodsir

- The good ‘doctor’ Goodsir is always worried about doing too much or seeming too clingy, but he also wants you to know he does care. He just doesn’t wanna be too much.

- Because of this he shows his affection through Quality time and Acts of Service.

- Don’t get me wrong, he still gives you gifts here and there not to mention being outwardly affectionate, but it’s few and far between.

- Lots of times quality time consists of reading a book together or even just going in depth about both of your days.

- The later option often turns into Harry going off on a tangent about his recent studies with a wide smile and a gleam in his eye.

- Until over half an hour in he realizes how long he’s been talking so he becomes bashful, repeatedly stuttering and apologizing that he didn’t mean to make the conversation all about him.

- Watch him turn vermillion when you tell him he looks cute when he rambles.

- He does love listening to you talk and infodump as well. Especially if it’s an interest you both have in common.

- While you do talk he looks at you as if you are the only thing that exists, and in those intimate moments you are. He wouldn’t want to be anywhere else than with you.

- When it falls to acts of service he is king and strangely always knows when you need it most?

- You could be coming home from work with an aching back dreading doing anything else, but like magic Harry already got all the food for dinner, cleaned most of the house and finished organizing the kitchen.

- Those days he appears as an angel and you can’t help but hug the man and rest your head against his chest. While he may be surprised at first he slowly melts into the hug. Yeah this is nice, he doesn’t mind it.

- Both of you see the other as some sort of saint and while it might not be the ‘normal’ way of showing affection it works quite well for both of you.

Thomas Blanky

- This man is a wildcard, he enjoys showering you with whatever affection he can give in the moment. However, his favorites are quality time and verbal affection.

- Yeah he could buy you gifts and be at the pub all the time or he could spend his evenings will you playing chess in the dying light while discussing your days. He clearly goes with the later.

- The most prominent reason as to why quality time is so important to him is because he’s at sea for years at a time, so he feels it would be foolish to waste what little time he has with you.

- Reading, simple conversation, games, he’ll do it all as long as he gets to spend time with you.

- One of his favorite pastimes to do is read Shakespeare (as much as Francis makes fun of him for it)

- He’ll simply read aloud with you either sitting next to him or a chair across from him.

- Thomas claims he doesn’t have a favorite play, but you know it’s hamlet because of the slight different tone he uses when reading it compared to all the other plays.

- The Icemaster loves verbal affection because he can reach you from anywhere so long as there is a postal office.

- While he’s at sea expect long letters detailing his journey and how beautiful everything is, but that beauty pales in comparison to you.

- ”Her Oceans majesty is great, her arms are open, and her body sparkles yet I cannot help but wish to swim back to you, for you outshine her tenfold.”

- However he always finds a way to playfully jab at you in his letters, wether it be over the spilled ink in your last letter or mispelled words.

- Sometimes when he goes to the arctic he’ll write multiple letters before the last stop and then have those letters mailed at different dates.That way you almost always have a letter to open.

- Although he doesn’t know it, you save each and every letter to look back at when you feel lonely.

- When he’s gone and the loneliness gets to you more than usual you sleep with a few, clutching them to your chest with hopes that you’ll receive another letter from him soon and not the admiralty.

- When Thomas does return he answers your worries with a laugh and “You didn’t think you could get rid of me that easy right?”

Thomas Jopson

- Thomas Jopson is ever the observant man and he adores you.

- So he tries to make your life as easy as possible by using his time as a steward to help.

- In this way he shows affection through acts of service and and physical affection.

- The two types of affection are quite different, and while some may believe he doesn’t show physical affection at all they just haven’t seen him behind closed doors.

- As soon as the two of you aren’t in public he clings to you like a sloth.

- While it did take a while for him to show physical affection in your relationship, you’re too deep now and can’t escape.

- Lots of times while he’s cleaning and you are taking care of things like cooking or bills he’ll do drive by kisses, although you have no issue returning them.

- The both of you almost make it a game to see how many kisses the other can sneak into their routine.

- Damn his sparkling eyes as he looks at you with so much adoration and love.

- “Thomas! You’ll ruin my makeup!” You proclaim while trying to hold him back and continue cooking.

- The love struck Stewart with obvious lipstick stains all over his face: “Why Ma’am I would never consider doing such a thing!”

- He definitely ‘let’s you win’ just so he gets more kisses.

- One time before he left for an expedition you snuck a kiss onto his cheek. He forgot about the lipstick you were wearing so he was very confused as to why he kept getting strange looks on the first day on the ship, or why some men laughed and whistled his way? When he realizes why he doesn’t wipe the lipstick or the smile off his face for the rest of the day. (That is until the captain orders him to and he mopes like a kicked puppy.)

- When it comes to acts of service this man works like an ant, it’s almost like he can’t separate his job and his time at home. So sometimes you have to just hold him for a while to get him to slow down.

- ”Thomas you’re working too hard again.”

- ”Only for you Love.”

- This response earns him a playful smack on the arm and a bear hug that he’s not released from until he agrees to sit down with you.

- You truly appreciate him cleaning and doing chores but don’t want him to wear himself out :(

- On that note once when you practically demanded him to rest he accidentally responded with “In a minute Captain.” He turned bright red and once you got over the initial shock you respond “As your Captain I order you to take a break now.”

- Cue Thomas sitting down on the nearest chair immediately.

- You ended up pestering him for the rest of the night and occasionally when he’s working you’ll say something with a shit eating grin like “I think the Captain wants you to take a break.”

- Hold this man close because it doesn’t get much better than this.

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Y/n: You know sometimes I wonder how I got so lucky-

Blanky*drinking out of a peg leg*: I think the question you should be asking is how do you put up with me love, but ok.

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Fitzjames*lamenting about ho much he misses his partner*

Crozier: For gods sake Fitzjames! Just go back to the damn sniper story already!

Fitzjames: You’re just sour because I’m not alone and you are-

*Cue a punch thrown over the table*

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Y/n: Make sure you tell that Captain of yours that you need to make it back in one piece.

Jopson*with a grin aimed at you*: Captain I need to make it back in one piece or else Mrs/Mr/Ms. Jopson might come after you.