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After you shifted for 27 years, how long had passed in your cr?

A couple of months, I don’t know the exact time frame but I wanna say 2 months and three weeks passed. A couple of things changed about this reality as well, I noticed that a certain actor is still alive; Jim carry to be exact. Before I shifted I swear I grew up seeing posts about how great of an actor he was, and how sorry everyone was that he had died. Not only that but I was certain that my brothers dad worked at a serious management job in a fast food company, but I guess not?? Whenever I bring it up my mom jokes at me because I am so certain that he did work there.

Also my other brother broke the microwave while I was “away”. tore the handle right off, and a couple days later it stopped working all together haha

GIRLLLL, OMG THANK UUUUU FOR TAKING YOUR TIME DUMBING IT DOWN FOR ME😭🧎🏻‍♀️(not screaming, just trying to pkace all ky affection in a sentence and not knowing how to😔)

I seriously appreciate you soooo much🩷🫶🏼

also go do your hw!!! you can just read this post if you wanna since I'm trying to figure shi out on my own...🥀

I've noticed that I'm trying to change the 'speck of consiousness that were experiencing right now/current reality'. I'm holding onto the belief that I am in my dr, which is absolutely true, yet am wondering why my consiousness hasn't been reflected yet because I think of the process as instant. I'm a very impatient person. But me shifting or not shouldn't get affected by that. I should probably get rid of trying to control things, but God these circumstances are weird.

I've always felt like what I'm experiencing is my enemy, even after trying to make myself understand that it's really just my reflection. And it is absurd? cause like, I'm literally consiousness. Why am I even acting up when J can do whatever I want? And when I do hold on to the belief that I have stuff, I get humbled...😔🥀

ok don't bother answering to this it's just me rambling and yapping as usual🧎🏻‍♀️

Hiii !!! You are so welcome !!

I can totally understand that even though we are kind of the oppisite ( i would say I'm a pretty patient person and I go with the flow lol )

I feel like going with the flow and allowing things to happen without resistance has helped me a lot tbh !

Also yap however much you want!!

Aphrodite, as well as deciding when and where

I just want to say, this is more for me than it is anyone - take what you want and leave what you don't want. I'm not here to narrate your life. I just like talking into the void of the internet.

There was a different form of consciousness I went to when I was a child. I was young when this happened, I barely remember what was going on. I was at this sand temple, there were others for brief moments. It was a beautiful and sentimental place. I really only remember the emotion tied to it. Confusion, despair, survival but not at the deepest level. Maybe it was a shift, maybe it wasn't. I was too young to figure it out. I still wonder what significance it has, why was I there, what part of my mind wanted me to go. Maybe it was a past life. I’ve lived a lot of lives and I think I’m ready to permashift. Of course in the future I will decide where - right now I still want a little more time. I already said I would permashift and I did leave for a while but eventually came back. I'm not very good at expressing what I have lived and when I do I end up hating the way I phrased it,, But now I have an idea on how I want to do it for the future.

It feels as if i'm at a crossroad, many paths and outcomes will always be there for me.

A couple years ago around Christmas I bought an alice and wonderland tarot deck. Even though this was a long time ago I’m still getting the hang of reading cards, but I have learned a lot since using them. I’ve always loved Alice, around that time I had set out to watch every variation of the story. I watched the Czech one; Alice 1988. I don’t think I finished it but I got a good way through and the film amazed me with how surreal it was. I’m pretty sure everyone can see that, that story and shifting are related in a way. This was also the time where I had really gotten into Greek mythology and Hellenic views. I’m not a master in it and prefer to follow the gods of my Lumari dr - but this was before I shifted there. Now, I work with Aphrodite as well as my own gods. One Friday I sat down and did a reading with her. I wanted to make a waiting room. I don’t remember exactly what I had asked her but her answer was clear. Shifting does not require a waiting period, it doesn't need a bridge or a state of if. Just do it as soon as you'd like, go where you want as soon as the thought pops into your head. There is no need to flesh the idea out completely. A few words and visual ideas is all I really need; If I find myself scripting too much it's like the reality becomes something entirely different from what I wanted. Even though I have found that this works for me I still fail to give into the urge to shift as soon as the motivation clings to me. I’m a major procrastinator, it’s a flaw I’m working on. I have success with shifting to random realities, ones that I think of in a quick moment, and then decide I want to be there. I hate being picky, I’m conflicted with uncertain people. Just go, your subconscious is not actively out to get you. It’s not something to be scared of. That’s how I came to the way I view shifting now, also I think tarot is a way to bring out your subconscious beliefs. 

shifting storytime l X-files dr

another theme hope my future self likes this one sigh.. The words come easier to me when it's more recent shifts and I remember more so I’ll be writing about this one first. 

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I love this dr dearly like most of my homes but there's something about this one that just makes me feel something else. Growing up watching the show made me feel comfort like nothing else. I was laying down on the couch, staring at the ceiling zoning out. I hadn't slept for a while, I had stayed up all night, I want to say it was due to sleeping issues but that would be a lie; I was watching youtube videos all night. And it was too early in the morning for me to fall asleep so I just stayed up for as long as I could. I had the thought about shifting here in my mind for a while so while I was zoning out I had begun to leave this reality. It was like my emotions were there and my senses were here for a while until I was fully there. I was then on my bed laying down, I have a very small but beautiful apartment. I couldn't see him but my s.o was cooking dinner and I remember hearing the sound of the food frying on the pan. I just stayed there for a bit, content that I wasn't moving. For some reason when I shift recently I end up going somewhere in a drastically different movement, I'll be laying down and then moving down a hill very fast. Anyway, I saw the view from my windows, the sun had just set, the summer breeze was drifting in. I felt at peace. At the moment I wasn't working, I scripted that I had previously modeled and then worked for NASA corps. It was pretty mundane at first, I had gotten up hugged my husband, ate, took a shower, and then wrote in my journal. My first few weeks looked like this along with chores, shopping and lots of napping.

My old coworkers' husband worked for the FBI and had offered me a job. I sat and thought about it, at the time I didn't remember this reality so I didn't know what the x-files was or really what I was setting myself up for. He reached out to me again and said he suggested they should meet me. I found it rude that he did that without my word but I would need to find a job soon, nasa's astronaut training was way too tiring to go back, and what else did I have to lose. - I hadn’t scripted any of this, I didn't know how I was going to land being there. I just let my subconscious do the work. I thought this was funny when I came back, so i'm putting it here. -

My husband is an architect working from home. He had finished his day up early that morning we had decided to go swimming. The drive was slow, quiet. The curve of the road was lethargic. This day was one of my favorites here, perfect weather, calm water. It was a good rest before I needed work. 

By late July it was apparent that the rest of my time would be filled with late night car rides, door to door interviews, sunflower seeds, sealed conversations in cheap hotels, blisters from heels and most importantly the most mind-numbing rants from mulder. Haha yeah skinner I'm not gonna make it into work today, I just saw an anomaly....???!!... The first moments of being here felt safe and warm but as I threw myself into my work it melted away into a dark surrealist tone. The dreamlike feeling of the cases, almost ominous, made me feel on edge. Although I fit flawlessly, it felt like I was third wheeling most of the time, a child sitting in the backseat while her parents were bickering. Of course I'm exaggerating but it was a normal occurrence for me to turn up the radio to tune them out. 

Thats all I feel like writing for now I need to study..

Experiencing death in your dr

This was absolutely very weird and I can't even explain how I felt at this moment....

I was in my fame reality and everything was going as how life would usually go. I was in a restaurant with my s/o and we were having a date night together and enjoying the view from the window we were sitted at, then suddenly we hear commotion and my s/o gets up and tells me that he thinks something is wrong we need to go, that's when the gun fire started so my bodyguards came to me and were leading both of us out that's when I see a masked person pointing a gun at me and firing it, the bullet hit my forehead head like I could feel it pierce it and then there was a ringing sound... Then darkness... It felt like I was in the void.... Like I was everything and everything was me...

My eyes open and I find myself in a room and guess what room was that?

My room in my K-pop reality. I felt like I was being yanked up and I opened my eyes to my members looking at me like I'm some kind of drug addict. I didn't even have the sike or energy to stay there so I said the safeword and woke up here to my friend telling me that her boyfriend cheated on her.

This made me realise that maybe we don't die at all and that has quited all the insecurities that I had around death.

It was weird, it was creepy and it happened so fast.....but I guess that means that we are immortal?🤷🏽‍♀️

~ No I didn't script this, why the hell would I even!!?!

Your account is so beautiful and so poetic, the way you write when you respond to anons sound like handwritten letters for some reason 😭💕 maybe it's because I read them with a soft poetic voice in my head idk but I'm wondering.. When you shift to so many different realities for such long periods of time to escape this current reality, there have been many shifters that said that you could feel big detachment or even more misery when you come back here. I wonder though, when you come back from a shift, especially when you've been in your DR for years.. Does it affect how you experience relationships in the current reality? Have you ever felt detached, or distant from friends, family members, or probably just distant relatives, classmates / co-workers, and etc. ?

And could it be because you outgrown them, (because your soul must definitely feel aged when you have immortality living thousands of lives in the realities in your mind, right?) or could it be that some relationships become unfulfilling? Orr..?

Or have you ever experienced the opposite? And end up being happy seeing close people either because you've missed them or have scripted them into your realities? I'm really curious, as someone who tried to shift just last night as a fun act of self-love and fun place to spend a vacation on another planet 😭😭😭

You are the sweetest, I can't describe how happy your words make me. Thank you so much!!

Whenever I come back It's a feeling of relaxation, or the feeling of being awake in the middle of the night when no one else is. I feel alone but it doesn't bother me. Usually in the moment I’m recounting what happened in my head so I don’t forget about it. I definitely feel more mature, I try to help my mom out as much as I can, force her to do certain things that will help her mental health; I didn't used to do this but now I feel like I can teach her things I didn't know before. She’s a very pessimistic person, it seems like everything that she says is negative and I’ve found that it's hard to relate since I’ve come back. Sometimes I feel out of place but it’s never gotten to the point of misery. I’ve grown up with a lot of anxiety and now that I have experienced what I have I realized I should never feel shame about leaving here. 

I shift to experience a different life, I personally don’t script it to be perfect and happy all the time. I want to experience all of it. I‘ve suffered in every reality I’ve been in, including this one and I don’t see it as a bad or good thing. I just see it as something to learn from, so detachment from here is not a problem for me. I do get sad sometimes that I can’t relay what I’ve been through to my family. Sure, I can shift to a reality where they understand the concept and would console me, but a part of me doesn't want to.

I had a child in my Kirasia dr and that's the reason I ended up leaving there. Though I was happy, I didn’t think I was ready. I was sitting on my bed and kind of dissociating in that moment because the thought of raising a whole entire human being scared me. I will go back, maybe re-live my life there and continue on instead of leaving but I don’t know when that moment will come. A couple of months ago In this reality I was sitting on the couch with my mom and baby sister and was so overcome with emotions when I looked at her. I just started to cry, I said it was because she was being cute, a part of it was, but In that moment I was reminded of my own child. Here I’m a couple months from graduating, and there I am a mother.    

My relationship with my family has gotten better here though. My step dad apologized to me and I was finally mature enough to have an actual conversation with him. My mom wants me to live with her for a while and tells me I shouldn't have to work myself to death. And I finally cut someone off who I didn’t need anymore; so yes I have outgrown people. I don’t know if these things would have happened if I never shifted. I think after shifting my subconscious reworked itself and that's why those moments happened. 

The only detachment I really feel is noticing how immature people are. Before I shifted I tolerated it but now I don’t put any energy into it. I can’t believe I didn’t notice how many grown adults are fucking insane, sorry for the bluntness it’s just crazy seeing how stupid people are. I’m mostly talking about how weird relationships are here, and how some people will find any excuse to be abusive. Not even physically but just mentally. Some of these people aren't even aware of their own actions either - I’m ranting… but I think you get the idea.

When I come back here It's like I've learned a whole new outlook on life and I feel happy to view the world through that lens here. I’ve never felt regret about shifting, someday I’m going to choose not to come back here and I’m fine with that. 

These were such good questions and because of your ask you gave me a new idea on what to write about! I’ve been trying to think about what to write about that isn't a storytime so I’m happy I finally have a small Idea.

Shifting and using LOA with OCD

I feel like it's important to talk about how harmful it can be to ignore this subject. So if you have ocd or anxiety and still want to shift or use loa this post is for you. I want to stress that it is ok to worry about intrusive thoughts. Just because you dwell on an obssesion does not mean its going to manifest. However, I still feel the need to share ways you can prevent your intrusive thoughts from making you stress while shifting and using loa. First we need to fully know what we are dealing with and then how to fix the issue.

If you are not aware, OCD has four stages:

Obssesion - Unwanted, intrusive, and distressing thoughts, images or urges. (sometimes these thoughts are not clear and can just feel like impending doom without reason.) These intrusions are unwanted and are sent from your areas of your brain including the prefrontal cortex (orbitofrontal and anterior cingulate cortexes), basal ganglia, and thalamus. !!!

Anxiety - Intense fear and discomfort triggered by the obssesions. Dwelling on the thought, worring that you are a bad person by thinking a certian thing ( you are not ) or stressing that the intrusive thought will happen.

Compulsion - Repetitive behaviors or mental rituals performed to reduce the anxiety caused from these thoughts. ex; counting in your head, doing something untill it feels "even", washing your hands a certian amount of times, or even yelling and shunning the thought out of your head.

Temporary relief - The compulsions provide temporary relief from the anxiety, reinforcing the cycle. Once you do your compulsion it tricks your mind into thinking that these obssesions pose a real danger, and that compulsions are necessary in order to be safe. (these are what we want to stop so we can break the cycle.) And yes, telling the thought to go away and cursing at it is also a compulsion.

I'm going to start this of by saying, compulsions are bad. Please try not to give into them. I know it's hard at first and you will feel scared and uncomfortable but thats the point. You have to undo the cycle to build a new one. Compulsions give the intrusive thoughts meaning. We don't want this. If you give the thought meaning or show feelings to it your brain is going to think its important therefore it will keep sending you the thought. There is two ways to stop this, Ignore the thought, or decunsruct the thought (aka ERP.)

Ignoring the thought can go like this: Label the thought as intrusive but do not add emotion to it. But also don't push it away Ex; "This is an intrustive thought, I am going to think about something else now." If the thought becomes overwhelming and you can't get away from it, start manually breathing. This will distract your brain. We want to act like the thought is like any other thought you would have. The avarge human has about 60,000 thoughts a day. Do we remeber all of these? Of course not. This is because we dont attach any emotion or dwell on them. It's kind of ironic because this method is basically using loa. If we act like the thought is usless and not important it will become just that and our brain will stop sending us the thought.

Decunstructing the thought or exposing and response prevention (erp) can be a little more difficult. The goal here is to overcome the fear and expose our selves to the intrusive thoughts completely. I know it sounds scary but remeber if you have no intention of manifesting said thought then it simply won't manifest. (an intrusive thought saying you have intention does not count don't worry) I also use this to re script traumatic events or nightmares. Imagery rescripting is what I am going to call this method of moving away from your intrusive thoughts. Imagery Rescripting is a technique that is often used in therapy to deal with upsetting or significant images that occupy our mind and play a part in keeping our anxiety going. The problematic images that people often struggle with can be memories of the past, nightmares, or intrusive thoughts. You have probably noticed that with all of your intrusive thoughts or images, the common response is to try to avoid the image, to push it away, to shun it out of our minds. This is a very understandable reaction, unfortunately avoiding these thoughts and using a compulsion usually makes it worse. It makes us very fearful of the thought itself, giving the intrusive thoughts power over you, and therefore the thought becomes something more than a "just a thought." By rescripting you are no longer avoiding them. Instead you are actively approaching them. You run the full image/thought in your head and then re write it. You can do this however you want. Rescripting it can range from complete fantasy or staying in the guidelines of this reality. Ex; Inflating the image and adding different hues to it. Making the scary thing in the image look silly; this takes away power from it. Do you want Hatsune Miku to start e dancing on your fears? She totally can! Adding a comfort character or a s/o to the image and letting them change it for you/comfort you can also work. If it is just a thought I would try and see the full sentence of said thought and then change the letters in your head to make it say something else. Or you can make the letters change into silly little characters..make them dance! Important note - You have to first deal with the intrusive thought/image. You cannot skip over this part or else it will just be a compulsion. If it is to triggring have someone else in the room while you do it so they can wake you up from the visualization and help you ground yourself. I would only do this method if you know for a fact that you are ready to face your intrusive thoughts head on.

Crying or experiencing hard emotions while doing ERP is normal. Though, I did this alone, I would recommend someone you trust is there while you are doing it so if things get too overwhelming they can help you. I as well have ocd so most of this is from my personal experience.

If you have any questions about this my asks are open. :)

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I'd also add that I think shifting is more popular with younger people becuase a number of reasons:

Older people often have a strict outlook on the world, the idea of being aware of a different consciousness would not align with how they have been taught to live. Most young people have seen how poorly that outlook can have, then become more open minded. And because of what the world is turning into today a lot of young people would want an escape from that.. Hopefully this makes sense 

I know it's kinda stupid question, but does our age in this CR matter while shifting, I am above 30 years of age and only see shifters who are at most 22-23 years of age and it kinda makes me feel left and makes me think that shifting is not for me or lets say not as easy as for me as it is for them ☹️.

No question is a stupid one don’t worry.. Your age doesn’t matter at all!!! You can shift whenever wherever ! Mentally I would say I’m around 27 and I shift how I’ve always have. You can shift no matter what as long as you have an awareness. I promise it won’t change anything. :)

I mean think about there are infinite realities and in those there are people who are shifting when they are thousands of years old.. Nothing will stop you.

it's okay girlie, I'll eat devour your post up anyway >:) *cue evil laughter

blushing .. ehhehe

hiii! :D

I was missing leydenkilgore's blog really badly and came across yours instead, and I'm super super grateful for it!! I instantly feel calm and at ease here. Thank you so much♡

Hii hii !! I too miss leyden's blog dearly. We used to be mutuals then one day she deactivated.. I read her post about how she wasn’t going to be active anymore but I didn’t think she would delete her account so that was a surprise. 

I’m so happy that my blog makes you feel at ease. I should be thanking youu ! I'll try and post more..