Goodbye..maybe?

when will we have more about your space bounty hunter dr??!!

I don’t post story times as much as I would like, I have a hard time putting my thoughts into words and my journals end up sounding like non sense when read by someone that isn’t me.. I’m not the kind of person who has a schedule for posting.

I do have drafts that I will post later but some of them are still a work in process. Not only that but I do tend to get wrapped up in my head and when I want to post something I need it to be perfect. I want this account to mostly be a digital journal for myself so I should probably stop taking the perfectionist route. I would like to talk about stuff that I find important and that I want to rant about pertaining this dr but I would love answering questions/asks about it (as long as they aren’t to personal haha)

I do want to share more about it, I will, It just takes some time for it to be up to my standards.

Have you revised your birth year in the current reality if you don't mind me asking? Or is there anyone among your friends who manifested that?

thank you and have a great day

Hi, I don't know anyone who has done that, but I have shifted to places where my birth year is different. I don't know what you mean by revised.

shifting just to eat these bye

How many DRs do you have altogether?

uhhrrhr....... up in the hundreds idk for sure...

HI! could you tell us more about your lumari dr??

Hello !! oh my god yes thank you so much for asking! I don't really know what you wanna know exactly since i have a bunch of different drs pertaining to lumari but the only ones ive posted about is Forlina and Kirasia. - which are both nations of lumari - I would think your asking about my recent one since its the only one i've talked in detail about.

I don't have names for some of my drs so sorry if this gets confusing. Anyway, like I said I stayed there for about a year and was a student living in a all girls home. We would cook together and divide the chores equally. I fell in love with everything there. The landscapes, the old women who would stop by the home and check up on us, the ocean. I spent most of my time at the beach there. I stayed there for hours. I didn't have to worry about being hurt in any way if I stayed out late. Lumari's society is very caring and polite. Though, I think the people there have a harder time being alone because they are always so connected to others. I think I've said this before, maybe not, drs look different. I'm not talking about the things you see there, but HOW you see it. I wanna say its almost like a filter is over your vision. I could compare this dr to film photography or an early morning if that makes sense. I look forward to go back there and finishing school even though I have no idea what I want to do.

Thinking about it more I don't know how much I want to talk about my kirasia shift, I planned to perma shift there but I ended up just shifting back here after going to a bunch of different drs.. which I kind of regret since Im planning on perma shifting again lol. That dr is very personal to me..

Thank you so much for asking !! <3

Aphrodite, as well as deciding when and where

I just want to say, this is more for me than it is anyone - take what you want and leave what you don't want. I'm not here to narrate your life. I just like talking into the void of the internet.

There was a different form of consciousness I went to when I was a child. I was young when this happened, I barely remember what was going on. I was at this sand temple, there were others for brief moments. It was a beautiful and sentimental place. I really only remember the emotion tied to it. Confusion, despair, survival but not at the deepest level. Maybe it was a shift, maybe it wasn't. I was too young to figure it out. I still wonder what significance it has, why was I there, what part of my mind wanted me to go. Maybe it was a past life. I’ve lived a lot of lives and I think I’m ready to permashift. Of course in the future I will decide where - right now I still want a little more time. I already said I would permashift and I did leave for a while but eventually came back. I'm not very good at expressing what I have lived and when I do I end up hating the way I phrased it,, But now I have an idea on how I want to do it for the future.

It feels as if i'm at a crossroad, many paths and outcomes will always be there for me.

A couple years ago around Christmas I bought an alice and wonderland tarot deck. Even though this was a long time ago I’m still getting the hang of reading cards, but I have learned a lot since using them. I’ve always loved Alice, around that time I had set out to watch every variation of the story. I watched the Czech one; Alice 1988. I don’t think I finished it but I got a good way through and the film amazed me with how surreal it was. I’m pretty sure everyone can see that, that story and shifting are related in a way. This was also the time where I had really gotten into Greek mythology and Hellenic views. I’m not a master in it and prefer to follow the gods of my Lumari dr - but this was before I shifted there. Now, I work with Aphrodite as well as my own gods. One Friday I sat down and did a reading with her. I wanted to make a waiting room. I don’t remember exactly what I had asked her but her answer was clear. Shifting does not require a waiting period, it doesn't need a bridge or a state of if. Just do it as soon as you'd like, go where you want as soon as the thought pops into your head. There is no need to flesh the idea out completely. A few words and visual ideas is all I really need; If I find myself scripting too much it's like the reality becomes something entirely different from what I wanted. Even though I have found that this works for me I still fail to give into the urge to shift as soon as the motivation clings to me. I’m a major procrastinator, it’s a flaw I’m working on. I have success with shifting to random realities, ones that I think of in a quick moment, and then decide I want to be there. I hate being picky, I’m conflicted with uncertain people. Just go, your subconscious is not actively out to get you. It’s not something to be scared of. That’s how I came to the way I view shifting now, also I think tarot is a way to bring out your subconscious beliefs. 

The menstrual cycle and letting go

my thoughts and confessions about how periods relates to shifting; nothing is fact

The gel began to warm up against my skin, the blanket covering my chest shielded me from the man giving me the ultrasound. The stick poked at my side, under my breast and then the place where my spleen should have been; I wasn’t born with one. This happens a lot when you come out with a heart defect. The nurse wasn’t looking for a baby but for the beats of my own heart. He sounded embarrassed whenever he told me to move positions or when he left the room, so I could change into a gown. His nature reminded me of when I was in middle school and a boy would agonizingly ask me out because of a dare. After it was done, I peeled the stickers off my body, wiped the gel away, got dressed, and made my way to the room where I was supposed to wait for my doctor. Like usual, the wait was longer than the interaction. She told me everything looked fine, I was healthy, and asked if I was getting regular exercise. After a monotonous conversation about figure skating, my mother's voice chimed in, asking about an IUD.

 Several months ago, I was debating getting one to prevent my period. I get very emotional during my period; it’s all very painful. I scripted them to be very light in my realities, so I wouldn’t have to deal with the tough parts. I was wondering why I still wanted to keep it; I notice many don’t. But I noticed that all my life my view on bleeding was that of a burden. I laughed alongside other women who cursed Eve's name, I groaned with my mother whenever she was on hers, and I never considered the reasons for tracking it. I never looked at it in any positive way.

A month or two ago, the feelings it brought were so heavy the moment I stood, I felt every emotion that I had been burying in me the days prior release from my thighs; I was so sore, like I would crumble. I lay down and cried. Then I started to notice that when I bleed I could feel all the things I’ve held onto leave my body, physically and emotionally. It’s when I noticed this I stopped being shameful of my period and started welcoming it.  Tiny rant: I realized I had a negative view of my period because of the many men who deemed it as sinful and disgusting; something that women should be ashamed of. I didn’t even realize this, and this is coming from someone who regularly deconstructs societal norms; that's how ingrained it was in my mind..sigh 

Before I started regularly shifting, I often held grudges. I never let go of anything anybody ever did to me; good or bad. Now I am not saying that you won’t shift if you do this; I am talking about myself personally. I had heard of the term letting go here and there. In the title of posts I liked to bookmark for later but never actually read, and in Reddit posts about how it changed the way they view shifting. But I never really understood what they were talking about. I had read about this girl who used her dreams to discover her blockages and such, but I didn’t have any intention of working on that. Because frankly, I didn’t think I had any. Ironically, that night I had two dreams about two people wronging me. 

One dream was with my biological father, he was very abusive. After his yelling and hitting, I ran away, climbed a highway wall and ended up walking along a dried-out river taking photos along the way. At the end of the dream, I was talking with my mom in the car. 

The other dream was with my stepfather. My mother was ignoring me and dismissing the fight. In this dream, I acted like a child alongside him. I was screaming like a toddler, throwing a fit because I wasn’t getting what I wanted. I don’t even remember what we were fighting about. But I had woken up from that dream realizing that they only mattered if I had put my energy into them. The problem was fixed when I didn’t pay mind to it, but it remained when I engaged with it. That's when I got it. Letting go isn’t about forcing yourself to forget–it’s about not engaging. I used to have an opinion on these things, but now they’re just people I once knew. When a thought about them pops up, I don’t fight it or feed into it. I just let it come and go. For me, letting go is refusing to dwell on shit that doesn’t matter. You’re choosing to step into a new reality, so why waste energy on one that doesn't serve you? 

It seems to relate, if you think about it in a poetic way. The moment I started understanding what was happening to me during my period, I also understood how my emotions were holding me back. It’s that stage of letting the emotions flow out and then be done with it. Be with them and let them go on their way. I see my period differently than before. I sat on the couch with my mom, it was early, we were the only ones awake. It was when she was talking about how her period came early I interrupted saying I changed my mind; I don’t want an IUD.  It’s natural, my body lives by the phases it produces so why would I want to stop it? Now, I felt that stopping it would do more harm than good, like I wouldn’t have the chance to let go of anything. That all of my burdens would be stuck in my thighs feasting on my legs refusing to let me walk. My grudges that stayed in place long before those two dreams prevented me from the best outcome in this reality. When I started putting my energy into better things instead of past events I received an apology and finally parted ways with another. 

Whenever I have a negative or positive thought about past grievances I don’t fight or feed into it, I let it come and move on. Don't dwell.

Hey love <3

I had a questions i thought asking you.

It is regarding scripting,

Is it possible to script to shift to let's say the year 2027 and watch like any movie that is gonna release that year and then shift back and tell everyone?

It is sort of like predicting the future.

Most people say it is possible but you will just shift back to another reality where you know about the movie and others don't.

So can you please clarify this and also can you please share your experiences with scripting because I am always scared that my script will not plan out as I intended it to be because I will miss so many details or not able to imagine it clearly😅.

Hii !

Yes that is possible because there is an infinite amount of possibilities, as long as you have the intention to shift to see the movies and shift back to where they would also be the same.

Scripting is full proof, if you know where you want to end up it should work out. Everything you script will work out how you want it, most of the time even better. Even if you can't imagine a full picture of it. And even if you can, It's one thing to imagine a forest with vibrant trees, loud birds, and a light mist in the air, but being there is so much more fulfilling.

I've had some scary experiences with shifting but those have only been accidental shifts. Ones I haven't scripted for, but that dosent mean everytime you don't script its going to be bad. I've also had some really nice shifts without scripting anything. The architecture in my drs is one of my favorite things, it's all so much better than I first thought it could be. I have OCD here, and having the opportunity to get rid of it is something that I'm also grateful for.

Hi! I hope you're doing well! I have a question on how to stop focusing on the body and symptoms when I'm shifting. When it comes to shifting, it feels like I know how to shift but I can't quite focus on already knowing that I'm there and accepting the shift. On top of that, I'm also really confused on intent. I want to pick a place to shift and wake up there but when I do it, all I see is my current reality and I just get super frustrated. Could you help me?

Hi, I'm doing better today !

I sometimes get really weird symptoms as well. If you keep forcing yourself to stop focusing on something it's going to be harder to forget about it. If I tell you to not think about a cat..it's not going to work. You thought of a cat right when you saw the word. If you can't stop focusing on your body then incorporate it into your method. It will be easier to relax if you are not actively fighting against it. 

I personally struggle with getting irritated at noise when I’m meditating/shifting or even trying to sleep. Then, I tried an open awareness meditation. It made me realize that it was easier to get into that flow state because I wasn't trying to fight everything that got in the way. 

Get into your usual shifting position

Be aware of how your body feels and sounds you hear. While you are doing this be aware of your thoughts, but don’t engage with them just let them come and go. If you focus too much on a certain sensation or sound, open your awareness back up, try not to stay on one thing for too long. Let everything come and go. 

When you are done you can either come back here or use this to shift. 

If you want to use it to shift, try and do the same thing but with where you are trying to be. For example, If you are shifting to a beach, be aware of the wind on your face, the sand sticking to your skin, the feeling of your heartbeat, or the emotions you would feel. But maybe practice here first if that will be easier.

Setting intention is telling yourself that you will do something or something will happen. For example, whenever I get a glass of water, I like to put ice in it. But sometimes the ice machine is all out. I set the intention to get ice, but I didn’t get it. Does that mean I'm never going to get ice for the rest of my life? Of course not. I just have to wait for it to fill up. If you think you are never going to shift because you set the intent but didn’t get it right then and there, that's just silly. Your brain might be trying to get accustomed to the fact you are trying to be aware of something else; even if you have been trying for years. I know it can be hard but try not to attach any emotion to it. If you see this reality and get annoyed your brain might get confused and begin to imagine your dr as something above. I recommend reading this post. 

stay hydrated queen🩷🫶🏼

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