Got Damn!!!

The Nintendo DS Eshop closes soon! :(

Starting March 27th, 2023, Nintendo is closing the doors to its eshop for the Nintendo 3DS systems and the Wii U. This means no more access to purchasing games or downloading demos, even through download codes. Even more, any payment feature on the systems will be disabled, including the Streetpass Mii Plaza, Nintendo Badge Arcade, and theme shop.

This means that today and tomorrow are the last days you can [legally] download this kind of content to your 3DS or Wii U system!

Since 2022, Nintendo has restricted users from adding funds directly to a 3DS account, but this can be sidestepped through a linked Nintendo Network ID wallet.

Thankfully, we can still enjoy online play, the only restriction being transactions.

I'll miss it so much!! Thank you, Nintendo eShop, for so many fun games! I'll be charging my 3DS today to buy Stella Glow through a friend's recommendation. Does anyone have any last-minute game suggestions?

<3Caramel

Millionth time’s the charm!!

WOAH that was a weird time jump.

I’m gonna start working on myself again lol

It’s been too long and I don’t feel happy living like this so I’m going to start trying again!! Gotta work towards the life you want. Nothing comes for free, right?

I feel like I need that mindset that I see in disney movies and idol anime. Where do they get all their energy? Guess I’ll find out.

Is it too much to ask for a nap like this

It's one of those days when eating alone feels extra lonely. I eat, but I'm not hungry. Nobody's sitting across from me, and the only sounds I hear are the leaves rustling in the wind outside.

One day, I'll make sure that none of us feel lonely again. We'll sit together, play games, drink soda, and laugh.

No battery, works just fine

Woke up at noon today and decided to spend whatever scraps of energy I have left trying to clean my room. It's a real mess. Hopefully, though, I can have a proper cleanout- and maybe arrange it in a way that suits my dream! Or at least, the starting dream in a line of many.

I'll make updates on my room during the few days I'll spend making it completely different- so I can look back on it and hopefully see all the hard work that was put into it!

See that, life?! I'm still burnt out, but I'm going to keep working- I'll be getting straight 98s like my sister by the end of the year, I swear!!

Nvm it didn't fit in the car so it's coming next week TT

I'm really done with my broken bed though so I'm thinking of just moving it out and getting the little mattress/futon

Results?!

Starting to see some changes in daily life once I decided to finally crack down and improve whatever feckless dance around life I was trying to do.

Finally getting a new bed for the first time in my life, I'm giddy with excitement since I no longer have to have a broken, splintering woodframe that catches on my hair and makes me want to cut it off. Big win!!

Time to happy clean I guess, today is good :)

<3 Caramel

My friends are big fans of BABYMETAL, and plan to go to a concert in the summer. I'm not really a concert person, but I do appreciate the crowds of fashionable people they bring about. I wish I had that courage.

Fresh air

I'm not sure if it's just the maturity and thoughts that come with growing up, but recently so much of my mind has been taken up with thoughts and plans for the future- finally being able to accomplish goals and dreams I've had forever. Opportunities opening up to fulfill empty wishes and feelings I've had for as long as I remember, and finally being old enough to work on them- yet somehow still young enough to keep my dreams alive. Feels like I've stepped above the clouds.

Is anyone else feeling like this? Is this how growing up feels like?

There's so much I want to do and so little time, but maybe I can prioritize and ration myself to each and every thing I'd like to accomplish, maybe I can live more than I've ever thought I could.

When I'm all old and grey, I'm going to miss this feeling of growing up. It's alright, though- I'll make sure to treasure it as it passes.

<3 Caramel

Dissatisfaction

I really like my life as it is now, I get a few if not a decent amount of things done every so often, like music recitals and competitions and gigs every month or so.

School life is good enough, since I feel like I’d be okay with pretty much any environment. My friends are wonderful too, and they keep me company for the lionshare of the time I’m feeling lonely. They’re fun to talk to as well, and honestly one of the best parts of my life.

The problem is that I can’t help but dream of idealized versions of my life now- going back to that dream of being the stereotypical asian kid with neat handwriting and pocky and stationary of all matching colours. Aestheticism has a grip on me like nothing else, and sometimes I can daydream weeks away cooped up in my head, remembering none of what happened while I was up in the clouds. Social interaction in those times comes on its own, making up jokes and having entire conversations on autopilot without even being aware of what I’m talking about.

Most of my aesthetic wishes are the usual: being productive, matching colours and themes of everything I own, all in something pretty stereotypical of an asian girl (an example being my blog theme- all pink and cute even though I wasn’t a fan of pink when I made it), and, most regretfully of all, a friend group of kids who are all similar to my aesthetic ideal.

I love my current friends- so much so that they’re one of the only reasons why I bother going to school in person anymore. They’re fun and interesting to talk to, play games with me, and give me lots of support- but there’s always some kind of aspect missing from it all. 

I’d never let them go for the world- but when was the last time I had a sleepover? Went out with a cute group and looked for phone accessories? Braided one of my friend’s hair?

My current friend group is absolutely amazing, but I feel like I kind of left some of my planned childhood behind since I stopped having a super close friend group of girls in elementary school.

Is it so selfish to wish I had a group to bake with, to call each other pretty and cute, to tease about who they like, and to paint each other’s nails? Is it not such a wonderful thing to dress up in matching colours, garden with, and look up horoscopes together that you don’t even believe in, but still hope for like some fairy tale?

I really wish I were more of a girl, I’d suppose.

I really do wish that more people saw me as a girl. I hope it’s not too selfish to pray for?

"Where are we, Sen?"