The Way Neil Josten Switched Into Nathaniel In Order To Process And Handle The Abuse And Trauma Of Being

The way Neil Josten switched into Nathaniel in order to process and handle the abuse and trauma of being found by his father's people and the reality of his looming death will never not fuck me up, he literally said I can't handle this but maybe the Butcher's son could. And then. And then!! The way those two versions of himself coalesce into Neil Abram Josten (legally recognised) after Nathan is dead and the truth is out? The Neil Josten we see in The Sunshine Court has all of the attachments of Neil Josten, the slow unraveling of family and care but all of the hard edges of Nathaniel, unflinching from the reality of the world he lives in and the decisions he has to make to keep his life. Nathaniel would never have stuck around long enough to care about Jean Moreau and call a hit out on his abuser. Neil would never have trusted those resources available to him (or potentially the trail it could leave) in order to deal with the problem in one brutal but efficient move. But Neil Abram Josten reforged could, would and did.

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maven’s live reaction right after witnessing cal and mare’s dance scene

2 months ago

Just yes

Same vibe

And I will die on this hill

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2 months ago

I always found it very funny Kevin's whole thing with "you should be hetero, it is easier to make Court like that". It just seemed to be one of those moments where he was so absurdly into Exy that he couldnt understand basic human things

This was until TGR, and then I understood that his line of thinking was ingrained in very deep traumas. He saw what happened to Jean when he dared to step a little out of heteronormativeness. He saw all the pain it caused. He saw what Riko did to him and Im sure at this moment he swore to never even try to find out if he could like boys in other ways. So when he saw Nicky giving Neil incentives to explore his sexuality, Im sure all the flashbacks of that time came to him like a punch, and he knew that in US court (at least while Riko was still there) being heterosexual meant survival. Thats why he says that to Nicky.

It is literally his trauma speaking for him, not his obsession with Exy speaking for him

Which also brings me to my theory that Kevin is a deeply repressed bisexual (there aint no way that diva is straight). TGR literally only helped to confirm that

For Sure He Went About It Wrong, But Kevin Does Truly Want To Protect Them. This Is The World He Was
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For sure he went about it wrong, but Kevin does truly want to protect them. This is the world he was brought up in as well.

2 months ago

MY GOD! YOU JUST TRANSLATED INTO WORDS WHAT I FEEL EVERYTIME SOMEONE ASKS ME WHAT I WANT!!

Like, I dont want to make another person not eat something the REALLY want bc of something I mildly want

I hate when people ask me about my preference but I don’t understand their preference level. Like yes I kinda want Chinese food 10% more than I want a sandwich but if you want a sandwich like 40% more than Chinese food then I would say it’s totally reasonable we get sandwiches.

2 months ago
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1 month ago

Yeah, I will definitely be joining that cliff jumping group, thanks

Andrew Minyard makes me wanna rip my heart out, seriously

girl who just remembered andrew was so used to not being cared about or seen that he genuinely thought he was hallucinating neil's behavior. who wants to join my jumping off a cliff party.

2 months ago

David "This is way above my paygrade" Wymack

Neil not telling Kevin and Andrew that he flew to LA is so fucking in character for him but we also gotta remember that Wymack knew where Neil went, because Jean called him from the Thai restaurant, and apparently said nothing.

Kevin can be a queen all he wants, his dad still remains the King of Not My Business.

1 month ago

Great way to resume the son of Neptune

hazel: frank why do you even like me. I'm a zombie I shouldn't be here I ruin everything I touch and everything with gaea is my fault I'm a terrible person and also I should die

frank: I would set myself and everyone else in this room on fire to keep you warm

percy (the only other person in the room): man what the hell did I do

1 month ago

The fuck, this is so good!!

Kandreil fanarts are gonna be death of me

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Someone here is living his best life 👀

Someone Here Is Living His Best Life 👀

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2 months ago

Just yes, absolutely just yes

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