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*explodes u with my mind*

i want a bf :(

CW : VENT THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MLM BUT I NEED TO GET OUT

CW for disabilities and self-harm

I became sick over memorial day weekend (for those who don't know, we have the memorial day off.). Now all of my disabilities are flaring again, and i just got out of a huge flare not even a month ago.

I'm convinced this is because i don't wear a mask anymore. and before you blame me for my own issues, I don't wear one because my family doesn't anymore. I don't like to wear them in the house and due to breathing issues, i cannot wear them for a long time anyways. If i'm gonna get sick being at home or out in public, what's the point? OFC i would wear one if you asked me and would always warn you if i was sick because disabled ppl and able-bodied ppl with preferences matter.. always.

Anyways, I'm just in so much pain. I want to cry and scream and rip out my hair. I want to throw things across the room but all of that would get me recorded and prolly sent back to the psychiatric hospital.

i can't breathe without wheezing and coughing, my knees click when i walk and i keep going into pre-syncope. My fingers ache and i lost my hand brace for my wrist when it locks up. My hips hurt and even sitting criss-cross no longer helps. my back hurts and i can't crack it and i have a major headache.

I had to come home from school today, i begged my parents until they gave in. I'm scared. I'm sad. I'm depressed. I feel as if it'd be better if i just .. wasn't here. That way nobody would have to suffer. anymore. idk

I'm just so.. tired, man. Nothing is going my way, it never has. I'm so so tired, i feel so numb. I don't want to be here anymore.

I really want to have someone in my area be a friend or a boyfriend to me. The interest isn’t the safest place ofc but I’m so fucking lonely dude, this isn’t fair.

I just want to hug and cuddle someone.

BOYSSSSS *Goes feral*

😋 popularity /j

are you and mlm-blues friends? i saw someone call u ballsil and then in the tags of one of mlm-blues posts it was tagged ballsil, so now im curious😭😭 -@faggotcoree [i dont want my main to be exposed lolz]

Yeah!! I consider us friends!! I like him /p (That’s code for I’m going to keep him safe in a Lil box and treat him like a lil kitty cat. Lots of head pats fr fr )

I FORGOT I HAD THIS ACCOUNT uh uh uhm uh uh Haiiiii

I Want to Call a Boy petnames omg,, we could vc and I’d call you mi amor and Love/Darling (my fav petnames fr)

GOING INSANE RN AABSKSAMMA

Who wanna be “ Boy who is absolutely feral x boy who is also absolutely feral.” ( They commit war crimes together ofc)

So, Platonic or romantic husbands?? Where ya’ll at fr?

HELLO BALLSIL. something silly 😋😋🥳 (i am really funny)

You are super funny, British. Could listen to your funniness all day <3!!