on new years i relapsed and cut like hundreds of times all over my body and then the next day i woke up, overdosed on my meds, immediately left the house, got energy drinks, almost threw up, and then just wandered around while looping a trigger song and with a blade in my pocket so uh. yeah i would say i don't really like new years
thinking about when i told my friend id stay clean for 3 days becuz i knew he was super stressed out about me cutting only for me to cut after one day clean
who needs healthy coping mechanisms amirite hahahahaha
did anyone else want to be hurt as a kid???
like grievously injured so that ppl would care for you and think about you and wonder if ur doing okay
i can do this for 7 days
im so so so so so so so so so so so so so sorry
Sometimes I look at some cvtspo pics and feel like a loser because my scars are nothing compared to these people. Like I need to cut myself better, deeper, messier. I need to look exactly like that one picture I've seen.
hopefully things will go well and today will be my last day alive 🤞
ugh. forget everything i’ve ever said. unless you thought it was smart or funny in which case remember it forever
Sh culture is properly taking care of it for once, and realizing how much less noticeable the scar is, and then not wanting to take care of them properly bc of that
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