I Think It Took Me So Long To Realize I Have NPD Because Part Of My Narcissism Is Masking My Symptoms

npd possessiveness has me like omg. i MUST have these people. they are so so special and interesting i MUST have them. i can share but they must be MINE as well. mine mine mine mine

i love you narcissists! i hope you all have a wonderful day and continue to kick ass.

there’s nothing ‘wrong’ or ‘evil’ about you for just simply having a disorder.

keep going. love you guys <3

i fucking hate the boredom aspect of ASPD

it makes me super irritable and stressed too. i’m so wound up i just need to take it out somewhere. and snapping at someone and getting into an argument is something to do.

“why’d you punch him?” i was bored.

“where were you?” outside, wandering. i was bored

“why’d you steal.” i was bored.

nearly everything i do is because im so bored. i feel so trapped in my home.

I will support Palestine and the Palestinians until I take my last breath.

(i can’t believe i have to say this) but DONT FOLLOW OR INTERACT WITH ME OR MY CONTENT IF YOU SUPPORT OR GLAMORIZE CANNIBALISM

idc if it’s a ‘metaphor’ or whatever the hell, GET AWAY FROM ME

NPD Resources Masterlist

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The official resources masterlist for NPD. Includes all the links I've shared in the past and stuff I haven't.

Any posts I've linked about supporting those with NPD have been put in the misc section because I do not want to take away from what this post is really about, which is helping people with NPD, not the people around them.

Diagnostic criteria

NPD diagnostic criteria, rewritten by someone who has it

Official diagnostic criteria

An explanation of the diagnostic criteria

Recovery resources FOR the narcissist

NPD recovery resources

How to find therapy for NPD, common types of therapy and signs of an abusive/toxic therapist

Narcissist supply

What is narc supply?

Things that can give a narcissist supply

NPD stigma

The perception of NPD symptoms vs. how a narcissist might actually experience them

Why those with NPD have a hard time seeking help (spoiler alert: it's not because they're unaware)

A plea from someone with NPD (and some resources debunking common misconceptions)

Narcissism is not abusive / abuse is abusive

Debunking common myths on NPD

Common disproven myths about NPD

Miscellaneous

How to support someone with NPD

NPD Carrd (What is NPD, dpt skills and self-help)

Unravelling the connection: npd as a trauma response

NPD terminology (do's and dont's)

NPD safe blogs

@empath-abuse-awareness

@enigma-in-reality

@loverofmirage

@the-npd-culture-is

@nicepersondisorder

@theegosystem

@mischiefmanifold

NPD positivity so you don't have to go looking

Reblog to kiss a narcissist on the forehead

Reblog to tell your local narcissist that they're the best ever

Happy NPD appreciation day

Positivity for systems with NPD

Be normal about narcissists unless it's to give them love

NPD should be EPD (Epic Personality Disorder)

Of course I have a praise kink, I have NPD

Narcissists are so beautiful and handsome and wonderful

Positivity for narcissists who like sex

I love my narcissists

Aromantic narcissists are amazing

Narcissists I love you

Easy ways to spot a narcissist (it's not what you think &lt;;3)

Narcissists deserve to be loved

As usual, if something needs to be deleted because it's wrong/comes from a toxic author/etc. please let me know. I tried to look on Google but all I found was ableist shit, so these are all found by your fellow narcissists on tumblr :)

Edit: If you have any resources, please send them to me through an ask or DM and i'll check it out/add it!

i wish all narcissists reading this a very big kiss on the forehead

you are simply the very best ever!!

i love the way you persevere through life even though there may be challenges.

i love you narcissists soo much. you truly are so talented and wonderful. you light up every room you enter and amaze everyone in your life.

you deserve the entire world ❤️

Pro tip: if you know a narcissist who tends to oscillate between “I’m upset, why the hell isn’t everyone rushing to my side?” and “I don’t want to talk to you, I’m upset” a good solution to this is to talk to us, but as if we’re not upset.

Ignoring us while in a fragile state is narc language for “look how much fun I’m having while you’re busy crying. Look at me being so not concerned about you at all. You don’t even affect your surroundings, because if you did the world would stop until you felt better, but you’re basically nothing and everything is moving on without you.”

Trying to help or comfort us is narc language for “I think I understand what’s going on better than you do, and I’m making it your problem. My advice is to stop being upset immediately and do whatever I think you should. I’m now going to explain things you already know about the situation as if you’ve never known a damn thing in your life.”

So please for the love of god, just come over and talk to us like you wanna hang out. Don’t ignore us. Don’t attempt to solve or even acknowledge our emotions. Just say hi and ask if we want to hear a song or something. Make a joke or a compliment. Talk to us like everything’s going normally, and we’ll more than likely start to go along until we feel fine.

Nine times out of ten, what we actually need is just some basic company and supply.

ASPD Resource Dump

feel free to reblog! here are some resources related to ASPD that i've collected since i've being diagnosed (roughly 5 years).

Sympathetic Articles

An Autistic Sociopath's Story, Cassy, through Special Books by Special Kids (video. an autistic pwASPD talks about her life and experiences with both.)

An Interview with a Sociopath, Dyshae, through Special Books by Special Kids (video. a pwASPD and bipolar disorder talks about his life and experiences with both.)

Life With Antisocial Personality Disorder (ASPD), Andrew, through mind.org.uk (a pwASPD's account of their life and experiences with it.)

The Hidden Suffering of the Psychopath, William H. J. Martens, MD, PhD (a sympathetic view of pwASPD, and some information on the neurobiology of ASPD.)

Factors for Development

Antisocial personality disorder in abused and neglected children grown up., B. K. Luntz, C. S. Widom (from 1994. provides evidence supporting the fact that child abuse/neglect is a predictor of antisocial behavior.)

Antisocial Personality Disorder with Childhood- vs Adolescence-Onset Conduct Disorder, Risë B. Goldstein et al. (from 2006. discusses how symptoms vary in pwASPD whose conduct disorder began in childhood vs in adolescence.)

Predictors of antisocial personality: Continuities from childhood to adult life, Emily Simonoff et al. (from 2018. draws connections between childhood behaviors, diagnoses, etc., and antisocial behavior in adulthood.)

Risk Factors in Childhood That Lead to the Development of Conduct Disorder and Antisocial Personality Disorder, Stacey E. Holmes, James R. Slaughter, Javad Kashani (from 2001. covers multiple categories that may lead to development of CD and/or ASPD, including environment, genetics, and individual differences.)

Miscellaneous Articles

Antisocial Personality Disorder: Neurophysiological Mechanisms and Distinct Subtypes, Sean J. McKinley (from 2018. proposes three diagnostic subtypes for ASPD: primarily detached, primarily disinhibited, and combined.)

Executive function, attention, and memory deficits in antisocial personality disorder and psychopathy, Michael Baliousis et al. (from 2019. discusses some neurobiology of ASPD, and how it effects executive function, attention, and memory.)

Self-mutilation in antisocial personality disorder, M. Virkkunen (from 1976. reports on self-injury behaviors in pwASPD, and details their motivations.)