Denphobia - Denske

TF2 Disco Elysium crossover let’s go

me after combining two of my current fixations:

girl you forgot to light your cig

salazzle tattoo deisgn by kinokashi

pokesona (trainersona?) drawing that took me way too long

gruh. more doodles(i have finals in two weeks

so this was originally in a post i made that was kind of negative but i decided NO, actually, that is not a productive or helpful or necessary thing to say, so i want to air out some thoughts about serirei and how it might work in my mind, bc it's good actually:

serizawa says himself that he's never been interested in any girls growing up. He doesn't know anything about romance and hasn't really cared to know for most of his life, evidently. There's a lot of interpretations you can pull from that (is he gay? is he ace/aro? was he just isolated from society for so long that he just never has had that kind of interaction with anyone?), but i guess the point is, if serizawa found himself having those feelings, there'd be this huge learning curve for him about what to do about them and how to navigate such a relationship (relatable, serizawa)

reigen on the other hand....he doesn't really say at all whether or not he personally has been interested in anyone, but he DOES say that he would probably do some kind of ridiculous bullshit if he were in mob's position (i would personally LOVE to see how that would play out, the idea of him getting flustered and acting really stupid and overconfident to impress his crush sounds adorable). I assume that he ALSO doesn't really know what to do in a romantic context, though knowing reigen, he'd certainly try to act like he does (he does pull straight from the internet on his phone to give advice when mob asks him what to do)

Considering all that, though.... neither of them know what tf they're doing, they respond to this lack of experience in very different ways, but they gotta figure it out somehow. Like, I'm thinking reigen makes a lot of the first moves, seeming super confident and experienced at first blush, but a perceptive person would be able to tell that he has no clue what he's doing; serizawa has absolutely NO IDEA how to respond to his advances. he's flustered and frozen in place and so, SO nervous and he's like "oh my god what am i feeling right now?? is this what people were talking about this whole time?? wtf do i do???"

I tried to write a novel. Not once. Not twice. But about 12 times. Here's how that would play out: 1. I sit down and knock out 10 pages 2. I share it with someone 3. They say "It's goooood" like it's not good 4. I ask for critical feedback 5. They say, "Well....the plot just moves so quickly. So much happens in the first few pages it doesn't feel natural." So I'd write more drafts. I'd try to stretch out the story. I would add dialogue that I tried to make interesting but thought was boring. I would try including environment and character descriptions that felt unnecessary, (why not just let people imagine what they want?) Anyways, I gave up trying to write because in my mind, I wasn't a fiction writer. Maybe I could write a phonebook or something. But then I made a fiction podcast, and I waited for the same feedback about the fast moving plot, but guess what??? Podcasts aren't novels. The thing that made my novels suck became one of the things that made Desert Skies work. I've received some criticism since the show started, but one thing I don't receive regular complaints about is being overly-descriptive or longwinded. In fact, the opposite. It moves fast enough that it keeps peoples attention. I always felt I had a knack for telling stories but spent years beating myself up because I couldn't put those stories into novel form. The problem wasn't me. The problem was the tool I was trying to use. All that to say: If, in your innermost parts you may know that you're a storyteller but you just can't write a book, don't give up right away. You can always do things to get better and there's a lot of good resources. But if you do that for a while and novel writing just isn't your thing, try making a podcast, or creating a comic, or a poem, or a play, or a tv script. You might know you're an artist but suck at painting. Try making a glass mosaic, or miniatures, or try charcoal portraits, or embroider or collage. You might know you're a singer, but opera just isn't working out. Why not yodel? I could keep listing out examples, but the point is this. Trust your intuitions when it comes to your creative abilities, but don't inhibit yourself by becoming dogmatic about which medium you can use to express that creativity. Don't be afraid to try something new. Don't be afraid to make something new. You might just find the art form that fits the gift you knew you always had, and what it is might surprise you

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im late but happy vday everybody

i made a music video and english cover of Monitoring by DECO*27!

i released this about a month ago, but im extremely proud of it, and figured i'd share it here too!

guy who turned the thermostat up

+ silly persona doodle

Practice for differing facial types using some head-canon facial designs for the portal girlies, and a complete redesign for the portal reloaded and aperture tag girls cause I think it would be more interesting than them just being recolored chell.