My Love, You Have Watched Me All These Years. You Formed Every Inch Of My Body. My Love, I Am Yours,

she will not take him from me.

i will destroy her.

they don’t understand you, my beloved.

but i do.

i want to spend my life devoted to you.

I’ve grown tired of trying to gain your attention, it’s obvious that you do not reciprocate. I deserve better.

nothing hurts more than when you are in love with him & he is with someone else…

you wanted a life with me! but you said my identity was false & full of delusion!! YOU SAID YOU COULDN’T BE WITH SOMEONE WITH TOO MUCH DIFFERENCE OF OPINIONS!

how could you lead me on like that? how could you hurt me?

Trigger Warning

i laid down on the hard sidewalk, staring at the stars while tears filled up in my eyes.

I impulsively messaged a old fp & while he instantly responded with positivity like he always has.

Simultaneously, my current fp messaged me back, responding to my response of his story on insta. 

I don’t even know why I’m crying, sure, maybe it’s because my dad has cancer, my childhood friend/bully died the other day, my uncle is in the hospital after being found unconscious on the floor, we are being kicked out our apartment, and im here weeping over stupid shit like why doesn’t he love me back…

I tried my best for you.

thinking of him,

makes me feel high…

he is in my mind.

he is inside of my heart.

my arteries will explode and blood will hit the wall perfectly writing his name.

he belongs to me.

- she

hi!

I have a question for people on Schizophrenia Spectrum (specifically Schizotypal Personality Disorder)..

does your family have to have schizophrenia or be on the schiz spectrum in order for you to be diagnosed with schizotypal personality disorder?

like does it have to run in your family or can you be diagnosed with it without your family displaying any schizophrenic symptoms?