hc that Dazai made a point of calling Chuuya small when they met because Dazai was used to being the small one.
like, finally there was someone shorter than him. because let’s be real, Dazai was barely taller than Chuuya in Fifteen.
i think people forget how small Dazai was too— not just in height, but also in weight. He was underweight in Dark Era, but in Fifteen & even at present he's barely within the healthy weight range for his height. he was constantly described as a twig in Fifteen, and almost every time he's introduced in the light novels he's called lanky, slender, etc.
i like to think that ever since they met it was mutually ON SIGHT bullying <3
they’re both losers (said with love)
This was never made public because it wasn't necessary, not to mention it wasn't a full turn around, but yesterday we posted a design of what kid!bbros would have looked like in the pilot's artstyle.
Two funfacts, one is that Boris is slightly dirtier because it's considering the labyrithn memory of him travelling on the snow, making it so he has a red nose from the cold and the end of his pants are stained with melted snow. The second funfact is that Bendy's height is the exact same as from his adult ref.
New son!! <33
more sketches to previous au
Guys. Hear me out. Angry Felix is the best, change my mind, I dare you.
OKEY LISTEN au where Satoru didn't kill Suguru, but moved him to his basement /?/ to keep him from escaping. I'd be interested to see that so I did some sketches
I've talked a bit before about the themes of absurdism within BSD, and I think this plays heavily into Dazai and the personal journey he's gone on throughout the series (light novels included). From my perspective, his character development has followed a shift in ideology, from nihilism to absurdism.
First, I'd like to define how these two philosophies are similar yet different. Nihilism is the belief that life is intrinsically meaningless, and that there's no value to seeking meaning. Absurdism also believes that life has no intrinsic meaning, but states that revolting against the absurdity of existence is the way to create meaning.
While I don't think Dazai 100% fits either category fully at any given point in his life as we've seen it thus far, I think in his PM days he leans more towards a nihilist perspective, and following Oda's death he leans more towards an absurdist perspective.
Dazai's reasoning for joining the PM was because he thought that perhaps being around violence and raw emotions would help him understand humanity, giving him a reason to live. This doesn't sound quite like nihilism, but honestly, I think he gains a more nihilist point of view as time progresses and he realizes that he can't find meaning in the PM. I'm not even sure he believed that there was meaning to find in the first place, he was just desperate to prove himself wrong, and then failed, which really cemented this nihilistic mindset for him.
Friedrich Nietzsche, often regarded as the founding father of nihilism, claimed that nihilism "not only the belief that everything deserves to perish; but one actually puts one shoulder to the plough; one destroys.”
If life doesn't have meaning, then it doesn't matter to Dazai if he destroys. So, he fills a corpse with bullets, he horrifically abuses his subordinate, he actively tries to take his own life.
Nihilism is right in line with his suicidal nature. This isn't to say that all nihilists are inherently suicidal, but when one believes that life has no meaning, it's quite easy to come to the conclusion to kill oneself. I think this mindset really lends to his general depression and suicidal ideation, on top of the fact that he feels generally disconnected from humanity. It's so easy for him to consider himself inhuman because he has this nihilistic point of view that nothing matters and everyone else in society seems so dead set on opposing that worldview.
And then you have Oda. He is the closest thing Dazai gets to finding meaning within the PM. Like Chuuya, this is a person that fascinates Dazai, although his reason for fascination is much different. To Dazai, Oda represents what is good in the world, he thinks that he is a good man, and struggles to reconcile how a good person can come out of an existence so seemingly pointless and horrific.
Then, Oda dies.
It's an absurd occurrence, and to Dazai it only proves that life has no meaning. This is exemplified when Dazai speaks to Fyodor about God in Meursault: "[God] is known for is famous for his coincidences and absurdism, I've seen it countless times," and a flashback to Oda's death is shown. A good man died for seemingly no good reason, and to Dazai, this only proves life's meaningless, because to the universe it didn't matter who Oda was, he died, regardless.
(I quoted the dialogue from the BSD anime English dub because I feel it better suited my argument, but you can see that he's essentially saying the same thing).
This event should have only further cemented Dazai as a hardcore nihilist, but fortunately for him, Oda was able to get a word in before he passed. He told Dazai that as long as he believes the sides of good and bad are the same to him, he should be on the side that helps people. Oda suggests fighting against life's inherent absurdity -- and that's absurdism in a nutshell, revolting against a meaningless universe.
Dazai takes his advice, and within a few years, he's working for the ADA, he's on the side that helps people.
In that same conversation with Fyodor, Dazai speaks further about life's meaning:
"Those who scream within the storm of uncertainty and run with flowing blood." That's absurdism, the rebellion against uncertainty, meaninglessness, absurdity.
While I don't think Dazai is a bona-fide absurdist due to his suicidality (absurdism basically sees suicide as giving into meaninglessness), I think he's on his way there because of moments like this.
I don't think he's totally convinced that life is completely and utterly meaningless anymore. He, at the very least, has a respect for those who forge their own meaning through the act of revolt.
"Man stands face to face with the irrational. He feels within him his longing for happiness and for reason. The absurd is born of this confrontation between the human need and the unreasonable silence of the world." - Albert Camus
Local doctor tries to comprehend wtf just happened to him
Chuuya has so much angst potential.
I genuily don't know why people ignore that.
They opt for Dazai angst instead.
Which is not bad, but Chuuya has way more complex angst than Dazai, whose problems come from HIMSELF.
Chuuya ends up being like Dazai, but he is like that because life hasn't been kind to him.
I think he is one of the most complex characters and I can understand Dazai's admiration and obsession.
He hides himself behind a mask, barely showing how he feels.
So seeing him break is so satisfying, yet quite painful.
Dazai showed who he is through Oda, Chuuya and other characters, but Chuuya is like a man trapped inside a soldier.
It makes me so sad.
I love skk because of this.
Dazai makes Chuuya be more free.
He can bicker with him, because he wants too, not because he has to.
So even though Chuuya "hates" Dazai, that hatred ends the moment he begins the think the reasons of this hatred.
He is fascinating.
The hero with a fate he cannot scape, but it doesn't define who he is and his character.
It's there, but Chuuya opts for ignorance.
"I don't do what I want, I do what it has to be done."
Consider yourself a pro if you recognize the quote ^^
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Snufkin is looking nervous
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