Reblog To Give Your Mutuals A Djungelskog

I just made myself tea that's supposed to be peach vanilla... Tastes like bathtub water honestly

It's good though

This one bathroom stall at my school has a fucking heater and it's turned on and I'll spend the rest of the day here omfg I don't care about religion class I just need the WARMTH

So, I tend to make self-deprecating jokes (I try not to, but sometimes when I feel especially bad they do slip out a lot)

But when I was about to make one, my one friend just told me (I can't tell if she was annoyed or rather angry, to be honest) to "quit with these fucking jokes" and yeah. I get my friends are done with me, but that still almost made me cry

loser idiot binges instead of starving

STATS??

Well let's just say I'm not overweight but I'm quite definitely not underweight yet 😭 and so I don't feel comfortable sharing that until I've reached at least one gw sorry

daily affirmations:

i'm not chopped

a burger is not going to kill me

the opinions of my classmates don't matter because i'm not gonna see them after we graduate

i do not have a secret crush on my teacher

i'm not a pedophile and smiling at someone younger than me doesn't make me a pedophile

i am not secretly being filmed

i'm not a secret serial killer

nobody is stalking me

it's not a bad life, it's just a bad day

realizing that I can ALWAYS lock in, even if I'm 1000 cals deep in a binge I can put the food down and not make it 3000 everything makes a difference in the long run

I just had the most intense ed nightmare.

I was in the living room just practicing some sort of gymnastic exercise - idk why I don't do gymnastics - and my parents had friends over and they just kept talking about how much weight they were losing and how much better they felt now that they're skinny. I got angrier and sadder and at some point I kinda snapped and yelled, "You guys know I'm still here as well?" and they kind of laughed and my Mom just have me really pitiful look and then told the entire group that she hoped that I would have at least one summer during which I'll feel skinny and confident. Like. What. And then she called me fat and insecure and I just scrambled to the bathroom crying trying to find my blades.

It took me a hot minute after waking up to realize that didn't actually happen.

Wtf honestly