Does Anyone Wanna Hold Hands Until We Feel A Little Braver

“Stories have power. Gleemen’s tales, and bards’ epics, and rumors in the street alike. They stir passions, and change the way men see the world.”

~ Robert Jordan, Winter’s Heart

“Some truths do nothing but destroy and decay what they do not obliterate. Truths do not always set one free. Only a fool who has spent their entire life being fed lies believes that.”

~ Jennifer L. Armentrout, From Blood and Ash

executive dysfunction is legitimately physically uncomfortable. i’ll be trapped between two things, weirdly caught on how-much-time-it-might-take-me. i take hours worried im going to take hours doing things. i’ll sit on the floor for the entire day, caught up in the middle of not-doing the chores i actually do want to be doing.

& the amount of mental energy that goes into it. & the legitimate amount of anger and discomfort and self-hate. is not “being lazy”.  it’d be a lot less work if i didn’t have to fight myself to just get up and do it. 

i just need you to understand it’s not effortless. it’s never effortless. it’s not “okay let me just get up and finally start doing this.” it’s more like. i am slamming my foot on the pedal but the car is in neutral and nothing is moving. it’s more like shouting instructions into a dying telephone. it’s more like being trapped in a small electric box, and someone who hates me is administering shocks. 

im trying. im trying. please help me get up.

🌌 25 celestial asks

solar system: what is the driving force behind your good deeds?

earth: rivers or seas?

moon: do you play any instruments?

jupiter: how tall are you?

sun: if you could live in any past decade, when would it be?

mars: do you believe in life on other planets?

saturn: favourite song?

venus: are you religious?

milky way: what’s your favourite chocolate bar?

neptune: what’s your favourite music genre?

uranus: sexuality?

mercury: what’s your favourite school subject?

pluto: is pluto a real planet or fake?

andromeda galaxy: what’s the farthest you’ve travelled?

ceres: how old are you?

crab nebula: favourite colour?

asteroid belt: favourite accessory?

pleiades: star sign?

orion nebula: sweet or salty?

sirius: favourite fictional character?

eris: what’s your dream job?

halley’s comet: what’s your opinion on fate?

callisto: do you like ice cream?

dysnomia: favourite sound?

deimos: if you could go to space, would you?

Love Lies

Love latches onto my heart like a leech

Wriggling into every hidden space

Do not take all of me, I beseech

This parasite within, tightens its embrace

Love takes my words and twists them

Spewing lines that make no sense

My own mouth I do condemn

I stumble to describe feelings so immense

Love grows up my spine like a rose bush

Beauty hiding the thorns

Against my lungs exquisite flowers push

But when the plant dies, it’s the thorns my love mourns

I ask love not to take too much of me when it dies

Love said it would take nothing from me,

love lies

~ A.L. Heart

“What he knew, he knew from books, and books lied, they made things prettier.”

― Hanya Yanagihara, A Little Life

🌿🌄 — [all pictures from pinterest]

“Each of us is more than the worst thing we’ve ever done.”

~ Bryan Stevenson, Just Mercy

We’ve learned that quiet isn’t always peace. In the norms and notions of what just is isn’t always justice. And yet, the dawn is ours before we knew it. Somehow we do it. Somehow we’ve weathered and witnessed a nation that isn’t broken, but simply unfinished.

~ The Hill We Climb, Amanda Gorman

“When you're young, you think the world will make room for who you are and what you want.... And then you find the world of adults is even more limiting than the world of children. With no room for adventure, much less yer own thoughts.”

~ Liz braswell, Straight on Till Morning