HEARTSTOPPER | 1x04 – Secret

jinyoung's range in devil judge rlly is so iconic they got that dude playing a orphaned high schooler troubled in the wake of his parent's violent deaths, a good-hearted stubborn judge who's got a weird hannibal thing going on w his boss, a gothic romance heroine mixed w belle from beauty and the beast, and saintly dilf kang isaac who's elevated to saint status by virtue of being the only semi-decent person in his family

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Monsta X All In

“I didn’t know you had a romantic side…”

Bad B(uddy)et (2021)

i can't stop thinking how much of a conscious effort changing pran's look was in ep 5 bc he really does look the Prettiest he has in the series and its all thru pat's eyes. just the thought of p'aof having the makeup team spend a little extra time on him so the audience would be able to fully live thru pat's experience makes me smile like. i really wonder how thoroughly they thought things out and i wouldn't put this beyond them considering how drastically different this ep has made our viewpoints on all the other characters.

heart's unused for 3 years voice was so convincing that i forgot for a good hour that i listen to tinn be gay hit on his boyfriend and lie to his mom every week

Me, an asexual: This actor on this TV show has a really beautiful face. It’s amazing how pretty it is.

Friend: That was the most asexual way you could’ve complimented his appearance.

Me: Certainly not. I could’ve said “He makes me thirsty… thirsty for coffee whilst sitting across from him staring at his glorious face :) ”

Friend: That was actually clever; I’ll give you that one.

two things i really loved about this episode:

1) pat actively encouraging and urging pran to talk to him

that is one of his characteristics that i absolutely adore i admire. he understands that communication is key – whether it was trying to figure his feelings out, or after their fight in ep. 5, or after pran ran away after the kiss – he was always there, knocking on pran’s door, ready to talk to him. and it wasn’t any different during the beach trip. he knew that pran’s overthinking and he knew how to approach him and he knew to write ‘kiss?’ in the sand instead of saying it out loud, but that only goes so far if he doesn’t even know what the real issue is. like he said “if you don’t say it, how will i figure it out? how can i possibly understand you?” he might know how pran works, but he can’t actually read his mind and he can’t help him if pran is avoiding him and giving him the silent treatment. so he tried. he tried his best to let pran know that he doesn’t have to shut him out. that whatever is going on with him, he can talk to pat. he really said i’m here, talk to me, we’re in this together, we’ll figure it out

2) pat’s relentless and unwillingness to back down so easily

so far, we saw pran being brave and putting himself out there, ready to risk getting his heart broken for pat numerous times. and now we get to see pat doing the same. the lengths he went to just so he could show pran that he won’t give up on them? constantly going up to him in front of his friends?? almost getting beaten up by wai?? showing up at his HOUSE??? he was ready to push all the limits and didn’t care about the consequences. because none of that matters to him anymore. what matters is pran.

and that is exactly what pran needed to see. i mean, he’s terrified. he’s already lost so much just because he and pat were friendly. he literally had to transfer schools and give up playing music just because his mom found out he and pat were in the same band. so, can you imagine what will happen if their parents find out they’re dating? all hell will break lose. and pran knows that. and he knows he doesn’t want to risk losing it all again because, this time, so much more is at stake. i feel like he was fine being the one to get the thick end of things the last time (like he said to pat, he doesn’t hate him for it, he doesn’t resent him, he’s just angry, and not even at pat, but the situation itself) because it was a small price to pay in the grand scheme of things. yeah, he had to move and his mom was angry, but at least no one found out about his feelings for pat. at least pat got away unscathed. but now, if people find out that he still has feelings for pat, if they find out that pat has feelings for him, if they act on it, the ramifications are going to be so much bigger. so much worse. and you bet pran’s going to do everything he can do avoid that. he’ll do anything he can to protect both of them.

but what he doesn’t understand is that he doesn’t have to protect them. he doesn’t have to do anything on his own anymore. because pat is here now and he wants pran back just as much. and by going against everything they know, by repeatedly risking being seen with pran in public, by facing PRAN’S MOTHER he’s showing pran that he knows the dangers and he knows the consequences, but he doesn’t care. he’s willing to stand up to their families, to their destiny, to the entire world because that is how much he cares about pran. that is how much he means to him. he’s ready to do whatever it takes to fight for them. but he can only do it if pran’s going to be right there next to him every step of the way