I Want To Announce To Everyone; Friends, Family, Followers, And Strangers That I Will Be Remodeling Everything.

I Want To Announce To Everyone; Friends, Family, Followers, And Strangers That I Will Be Remodeling Everything.

I want to announce to everyone; friends, family, followers, and strangers that I will be remodeling everything. I made this account on a whim see a bunch of post in many fandoms. It was only later when I started to post art that’s not even good anymore. I wanted to wipe almost all of it and make a clean slate for my art and my identity. I wanted to make it clear that this is all my choice and it’s for myself.

When I started to open up to people on the internet I was finding myself. I was 18 and in college when I started to come out of my shell on wattpad, where I met my first friends who became family to me and stuck around through thick and thin. I had a lot of dark moments and had a toxic friendship that ruined my confidence in my ideas and creativity. It might’ve been the worst years of my life because I trusted someone so easily. I was really naive and believed I wasn’t good enough. I had a couple of other toxic friendships that just gave me a lot is stress that I had to cut them out of my life. Then there was a year when I had no motivation to draw anything because a discord server I was in made me believe I wasn’t good enough.

I have gotten back to drawing but hadn’t shared any of them mainly because I forgot and I was busy with work. But after finding myself I wanted to get back to sharing my art here with the new me. While I had “abandoned” tumblr I was working on bettering my character design, art style, and story telling. Back then I was just absorbing ideas from other artists that would sometimes clash and turn into a jumble mess. And looking back it didn’t look good.

As for myself I wanted to express myself better when I was happier and safer. On top of finding what I like there was also another issue regarding my old sona “Dovey”. Back when I first design it I was just playing around with a old Tokyo Mew Mew character design flash game on deviant, I don’t think it’s around anymore since flash games have gone extinct. But I was messing around and thought it looked good as a base, this was back when I was in high school and didn’t have any friends to get feedback on. Then I saw playthrough of Until Dawn and thought it would be cool if my sona was a [redacted] since I am part Native American. But then years later I was told it was offensive and I couldn’t keep it anymore. I was upset at first because it my sona for years, but I was able to come up with a new sona for myself and worked on it.

Then some personal things happen that lead to me moving to another state. After settling in it gave me the idea to start over here and make a fresh start. I really needed this to separate from my past when I didn’t had a chance to express myself or be a individual. When I was afraid that no one will like my ideas or believe my art wasn’t good enough. My confidence still isn’t great but I am working on it.

So now with a new face, name, and fresh new ideas this account will be under construction. I can’t say for sure when it will be finished with me having to work but this is what I want for my account.

What am I hoping to post?

My art such as character designs and hopefully comics. I am in the Zoophobia fandom but I have concept ideas for a original series. I don’t want to share too much but my original series is going to be wholesome.

That’s all I have for today and I hope you’ll be looking forward to the remodeling.

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11 months ago
I Had A Bit Of A Tough Time Designing A Ghost Type Eeveelution While Still Keeping It Simple And Slender.
I Had A Bit Of A Tough Time Designing A Ghost Type Eeveelution While Still Keeping It Simple And Slender.

I had a bit of a tough time designing a ghost type eeveelution while still keeping it simple and slender. My friends told me the cape looked like Zero from the nightmare before Christmas so that was a happy accident.

A lot of ghost types are known to be mischievous or vengeful but since the eeveelutions are sometimes known to be very social I wanted to make this ghost seem sorrowful like it's in mourning after losing someone dear. I also took a bit of inspiration from Mimikyu with its true face being hidden by the hood and all you can see are it's eyes.


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1 year ago

Isn't Damian's last name beezly?

In canon yes but it doesn't really make sense to me because it's meant to be short for Beelzlebub but Lucifer and Beelzlebub are separate people so I just took the last name Morningstar from Lucifer in HH.

Again, this is my au.


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11 months ago

I have been summoned!!

I have a LOT of stuff in my files and I haven't really posted them. I really need to get into the habit of it.

-Zoophobia character redesigns

-Zoophobia next gen designs

-Smiling critters designs

-My sona redesign

-And a practice background WIP

There's a lot to be work with. Let's see who I can tag...

@randomfoxgirl !!

WIP title game!

Thank you for the tag @illarian-rambling !

Rules: Post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! And then tag as many people as you have WIPs.

This game should be fun, as I have many silly names in my folders, most of which relate to the fandoms I wrote them for:

No Time to Cry

Descending the stairs

Bucky and the time he lived in the mountains with his murder daughters

Cadre-Coparenting - what could go wrong?

Shadow-hunting my - uh - multiple mental illnesses

Fourth Wing more like fortieth-wip

Character meets death (goes wholesome?)

TVDeeznuts

The Hunger-bar Games

Of Godparents and Aunt-sassins

Vigilante fic

A Glitch in the System

Who the fuck is Sally Sparrow? (plot twist she's me)

Re-do of Sally Sparrow except there's no Sally Sparrow and a completely different plot

Harry Potter and the job he should have gotten

Making my OC's be adopted by a bunch of adoring vampires is unrelated to my parental issues I promise

Oh fuck I'm doing a space fic, wops

Twi-mental breakdown -light

These are only the ones that I've actually written words for, each oth these has at least 2k of actual story-line, (some have significantly more, cough cough 115k Nttc), and that's still more than I thought there were whoops

That's... 18 fics there, honestly not sure if I know 18 people on here, but I'll try. Open tag as always for anyone I miss!

@once-and-future-fandoms @hyperfixation-tangentopia @nightstar-of-summer @syrensaft @shepardsherd @rkmoon @moonandris @writingbaddie @the-grim-and-sanguine @agirlandherquill @squarebracket-trickster @caxycreations @thebejeweledwatercat @brotrustmeicanwrite @wintherlywords @k--havok @stesierra @mikathewriter

was this entire list found by desperately searching my following page to see who is actually a writeblr blog? You'll never know

11 months ago
A Fresh Banner With A New Look!

A fresh banner with a new look!

I love my sona, and a lot of time I use my sona to reflect my personal journey. It's original was very different but it had a lot of problem and it was during a chapter of my life where things weren't great. So my idea of moving on from it is by changing my sona, like I'm starting a new chapter. Some of you probably remembered I had a poll asking what color scheme you like on my sona which was a huge mistake for me.

The issue was that I was trying to force some stuff to work together and as any experienced artist know is that you can't FORCE things to work! I was trying to keep the original dark pink hair and force some colors to work with it. When the pinky color scheme had the most votes I put them on my second draft for my sona and I wasn't happy at all.

The dark pink and lighter pink just makes my sona look like Pinkie Pie! I have nothing against her but I just know people will just be thinking "It looks like Pinkie Pie as a unicorn" and that's not what I want! So I took out the pink and tried different color pallets to see what I like and works well together. The indigo/violet colors works so well with the gold accents and made them pop.

Another issue I was struggling, which I had struggled with for years, was my art style. I love zoophobia and the potential it has, so much that I tried to work with the style. But it made me struggle with how my sona is structured in the face! It didn't look right or just looks scrunched up. I took a break from drawing for that Fandom and moved on to others like Welcome Home and Smiling Critters.

NOTE: The smiling critters a separate from the horror elements as it canonically has it's own show before the plushies in Playtime Co.

When I was drawing the characters that are more like plushies, dolls, or puppets I felt a lot better. When I gave up on making my style like zoophobia it just feels like it came more natural, like I'm not forcing it to work. Drawing like this felt more freeing for me and it made me happy. It left me feeling happier with the result, especially with the face!

So if you're struggling with your style or designing something don't try to force it. Just have fun with whatever style you want and you'll feel happier.


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1 year ago
I Made A Welcome Home Sona Last Year But I Wasn’t Happy With It So I Completely Start Over And It Looks

I made a welcome home sona last year but I wasn’t happy with it so I completely start over and it looks so much better. I very much love witchcore if you couldn’t tell.


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7 months ago
@randomfoxgirl @lunarisublene
@randomfoxgirl @lunarisublene

@randomfoxgirl @lunarisublene

I was not expecting the fanfic one. I guess it means I would be popular in the Fandom??? Not sure about the flirt with everyone.

Consider yourself tagged if you are reading this:

Make this picrew of yourself

Take this uquiz (How Fandom Would See You If You Were A Fictional Character)

Thank you for the tag @machiavellli !

Consider Yourself Tagged If You Are Reading This:
Consider Yourself Tagged If You Are Reading This:
1 year ago

Ehy do autumn and winter have no antlers, they trans?

Well my Winter is technically trans ftm but that's not why they don't have antlers. I made them into water deers which is a breed of deer that both genders have tusks instead of antlers.


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1 year ago

Are they edible

What?

1 year ago

Hey it's been awhile how you been PS I saw your new drawing of Zill and Jack's fankid I love it

Busy, and did you mean from the discord server?

1 year ago
A Group Of Deers Is Called A Herd.

A group of deers is called a herd.

The oldest and most gorgeous deer of the herd had to be Camilla with her natural beauty and sassy but sweet attitude. Just remember not to annoy her when she's working behind the bar.

Spring might be the most skittish person you know as she tries to hide away or shrink back from people, especially boys. She's either in her garden enjoying the quiet or swimming in the pool with her girlfriend.

When there's a party going on you know Summer will be there. This wild child loves to have fun but doesn't handle peer pressure very well, especially when it comes to alcohol.

You heard of Jack Frost? Well Winter is Jack Frost incarnate as a menace to society.


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