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January Study Challenge

day 22 - do you use color-coding? explain your system!

yes!! i have a very elaborate system :) red is for circling notes that go together. yellow is for definitions. green is for numbers/formulas/dates/equations. teal is for highlighting subtitles. light blue is for people/names. darker blue is for sub-subtitles 😂 purple is for important things. pink is for examples. red PEN is for the most important things. and lastly, purple pen is for parts of the body (i rly only use that for anatomy lol). this may seem like a lot of work, but it’s really not, and it genuinely helps me find stuff within my (usually) very detailed notes. :)

p.s. sry for the super dark picture, i have trash lighting in my room

i have this condition where if i go to a bookstore with someone i have to point out every book ive read and tell them my opinion of it. it’s fatal.

peaceful morning 🌤

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(hi ik i don’t post anymore but i still enjoy tumblr v much and i’d love to start posting again, ok i hope u have a nice day bye!) :)

i had shared what is happening in sudan on a long facebook post last night, but it virtually received almost little to no engagement or shares from the nearly 600 “friends” i have on the site.

this morning, my great-aunt was shot by the soldiers fighting for power, and God forbid, i lose more of my family members before eid this friday.

please read below to understand what is happening and how you can help my country. i hope the tumblr community can show more kindness than the lack of support and advocacy i’ve seen elsewhere.

يا رب اجعل هذا البلد آمناً 🇸🇩

the lack of awareness and advocacy from the African, Arab, and Muslim diaspora and the human rights community has been painful.

while Western media has done little to no coverage of the ongoing conflict in the capital city of my motherland, Sudan, it appears that the rest of the world also partakes in normalizing crimes and violence against SWANA people.

violence and war hurting the SWANA region are NOT ordinary occurrences — no one, regardless of race, creed, ethnicity, religion, and gender, should experience the unprecedented amount of violence that harms my two living grandmothers, aunts and uncles, and baby cousins who live in Khartoum.

your decision to ignore reading or educating and discussing with others about what is likely to be a civil war is complicity in viewing SWANA people as individuals who regularly experience conflict and are undeserving of help.

the silence is damaging, and it is up to us as privileged members of the diaspora (or individuals living in the Western world committed to human rights) to support the people of my country and their dream for a stable, democratically elected government.

what is happening in Sudan is a fight that started on April 15 between two competing forces for power — the Sudanese Army and the Rapid Support Forces (RSF) — neither groups are representative of the needs of our people. The Sudan Army is loyal to the dictator, Omar Al-Bashir, and the RSF is responsible for the genocide in Darfur.

with both power struggles backed by different Arab and Gulf nations, the two parties have been fighting for power for the last few years. While they worked together to try and end the people’s revolution, they lost. however, they are now in a constant power play of who will get to rule the nation.

this all means that war is NOT a reflection of my country — violence does not represent the SWANA people. Sudan is a nation of beautiful culture, strong women, intellectual and influential Islamic scholars, poets, and youth at the front lines of the revolution. we are a people committed to a region of peace for ourselves and the rest of the Ummah.

my family and the rest of Sudan’s innocent civilians are at the most risk, with many currently without drinking water, food to eat, electricity, and complete blockage to any mosques during the final nights of Ramadan, our holiest month of the year.

i ask that you please keep Sudan and our people in your prayers — donate to the Sudan Red Crescent or a mutual aid GoFund Me, email your representatives if you live in a country that can put pressure on either competing force of power, discuss this with your family and friends, and please do not forget to think about SWANA people — our brothers and sisters in Syria, Yemen, Lebanon, and many others need our love and support.

الردة_مستحيلة ✊🏾

#KeepEyesOnSudan

January Study Challenge

day 1 - what did you achieve last year? what are you setting out to achieve this month? this year?

last year, i took my first AP test! it was biology and i did well, with lots of studying, of course. i also took the PSAT for the first time, and did very well with minimal studying 😬 i was invited to the NSLC, and am currently top of my class. this definitely sounds braggy, and i apologize for that, but frankly, it was a rough year so i’m proud of myself for achieving all of that :)

this month, i am going to begin studying for the AP Chemistry and AP Psychology exams. i’m also going to begin my very first college class!

i’m hoping, in this new year (and decade), to end my horrible procrastination habits. i will be taking the PSAT twice more this year, with actual studying this time ! hopefully i’ll be able to attend the NSLC this summer and i’ll do my best on my 3 AP exams in May.

Random pieces of advice

The world is less scary and chaotic if you lie down on the floor

Noticing different kinds of light (stars, candles, sunshine or city lights) can bring back the feeling of wonder and hope

If you can’t shower, washing your hands and face will help you feel better and cleaner

If you can’t clean anything else, changing and/or washing your bedsheets can do wonders

Fresh air and being outside in general can help with depersonalisation

Spending time around animals can help you recognise what’s important and calm anxious thought cycles

Techniques for emotional regulation in children can really help adults too

Putting random asortment of food on a plate without creating an actual dish still counts as a meal

Drink something warm

Delete that app

Treat yourself as if you were a kid. Buy yourself a toy, play around, learn about cool new things

Fast paced life isn’t morally better and it’s not good for everyone

There is no good reason to keep yourself hungry

Singing to your full lung capacity can be a great way to let out built up emotion

Tension in the face can cause headaches. Try to massage your face regularly

Nothing is as important as your health

You are a whole person on your own, you don’t need someone else to be there to deserve love and attention. Your life can be full as long as you are present

You should cry things out whenever you feel like it

Slow walks are still movement and they do count

It’s never as bad as you imagine it

Try changing your toothpaste flavor if you hate brushing your teeth

Anything can be a stim toy - one of my favourites is a heavy dragon necklace that has a complicated surfice. It’s fun to touch and hold and it’s not even “actual” stim toy

Procrastinating and feeling bad about it is true waste of time. Learn to truly rest. It takes the same amount of time but it is useful

Sometimes you have to force yourself to do the things that make you feel better

Don’t trust the thoughts you have after not sleeping for a while

Friendships don’t have to be forever to mean something

January Study Challenge ft. the sunrise

day 8 - opinion on snow??

i LOVE snow 🥺 i live in the desert so i don’t get to see much, but i’m v excited to move north so i can :)

January Study Challenge

forgot to do day 4 so i’m just gonna skip it 😬

day 5 - why did you choose your major, or if you’re still in the process of choosing (or if you haven’t even started), what’s your thought process in choosing one?

i’m still in hs, so i definitely have not chosen a major yet! but i’ve thought about it plenty. i want to become a surgeon (or at least some kind of physician) so i’m going to have to go to med school. i’ve read that you can really major in anything as an undergrad to go to med school, but i feel as if biology would prepare me best, so that’s what i’m gonna major in! preferably human biology or something similar.

i’m definitely going to minor in comparative literature or english though! i adore fiction :)

January Study Challenge

day 3 - do you tend to make new year’s resolutions? how well has that gone for you in the past?

mmm yes i usually make some, but they’re very loose? if that makes sense. for example, this year is just to drink more water, and try to eat when i’m actually hungry (instead of when i’m bored or sad, etc.). the thing is, throughout the year, i get random bursts of motivation and begin to make resolutions, soooo the new year isn’t that different from a random burst of motivation 🤷🏻‍♀️ anyway, i don’t tend to stick to my resolutions, but i have faith about this year!