I'm Not Sure If This Will Come Out Right But:

need some movie night cuddles that start innocently enough.. my hand just so happens to nestle between your thighs because it’s warm and cozy right there..my fingers lightly graze the center of your panties, softly gasping together when I discover how wet you already are.. well, can’t leave you needy like that, can i? and just like that, your back is pressed to my chest, my fingers hooked inside your panties, lazily playing with your pretty pussy while we both forget to pretend that the movie ruse mattered anyway..

there is so much inside of me

and i can't get any of it out

in the ways that i want to.

the pretty ways that won't

make people worried about me again.

there are so many things

i want to tell you,

so many ways that i want to

scream and cry for help,

but i just stay silent,

letting the fear pile up in my throat

until it is gargling my words

away from my tongue

as i try to speak them.

i'm sorry we haven't

been talking as much lately,

it's just been hard to breathe.

hard to stomach the

self-inflicted homesickness,

the extra sting of knowing

that it is my fault that i miss you,

that i'm the one pushing you away.

hard to accept that it's because

i am terrified that if i let you in

you will drown with me.

-mars

https://www.instagram.com/frachella/

Fuck her until all the bad thoughts go away

not to be nsfw but i desperately need to be held and have my hair gently stroked while i fall asleep in the warmth of someone’s arms. and wake up with her still holding me, feeling all safe.

source: msbhaive on insta

Remember that you must allow people to love you, to be kind to you, to help you. Not everyone is going to be toxic for you, some people just genuinely want to be a part of your life, but you to feel all this love coming your way, you have to believe you deserve it. Let people love you. Let them look out for you, care for you, don't push them away. Let them stay.