A Star And A Blackhole

I search up an animatic that had less than 100k irc and I find that I can’t find it so now I’m tweaking cause it might be deleted fml

The video of a series I’m watching decided to buffer in the worst time possible so now I’m writing this cause I’m pissed and to kill time I guess.

buffering in a suspenseful moment that has a huge revaluation? Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Still not a fan.

Oh boy colouring. I am not a colour fan

Random story about my time in the roblox piggy fandom I wanted to share

Back in 2020, I played a Roblox game called Piggy. At some point I hyperfixated HARD on it, I don’t remember how but I just did. At the time there were 11 chapters out and I kept replaying those damn chapters alot. I grinded for the most expensive skin at the time (Torcher) since it looked cool I think?

For some reason after I got the skin I got extremely hyperfixated on it? It caused me to hate fandom interpretation of it, more specifically, the lack of variety. Torcher was always depicted as a pig under the mask and I was stupidly angry about it, my logic being you could depict it as any animal you want yet you went with the most common option 

I also had one-sided beef with the most popular ship with it, Torcher x Soldier, it was one sided because my younger self (in most cases) fortunately had the foresight to not rain on shippers parade and not comment on my pretty damn stupid hatred of it. This might have paved the way for my general attitude towards ships which is “I hate the more popular pairing, I like the rarer one” there’s definitely exceptions to that, since my feeling of destain isn’t controllable lol

Also shoutout to my piggy amino days, I said some stupid shit back there. Two examples I randomly cringe about are:

Me trying to justify my destain for Pony x Zizzy that turned into hatred of Zizzy in general (this didn’t happen with Pony since I created an AU in which the player character and Pony were friends which meant I gave my AU Pony character. That’s legit the only reason 💀)

My post was something like, “I liked Willow for murdering Zizzy but she should’ve stayed the villain” or something? Someone asked why and my younger self tried to shitly justify my irrational hatred. This prompted someone else to point out my bullshit to which I conceded I was being irrational 

Me trying to be funny and saying to someone fan art of Owell looking like it wants to murder the viewer “oh no she heard I said she looked like a sans fangirl.” It was not funny.

Despite the cringy memories associated with Piggy because of me being a fandom baby, I still think of it fondly. Mainly because my interest in it caused me to draw more and it gave me one an OC I’m very much fond of

(Below is me infodumping about that OC)

The OC I’m referring to is Torian (I’ll just call her Ian) Ian originated as a Torcher recolouring I still wear as my YouTube account uncreatively named Blue Torcher which was just Torcher but the yellow was replaced by black and the red was replaced by blue.

Ian evolved so much from her origins. Ian or at the time, Blue Torcher (I’ll refer to this version as Blue) was used as my self insert in my piggy AU. Blue was this all-powerful god that broke the fourth wall and had little care for her supposed friends, that was because Blue the god was different from Ari, the person that the body Blue inhabited belonged to

And then I thought of another character, her name was Tyko. She was originally a gacha life (or club?) character. She became the self insert. But I still liked Blue so I kept her but gave her a different function. Blue acted as her second self. She was meant to represent me arguing with myself since I thought it was funny

And then Blue and Tai became more intertwined…

Eventually Blue became Tor who became Torian. 

Torian is a god with the power to create worlds in her bubble. The bubble functions like imagination, Ian cannot get out and no one can get in, but a weird imitation of that one can be created in that world based on Ian’s perception.

Somewhere along the way, Ian began to hate things about herself. To the point where she created a new being that represents everything she hates about herself. That being is called Thaiko

Thaiko and Torian’s story is not pretty, there’s a lot of “failing to break a cycle” in there but eventually they both reached a point in their mental health in which they become one being again

Oh boy colouring. I am not a colour fan

I’m getting my ass kicked by a specific frame cause Soul’s face just doesn’t look right no matter what I do

I completely fucked up Mind’s expression 💀I intended for him to look smug or mocking but bro is mouthless so I can’t make him smirk

HMSW mugshots

Tried to make sure none of them reached 6’ft {Soul can though since he wears heels}

I’d like to hear y’all’s interpretation on how they got into this situation

Inspiration: https://twitter.com/SleepySkyes/status/1691924389720117682

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Hey y’all. Take a gander at these animals I drew. I am very proud of how I drew the fox guy and the crow gal

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