I don't know when to start and I don't know when to stop
god i’m hungry
developed ana so i could finally be in control of something n do well at it only to lose control of yet another aspect of my life and suck at restricting
I hate the weekends. I can never control myself.
Im embarrassed to say that I didn’t fast today.👎
Spent the day with my mom since I didn’t go to school, and we ended up going out to eat. I ate just below my maintenance calories. This is not ideal, but I’m proud I didn’t go overboard or anything. It sucks to be so close to my maintenance though. But at least it helped with the massive headache.
I hate boys almost as much as I hate food!
(He got a new gf)
I’m going to go on a five day fast. The longest I’ve ever done is 48 hours which I know is nothing but I struggle with fasting. Wish me luck! I will post how much I lose by the end.
I love talking to “@na” in my head like we’re besties. she’s cool . like today our convo was about how she’s just here as a cosmetic thing and compared herself to makeup. It makes a lot of sense, makeup is inherently unhealthy but we all wear it for fun to feel pretty and accepted. Everyone just kind of sweeps under the rug how bad it actually is lol. Maybe in the future it will be looked down upon as much as @na is, but just some f00d for thought???
I don’t drink, I don’t smoke, all I have is caffeine.
Thinspo