I write exclusively for me and my wife, that is all
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Two fics in the works, one for the wife and one for my own self indulgence, maybe a third that is pure filth who knows
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bucky barnes x fem! reader
a/n: this took me 5 days to write and GOD it was hard. the ideas were running around my mind like crazy tho. but I had fun writing this. i cant wait for the rest tho. enjoy your reading and do your thing girl. HAVE FUN YALL! đ (HES SO PRETTY IN THAT GIF OH MY GOD AAAAAHHHH đťđťđť)
word count: around 4k?
warrnings: blood, guns, sad max, shadow (shes a warning okay?), trauma from the past and yeah.
prologue part i
Maxâs grip tightened around the steering wheel, his mind spiraling. 'five years. five damn years, and this guy figures it out in a week? how the hell does he do it? while Iâve been chasing dead ends, heâs been living his life like itâs nothing. maybe I just suck at this. maybe I shouldâve done more. maybe I couldâve stopped them. maybe... maybe I couldâve saved her.'
he slammed his fist against the wheel, the pain sharp but grounding. "this is my fault. It always has been," he muttered.
his thoughts were like wildfire, scorching everything in their path. the guilt. the rage. the self-loathing. but the one thing that always stuck with him was the pain of not being able to protect herâof failing his older sister.
pulling into the parking lot, Max forced himself to take a deep breath. the weight on his chest didnât lighten, but he fought it down. he grabbed the croissant and locked the car, hoping the small gesture would at least make the meeting feel somewhat normal, plus hungry sam isn't on his list. he doesn't like that sam. so maybe if he could get through this conversation with Sam, he could push forward.
Max walked into the cafĂŠ and immediately spotted Sam, who was sipping his coffee and already looking as annoyed as ever. Max barely had time to open his mouth before Sam threw a sarcastic jab his way.
âevery damn time. I show up on time, wait half an hour like an idiot, and then you show up like a lost puppy after an hour and a half. why, Max? Whatâs the deal? am I just supposed to be the fool in this partnership?â sam teased max.
Max, still a bit tight from his thoughts, handed Sam the paper bag with the croissant. Samâs sarcastic tone didnât faze him at all.
smirking to himself he knew that sam hated when he was late. âyeah, yeah. youâre lucky I remembered. figured you might need something to stop complaining.â
when he sat down, Sam eyed him, raising an eyebrow as he took the croissant and unwrapped it. âshit. you actually remembered something. pistachio, huh? guess youâre not as useless as you look.â
frowning, but clearly amused, max replied âitâs pistachio, dipshit. iâm not gonna bring you chocolate. youâve got a weird obsession with that stuff.â and when he says weird he means it. seriously that guys obssession with pistachios is insane.
once when they were watching a movie, sam took a whole ass bag of pistachio's just to munch on them while watching the movie. till this day he has a serious trauma from it.
taking a bite, looking up at Max with a mischievous grin, sam said âyouâre right, pistachioâs better. you actually do have taste. i'll admit that much.â
"yeah no shit. seriously when is that obsession going to stop, man? its concerning for both your health and mine." max shook his head trying to shake off the flashbacks he had.
sam eyed max offendedly and shook his head in disbelief. "you're one to talk kid. look your obsession with those drawn girls? now thats concerning. actually now that we are talking about it, why dont you have a girlfriend to bring you back to the place you're supposed to be, huh?"
feeling his cheeks getting hot, max tried to change the subject of the conversation and get to the real point. "that doesn't makes and sense right now. we are not here to talk about that, but something else."
sam chuckled because he knew he hit a weak spot and to be honest? he did not care. hes older than him for gods sake. 'kids these days man. always in the trouble.' he thought to himself.
as they sat down, Sam tossed a thick file of papers on the table. maxâs frustration was starting to bubble over again, especially at the sheer amount of paperwork.
annoyed and tired from all the teasing, but with a clear sarcasam in his voice he asked âwhy the hell do you still do this, Sam? why not bring a tablet or something? you could make this whole thing easier. weâre not in the 90s, man. this isnât your high school history project.â
smirking while munching on the croissant, sam teased âi like the paper, alright? old school. you should try it sometime.â
Max couldnât help but roll his eyes. there was always some excuse for everything with Sam.
âwhatever. but you still havenât told me anything useful. we have a lead on her or what?â max asked in curiosity.
Sam leaned back, wiping his mouth, and pushed the folder closer to Max.
more seriously now sam said âyouâre right. Iâm not here to screw around. I found something that might actually help. hydraâs been holding someone, and it lines up with everything weâve been looking for. could be her.â
Max paused, staring at the papers for a long moment. It was hard to believe after all this time. Was this real?
gritting his teeth, a little frustrated âyou know how many times Iâve heard maybe itâs her, Sam? we need something concrete.â
leaning forward, tone more intense âI know. but this is more than just a maybe. theyâve been shifting people around, and this oneâs high priority. we get in, we get the intel. then we plan how to get her out. weâve got one shot at this.â
Maxâs face hardens with determination as he flips through the papers, his pulse picking up at the thought of her possibly being so close. but his mind is also spinningâthis time could be different, but thereâs a lot on the line.
Max sighed, rubbing his temples, feeling the pressure building. He glanced at Sam, who was already pulling out his phone to make calls.
âalright, whatâs the plan? how do i get in? how do i find her?â
grinning a little, still working the phone sam said âyou do the running around, make sure Hydraâs too busy with you to notice me hacking into their systems. iâll handle the details. you get the glory.â
nodding with a smirk, max replied âyou know, I love it when you act all calm and smart. it makes me look even cooler when Iâm the one doing the real work.â
without missing a beat, not looking up from the phone âyeah, sure, Max. youâre definitely the one doing the work. just donât blow everything up before I finish the plan.â
grinning as he stands up, max teased âdonât worry, Iâve got this. you just focus on not getting us caught.â
Max turned to walk away, but Samâs voice called after him.
almost mockingly sam teased back âdonât get yourself arrested, alright? Iâm not bailing you out again.â
grinning as he leaves, like a mantra, max says âyou say that like itâs not part of the plan.â
chuckling to himself, Sam walked away and drove off, leaving Max alone with his thoughts.
'am I really going to do this? am I really going to find her?'
the doubt gnawed at him, but deep down, he already knew the answer. "God, I hope so. I really do."
fifteen years apart, and still, his sister was the most important person in his life. he had looked up to her when they were kids. he still didâeven after she was taken away.
Max sighed and got into his car, starting the engine as he pulled onto the road.
traffic was heavier than usualâclogged, but not fully stopped. he weaved forward slowly, his fingers tapping impatiently against the wheel.
then, he noticed them.
two men in police uniforms were moving between cars, asking questions and checking IDs. it looked routine enough, but something about the way they carried themselves put Max on edge.
his turn came faster than expected. one of the officers approached, leaning down slightly.
"ID, sir."
Max handed it over without a word, his muscles tensing the moment the officerâs eyes locked onto his. there was something in his gazeâsomething too sharp, too focused.
the man barely glanced at the ID before reaching for his walkie-talkie.
he turned slightly, murmuring something too quiet for Max to hear.
Maxâs grip tightened on the steering wheel. What the hell is happening?
the officerâs body language changedâhis movements slow, deliberate, as if he were both careful and calculating. his fingers curled tightly around the walkie-talkie, knuckles slightly white.
Max furrowed his brows. He had seen men act like that before. not cops. Soldiers. operatives trained to stay alert at all times.
his instincts screamed at him.
something isnât right.
should he ask what was going on? play it cool? worst-case scenarioârun.
subtly, he adjusted his posture, keeping his breathing steady. his gun was still tucked safely under his seat. If things went south, at least he wasnât unarmed.
after a few seconds that stretched too long, the man turned back to him, nodding stiffly.
"thank you for your service, sir. you can go."
the words sounded polite, but there was a sneer beneath them. like the man knew something Max didnât.
Max didnât hesitate. he nodded, muttered a quick "yeah, sure," and pressed on the gas. but as he pulled away, his eyes flicked to the rearview mirror.
the officer was still watching him.
and then, he spoke into the walkie-talkie again.
while driving, max looked at his rearview mirror and checked if the police man was still looking at him and every time he turned around he did.
stopping on a red light he reached for his phone to call sam and after fourth ring he answered.
"what do you need right now huh? that talk wasnt enough good for you? or you just need an advice how to bag a real girl instead of looking at those drawn girls youre drooling?" sam teased hoping it would cheer him up a little bit, but max wasnt in the mood. after that stunt hes more on the edge than he ever has been.
"Sam, something's happening. Something bad, man. And itâs not good."
Gripping the wheel to the point his knuckles were white, Max kept glancing at his rearview mirror. The so-called cop was still there, still watching, still talking into that damn walkie-talkie.
"I donât know what it is yet, but I can feel it. Theyâre onto me."
His pulse was hammering in his ears as he pressed down on the gas, trying to put some distance between him and whatever the hell was about to go down.
"I think itâs Hydra."
Static crackled over the line before Samâs voice finally came through, sharp and laced with concern.
"Where are you, Max?"
"Still stuck in traffic, but Iâm moving. Listen, if I donât call back in five minutesâ"
A sudden screech of tires behind him made Max whip his head around. A black SUV had just pulled out of a side street, merging into traffic fast. Too fast to be normal.
"Shit," Max muttered under his breath.
His grip tightened even more.
"Sam, I think Iâve got company."
There was a pause, then a sigh. "You sure?"
"Not yet." He took another turn. The SUV followed. Shit. "But I will be soon."
Maxâs mind raced. If this was Hydra, then this wasnât just some random tail. They were waiting for somethingâfor the right moment to make a move.
"Alright," Samâs voice was calmer now, more focused. "Listen to me. Donât freak out. Donât run. Not yet."
Max gritted his teeth. "Wasnât planning on it."
"Good. If theyâre following you, theyâre waiting for confirmation. They donât know if youâre actually you yet. Donât give them a reason to be sure."
Maxâs grip loosened just a little. Sam was right. If they knew, they wouldâve already acted. Right now, they were just watching.
Waiting.
"Okay,"Â Max muttered, switching lanes casually. The SUV mirrored him a second later.
Yeah. He was definitely being followed.
"Sam," he said, voice lower now, "I really, really donât like being watched."
"Yeah, well, try not to look so damn suspicious, genius."
Max huffed, rolling his shoulders. "Any advice, smartass?"
"Yeah. Keep driving. Act normal. And get somewhere public before they decide to make a move."
Maxâs lips pressed into a thin line.
"Public, huh?"
His eyes flicked to an upcoming intersection. A plan was already forming.
"I know just the place."
"wait what do you mean? youre taking your other buddies to the secret places too? damn man thats cold. and here I thought i was your best friend. thats cold man." sam said offendedly.
Max rolled his eyes and tightened his grip on the wheel.
"Yeah, yeah, now shut upâIâm trying to concentrate."
"Fine, but just so you know, my feelings are deeply wounded."
Max ignored him, making a sharp turn onto a side street, his eyes flicking to the rearview mirror. The black SUV was still there.
Still following.
The tension in his gut coiled tighter. They werenât even trying to be subtle anymore.
"Sam."
"Yeah?"
"Still got that feeling something badâs about to happen?"
"Oh, absolutely."
Maxâs knuckles were white against the wheel, his heart hammering as the so-called police car sped up behind him.
the sirens werenât blaring.
thatâs how he knew something was seriously wrong.
before he could react, the car slammed into him from the side.
âshitâ!â the impact sent his car spinning, tires screeching against the asphalt. he yanked the wheel, trying to gain control, but the car was skiddingâswervingâgoing straight for a row of parked cars.
and thenâ gunfire.
bullets ripped through his windshield.
âFUCKââ Max ducked, hands still gripping the wheel as glass shattered around him.
his earpiece crackled to life."MAX? MAX, WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?"
"OH, I DONâT KNOW, SAM, MAYBE THE FACT THAT IâM BEING HUNTED LIKE A GODDAMN ANIMAL?!"
more bullets. more fucking bullets.
Max reached under his seat, grabbing his gun while still trying not to die.
"ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND? GET OUTTA THERE, MAN!" sam was stressed and sam is never stressing like this.
"WHAT DO YOU THINK IâVE BEEN TRYING TO DO, DIPSHIT? YOUâRE NO HELP AT ALL!"
Max yanked the wheel hard right, his car screeching around a corner. he wasnât outrunning these guysâhe needed to lose them.
he swerved into a crowded market street, narrowly avoiding a fruit stand. people screamed, diving out of the way. the Hydra agents werenât slowing down.
and then he saw itâ someone standing in the middle of the street.
dark tactical suit. black mask. rifle raised.
aiming right at him.
Maxâs stomach dropped.
"Son of aâ" BOOM. a bomb rolled under his car. a fucking bomb. Max didnât thinkâhe acted.
he threw himself out of the car.
the explosion sent him flying, heat licking at his back as his car flippedâtwiceâ
before crashing onto its roof.
everything spun. pain shot through his ribs. his ears were ringing.
and when he looked upâ the masked figure was standing over him. gun aimed right at his head.
fuck.
he reached for his gunâ but the figure kicked it away.
the person, now standing right in frint of him, spoke in a slow voice "но ŃакОК ĐąŃŃŃŃŃĐš ŃОНдаŃ."
Max swallowed thickly, mind racing.
he was unarmed. he was injured.
and this personâ whoever the hell they wereâ was about to put a bullet in his head, but when they took a step closer-Max was already moving.
he lungedâgrabbing a jagged piece of metal from the wreckageâand threw it.
It wasnât a perfect shot. but it was enough.
the masked figure dodgedâjust barelyâgiving Max the one second he needed.
he ran.
ducking into the crowd, he kept his head low, weaving between people. He could still hear Hydra agents behind him, still felt the masked figureâs gaze burning into his back.
his earpiece crackled. "MAX?! WHAT HAPPENED?"
"change of plans buddy, im bringing the hell to you" max whispered
"FUCKINGâWHY?!"
Max grinned despite the blood in his mouth. "because I think I just pissed off Hydraâs best assassin."
and she really, really wants me dead.
ONE HOUR LATER
By the time Max made it to Samâs place, he was barely standing. His legs felt like cement. His ribs? Probably cracked. His head? Pounding.And the worst part? He had to walk the whole damn way here. An hour. On foot. Bleeding.
He slammed his fist against the doorbell and leaned against the doorway, gasping for air. The bleeding had mostly stopped, but his injuries? Way worse. His ribs throbbed under his torn hoodie, an ugly purple bruise spreading across his side.
His entire body screamed for rest, but his mind was still stuck in that moment.
The masked assassin. The bomb. The gun pointed at his head.
He swallowed hard, pushing the thought away.
The door swung open, and there was Samâarms crossed, shaking his head.
âJesus, Max.â Sam looked him up and down, unimpressed. âYouâre always getting yourself into some dumbass situation.â
Max groaned, shuffling past him and immediately collapsing onto the couch.
Sam watched, unimpressed. âHow are you still alive?â
Max waved a weak hand in the air. âIâm built different.â
Sam rolled his eyes, but a small smirk tugged at his lips as he walked toward the bathroom. âI swear, man. Youâre like a goddamn cockroach.â
âYeah, well, this cockroach just died and you werenât there to help me. Thatâs low, Sam. Real low.â
Samâs voice echoed from the bathroom. âOh, I donât knowâmaybe because I was screaming at you to get the hell out and you werenât listening?!â
Max exhaled a tired laugh, running a shaky hand over his face. His body ached in places he didnât even know could hurt.
A minute later, Sam returned, first aid kit in hand. He plopped down beside Max, flipping it open. âNeed help?â
Max took one look at him and scoffed. âWhat, you wanna kiss it better?â
Sam shoved the gauze at his chest. âFix your damn face, dumbass.â
Max chuckled weakly, winking as he grabbed the gauze and started patching up his busted eyebrow.
But thenâSamâs expression changed.
Something more serious.
He watched Max carefully. Too carefully.
âHowâd they find you?â His voice was low, tense. âYouâre careful. You donât slip up. You donât leave tracks. Did youâ?â
Max immediately shook his head. âI didnât do anything, Sam.â
Silence.
Sam didnât look convinced.
Max swallowed, his hands suddenly trembling.
His voice was quieter when he spoke next.
ââŚSam.â
Something about the way he said itâ soft, uncertain, almost afraidâ made Samâs posture stiffen.
Max exhaled shakily, his jaw clenched.
âI think I found her.â
The words hit the room like a bomb.
Samâs breath caught. He didnât speak. Couldnât.
Max turned to him, and for the first time in a long timeâhis eyes were glassy.
Raw. Torn between hope and devastation.
Sam opened his mouth. Closed it.
ââŚMax.â
Max looked down at his hands. âI donât know if it was really her, butââ His voice cracked. He exhaled sharply, running a hand through his blood-matted hair.
âI thinkâI think she tried to kill me.â
And just like thatâthe world stopped.
The silence between them was heavy.
Max felt itâthe way Sam shifted uncomfortably. The tension in his shoulders. The way he didnât know what to say.
Max exhaled, forcing a chuckle as he adjusted his position, setting the first aid kit aside. He shouldnât have said anything.
âSorry, man,â he muttered, pushing himself off the couch. âDidnât mean to make things weird.â
Sam immediately shook his head. âNo, Max, itâs alright.â
But Max was already walking away. His throat felt dry, tight. He needed something, anything to pull his thoughts away from this.
He poured himself a glass of water, gripping the cup a little too tightly.
Sam hesitated, then exhaled. âSorry that happened, man.â A small pause. Soft. Honest. âWish I was there to save your ass.â
Max let out a breathy laugh, shaking his head.
âYeah, huh.â He took a slow sip of water, swallowing past the lump in his throat. âAnd listen to thisâIâm not even sure if that was her.â
His voice wavered.
Sam froze.
Max scoffed bitterly, rubbing at his face. âI donât even know if that person was my sister. Orâor if that person was even a woman.â
He felt it before he realized it.
Tears. Hot, angry, silent. Grief clawed at his chest, raw and relentless. It wasnât fair.
He had spent yearsâyearsâsearching for her.
And now?
Now she was nothing but a shadow with a gun to his head.
He let out a hollow laugh, voice breaking.
âSam⌠Iââ His breath hitched. His hands clenched at the counter. âI donât even know my sister.â
And that? That hurt worse than any bullet.
Sam didnât hesitate this time.
He got up, crossed the room, and pulled Max into a hug.
Max stiffened, but only for a second.
Because, godâhe needed this.
He let himself sink into it, gripping the back of Samâs shirt like it was the only thing keeping him standing.
Sam didnât say anything.
Didnât tell him itâd be okay. Didnât promise him things he couldnât guarantee.
He just held him.
Because what else could he do?
Maxâs hands clenched in Samâs shirt, his voice a low, shaking whisper.
"Iâm going to kill them all. Every last one of them. One by one."
Sam stiffened. Heâd heard that tone before.
A promise. A death sentence.
Sam tightened his grip around Max and pulled away just enough to look him in the eyes.
"And Iâm here to help you, buddy. Alright?" His hands gripped Maxâs shoulders, grounding him. Holding him up. "Whatever you needâIâm here."
Max stared at him for a moment, really looked at him. And he realizedâthis man had been by his side through all of it.
The good, the bad. The moments where Max could barely hold himself together.
Sam had been there. Always.
A choked chuckle broke through Maxâs lips. He wiped at his face, forcing the tears away. Enough of that.
"Yeah, well⌠we better get on with it soon," he muttered, straightening up. "Because I swear to god, Sam, I wanna feel their faces on my knuckles, yâknow? Like Captain America. But the bad guy version."
Sam snorted, shaking his head as he clapped a hand on Maxâs shoulder.
"Yeah, yeah, dipshit. Weâll get to that." His voice softened. "But first? Clean yourself up. Get some rest."
Max frowned. "Iâm fiâ"
Sam pointed. "You walked in here with your head gushing blood. Go. Now."
Max huffed but didnât argue. He muttered something about "bossy assholes" under his breath as he grabbed the first aid kit and disappeared down the hall.
Sam let out a breath, running a hand down his face. Jesus.
Max collapsed into bed, staring up at the ceiling, his whole body aching. His mind racing.
He had found her.
And he had lost her all over again.
His fingers curled into the sheets, his breath unsteady.
'I promise youâIâm going to save you. No one is going to stop me. Just wait for me. Please.'
His eyelids grew heavy.
Darkness pulled him under.
MEANWHILE
3 HOURS EARLIER
She stood still. Back straight, shoulders squared, breath even.
The suit was tight. Heavy. But it felt like nothing.
Because she felt nothing.
She had been given her equipmentâknives, firearms, explosivesâall perfectly placed, strapped to her like an extension of her own body. Like she had been born to carry them.
She hadnât been born for this.
But she had been made for it.
And now, she stood in front of Vasily, waiting. For the command. For the only thing that mattered.
The girl she was before? She didnât exist anymore.
The only thing left was this.
Cold. Ruthless. Empty. A weapon with one purpose.
To eliminate Max Harrison. Her brother. But she didnât know that. She wasnât allowed to know that.
Vasily took a step forward, studying her with sharp, hungry eyes. His voice was smooth, calculated. Testing her. Waiting for weakness.
âТонŃ?â Shadow?
Her response was instant. Programmed.
âĐĐžŃОв пОдŃинŃŃŃŃŃ.â Ready to comply.
Not a flicker of hesitation. No fear. No anger. No doubt.
She was perfect.
Vasilyâs lips curled into something almost amused.
"ĐŁŃŃŃаниŃŃ ŃоНŃ. ĐодНоннО и ŃŃŃОКŃивО." Eliminate the target. Slow and steady.
He was watching her. Waiting for a crack in the armor. For a flicker of resistance.
Because he wanted her to break.
If she broke, he could put her back together again.
If she cracked, he could rip her apart and rebuild her.
Just like before.
But there was nothing.
No hesitation. No flicker of recognition.
Only the mission.
Only the orders.
âĐа, ŃŃŃ.â yes sir
And then she was gone.
To do the ârightâ thing.
She wasnât alone. He was there, too. The infamous Winter Soldier. Silent. Unmoving. A shadow carved into flesh and metal.
Different mission. Same purpose.
Cold. Distant. Focused.
There was nothing behind his eyes. Nothing but the mission.
Just like her.
She turned her head slightly, her voice steady. Unshaken.
"ХОНдаŃ." Soldier.
His response came instantly, without thought.
"ТонŃ." Shadow.
No warmth. No familiarity. Just recognition. Just an echo of something long gone.
Because once, before all this, people had looked at them and said they were meant to be.
Perfect for each other.
But the universe had other plans.
It had torn them apart, piece by piece. Rebuilt them into ghosts. Into weapons sharpened to the breaking point.
And now?
They were together againâbut not as people..As something else entirely.
Because it wasnât like they had a choice.
And soon, the world would feel the weight of what they had become.
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Anyway go follow them!! They're a really good writer :)
hi guys, so this is the owner of @golden1u5t or what used to be. uhm, iâm really almost in tears over this but i accidentally deleted that account because i had made a second blog and honestly i forgot what i was even going to use it for but i had decided i didnât want to use it anymore and so i deleted it.
when i deleted that second blog i was unaware that it would also delete my main blog. tumblr has really pissed me off because it gave no warning whatsoever while i was going through the process to delete that second blog that it would delete my main blog. you have no idea how upset i am over this. like even though i stopped posting as much as i would have liked, i would like to think that i did work out on my work to make it so that you all would read it and it would be enjoyable for you all.
i really hate that it only took a few clicks of buttons for all my hard work to be gone. just like that. iâm not sure how long itâll take for me to get my blog back to what it was before but i promise iâll try my hardest.
so whenever you see this, if you read my work or followed me, iâd love it if you just popped in for a quick moment to let me know you saw this and know whatâs going on. i think itâd make me feel a little less crappy too.
next person to spam like my fics without a single comment is getting a dm from me with the following:
DID YOU LIKE IT?
WHY DID YOU LIKE IT????
OR DID YOU HATE IT AND GAVE IT A LIKE TO LAUGH AT ME LATER?????
DO YOU HATE ME??????????
Lets break back into the swing of things!
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"If you enjoy a work you should kudos or comment" is not aimed at the people who aren't reading the fanfiction in question.
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Fanfiction authors write because they enjoy writing. They post because they want to form a connection with the people who enjoyed their work.
This is not an attempt to scold anyone, I literally don't care if I get kudos or not. It's simply an attempt to remind people that fanfiction is a community, and fan authors can't read your mind.
Forgot to say, hi im back off of hiatus, new fandoms n all
Anyway hiiiii
(Bestie was very excited about this)
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