Fatima Aamer Bilal, Excerpt From Moony Moonless Sky’s ‘i Am An Observer, But Not By Choice.’

Dior Haute Couture F/W 1997

in berlin rn (when am i not)…….more berliner remus hcs? saw a variant of him on the u bahn the other day

ok good because ive been thinking about him 🫶 i have an ask somewhere in the drafts about modern au but

the things that our beautifully grumpy modern!remus would constantly bitch about (the general grime, the attitude, the like? random abandoned street furniture?) would be exactly the type of shit that little straßenratte remus would make a home out of in the 60/70s

his family is bavarian yes he was separated by the wall as a preteen etc etc but this matters bc i think he's like..... a massive poser?

you have to imagine this tiny farmboy drowning in a stolen men's xxl leather bomber very defensively trying to blend in at S036 and being so angry about it too

and he is hitting the schnauze EMBARRASSINGLY hard for the first year okay. he is producing the most aggressive "ICK" known to man

i get emotional thinking about the logistics of a little werewolf adopted by muggle teenage squatters & punks. they shove sozialistische deutsche studentenbund zines in his hands and spike his hair and he clomps around in hand-me-down boots three sizes too big

and yeah remus is a werewolf but i can't think of anyone more willing to deal with that than a codependent gaggle of self-proclaimed junkies who nurse friends through seizures and know all the abandoned factories to lock him up in?

and if he drags himself back to the squat needing stitches... he's not the only one? and maybe its unhealthy but they just ruffle his hair and laugh and call it lebenskunst and show him how to put cigarettes out on his own forearms without flinching and drag him to show after show after show after show after

and yes he still always feels like an Outsider

but maybe its only after a couple years of Hogwarts when he's 17 and less feral and his ribcage doesn't stick out anymore and he's taking sirius to the cheap schöneberg flat he's renting with galleons (that he earned!!) (!!!!!)

he looks around and sees it through somebody else's eyes for the first time and thinks that as shabby as it was he was never actually on the outskirts of his own life here? he was living it?

he’s trying

i can turn you into poetry but i cannot make you love me.

(creds will be added in a hot sec! my bad y'all ;p)

she's so sleepy I love her

Just wanted to sketch her but got carried away 🫣

I will have to draw the other gryffindor girlies now…

i beg you to love me, say that i'm enough, but you tell me— why are you like this? i think there's something wrong with you.

for @shestrying

thanks to @acelania for finding the unknowns!

in image / desperation sits heavy on my tongue, tumblr user tullipsink / mary oliver, ‘north country’ / virginia woolf, letter to violet dickinson / in image / blythe baird, from if my body could speak / Alice in Bed: A Play' by Susan Sontag (link in comment) / lynee rae perkins, criss cross / elena ferrante, Those Who Leave and Those Who Stay' (trans. Ann Goldstein) / rainer maria rilke, from rilke’s book of hours / in image/ in image

The Duality of Man, mixed media, 2020

#gorgeous #rick and morty #ahhhhhhh

before tomorrow slaughters us, let me dream

edit: i cant believe i have to say this but no rickmorty interaction please

#im just a dr Wong fan okay #shes my Girl

I absolutely love Ricks character development. It's the type that keeps you on the edge of the seat, wondering if he'll do the right thing or not. When he does, it's super satisfying, but when he slips into his old habits, you want to yell out in frustration. Throughout the seasons, you notice subtle differences. His yearning to better, but he thinks he doesn't deserve it. It's easier to be the piece of shit everyone knows you as.

I think with the newest episode, we can see he is really trying. Rick went to therapy on his own because he was finally able to admit he needed help. I think that was a huge step. Rick has struggled with admitting the fact that he needs help, so much so that he would rather suffer than show that weakness.

I also want to point out how much I love Dr. Wong. She is one of the few people Rick actually respects. When he first met her, he tested the waters on what she'd allow him to get away with. He shat on her profession and tried to dig at anything that would potentially hurt her to make himself seem bigger. His efforts were useless. She didn't lose her stoicism and calmly explained the situation. She is one of the few people Rick can't provoke, nor make them feel inferior to him.

Dr. wong isn't afraid of Rick. She doesn't bat her eye with whatever insane cosmic bullshit Rick brings to her. He was a pickle for Christ's sake, and this woman wasn't fazed what so ever. I feel like Rick likes the fact that she isn't scared of him.

She'll set clear boundaries with Rick and correct him whenever he crosses them. The craziest thing is that he responds well to it. He, in facts listens to what she has to say. Even though he is the 'smartest being in the universe', I think he feels safer to be vulnerable in front of someone who doesn't depend on him, nor have any sort of expectation. She is well aware that Rick is a nillistic asshole, but she also knows there's good underneath it all. Rick has all sorts of trauma that he refused to process, hence the drinking and substance abuse. Dr. Wong could be really good for Rick. She's someone Rick could confide in with no judgment or ridicule.