Literally once a week for the past few weeks I've thought to myself "hm. maybe I'm a lesbian?" but then some other stuff happens and I forget about it. I mean, it would explain some things (bone-deep joy at seeing lesbian couples getting married or dancing together, indescribable). It would explain some other things (a rush of attraction and desire for women). It would make sense, even, if we consider things. It would feel right in a strange and slightly scary way. It would also require me to re-evaluate my relationship with men. Do I just like attention? Do I crave connection? Or am I attracted to them? I never have to ask myself these things with women. And I think I'm just plain old bi, but it's so shocking how easy it is for me to be attracted to women, in comparison. I don't crave attention in the same way from men, but most of all, it's so much easier to be attracted to women. The desire to touch, the stomach-clenching, hot-skulled, shallow-breathing rush. But anyhow. Thought for another time (next week).
Looks like a cinnamon roll, is a cinnamon roll: Lanyon
Looks like a cinnamon roll, but could kill you: Jekyll
Looks like they could kill you, is actually a cinnamon roll: Utterson
Looks like they could kill you, could actually kill you: Hyde
It’s PRIDE MONTH and wanting to start with this little remembrance from queer people in the past.
Lady Lilith, Dante Gabriel Rossetti, 1866–1868
Will o the Wisp, 1888 by Lev Lerch
Isn't Hannibal problematic...
no, but i understand the confusion! it's a common misconception, but serial murder and cannibalism are okay in real life.
And when we go into the thinking and living of the ten divine Sefirot, my own mind must become as sharp as possible, I must strive to understand not only the whole but also every detail of it. But at the same time my living and thinking must be infused by the divine influx, a wisdom that goes far beyond the mere rational, that will let me even see not only the past but also the future. But divine inspiration must be settled upon logical understanding of the scriptures, because I could also be misled by impure spirits. And when one balances out reason (understanding and logic — left column) with divine inspiration (intuition — right column) I bring the energy down to Malchut (our world) through the balance of the central column. And so my life becomes truly blessed and I become a master of my destiny rather than being a mere play ball of it. What false religion and false Kabbalah does is to bring false ideas beyond fact and understanding directly down through the right column for example into Malchut without the balance of logical understanding, and that's why in the tree of the Ari all descends to Malchut only through Yesod.
-Christopher Huber
i absolutely love that tumblr’s new obsession with goncharov came just in time for the end of dracula daily. now maybe in a year or two we’ll start seeing emails from our good friend koshalev mikailovich who was the journalist narrator of the original novel and tragically played such a minimal role in the film.
the commodification of friendship is the most annoying thing to come out of the internet in ages. like actually i love to break this to you but you're supposed to help your friends move even if it's hard work. or stay up with them when they're sad even if you're gonna lose sleep. you're supposed to listen to their fears and sorrows even if it means your own mind takes on a little bit of that weight. that's how you know that you care. they will drive you to the airport and then you will make them soup when they're sick. you're supposed to make small sacrifices for them and they are supposed to do that for you. and there's actually gonna be rough patches for both of you where the balance will be uneven and you will still be friends and it will not be unhealthy and they will not be abusive. life is not meant to be an endless prioritization of our own comfort if it was we would literally never get anywhere ever. jesus.