An Analysis Of How Words And Emotion Affect The Molecular Crystalized Structure Of Water

Siamés - “The Wolf”

Music I commute to

Idles - Ultra Mono album, and never fight a man with a perm

motionless in white: thoughts and prayers, broadcasting from beyond the grave, brand new numb, rats, soft, untouchable, not my type, 570, reincarnate, 

Nothing but thieves: I was just a kid, amsterdam, number 13, unperson, is everybody going crazy, ban the music, phobia, brother

Pvris: heaven, what’s wrong, gimme a minute, stay gold, old wounds, loveless, use me, things are better

pulp: disco 200, common people

Royal blood: lights off, hook line and sinker, ten tonne skeleton, trouble’s coming

drake: the motto

logic: homicide, soul food II, gang related, under pressure

Sondre Lerche: serenading in the Trenches

the 1975: love it if we made it, loving someone, somebody else, girls, love me

Believing Is Seeing

By far, my favourite project yet. I honestly really enjoyed building the logistics of my own world and translating what it looks like in my head onto paper. Illustrating what my world felt like really helped me to visualize the atmosphere I was trying to create.

My quote was “The tawny field of burnt grass led into the tight grid of the mysterious buildings”. To me ‘tight grid’ and ‘burnt grass’ implied something sinister and restrictive, so for some reason my brain said “ah, yes this is a cult”. I researched the psychology behind a cult environment, and how emotional blackmail is used to control members. I watched interviews and ted talks about people who escaped cults, including Rose Mcgowan. After having a tutorial with Sarah, I decided to present my world in a less sinister manner, and leave it up to the audience to decided whether this was a cult or a close knit community.

When putting together the diary I enjoyed illustrating things that are not visual, for example the sound of a creaking door, or the feeling of paranoia.

I had fun writing the script for the interview because I was able to show off my research. The aim was to create a character who had just been exiled from a cult, who to her was essentially her family. Although I’m not exactly a voice actor, I tried my best to communicate the character’s vulnerability and nativity. Ryan however, did a great job as an interviewer with what he had. I literally just sent him a script and said can you record yourself saying this please.

I was frustrated with after effects. Everything was taking so long to render because my laptop isn’t really built for adobe software. My doors didn’t really come out the way I wanted but I guess it looked cool.

Improvements:

- Play around with the font and positioning of the text 

- Make the script of the interview more ambiguous, cut out the end part

- somehow make the visuals of the doors match the diary so that it looks like it’s from the same world

- make something visual for the interview

For some reason, I had never bothered to research the history of my little blue inhaler, and I can’t believe how many models there have been.

From steam tents to cigarettes, from coffee to formulas that contain 3.5% cocaine, treatments and asthmatic equipment has come such a long way.

My dad once told me that back when he was a kid, the area where he grew up did not fully understand the cause of asthma, and believed that he was faking his attacks. He told me that his doctor would tell him that asthma was caused by ‘stale air’ in the lungs and that he needed to get rid of the air by lying to the side and patting the side of his ribs.

In this episode of middle ground by Jubilee, loved ones and addicts.

Before watching this, I saw addiction as a selfish, solitary disease, however after watching it made me realise that it effects the ones around you just as much, arguably even more than the person battling with the addiction. 

As someone who has no experience with either side, I found the fact that they all agreed with the statement ‘cutting ties with a loved one with addiction is ok.’ the most surprising because for some reason I have always thought that having some sort of support system was the most important thing in any healing process. However now I am realising how naïve that sounds. As said in the video, in some scenarios, cutting ties is necessary when the relationship becomes draining and toxic, and it also serves as a sort of wake up call to the addict. But what if this doesn’t work and it just further isolates the individual to the point where they fall deeper into their addiction.

Gelatin in space!  Looks a bit like a tadpole when it is floating around, but I promise it was a tasty treat for us on the Space Station.  The food lab prepared drink bags with gelatin mix inside, and I made gelatin for the crew. It is very tempting to play with your food when it floats.