NOT TODAY 😩

(minerva and sirius, not ship, (slight wolfstar), just had a test and i got a b on it so it’s ok, attempt at anGST)

no, but just imagine.

it was second or third of november, an ugly, cloudy day and minerva mcgonagall lost her boys. she lost james and lily, great people, with all of their life ahead of them, with a son. it was depressing really, such young people

she received a letter in which is wrote that sirius was taken away to azkaban. she knows he’s innocent, there is no other way!

and she screamed.

she screamed for the little boy, first year, who formed an unlike bond with a crazy-haired boy called james potter, with a tall, scrawny, scarred child called remus lupin and with a chubby boy called peter.

she screamed for the second year sirius who came in her who came in her office at the end of the last term and, on a firm voice, he said “i want to take all optional courses”. for a boy that was always in the library that researched animagi “without a reason, i’m just curious.”

she screamed for a third year raven-haired boy who discreetly stared at his honey-colored hair friend and, despite it not being obvious, minerva knew. he fell for remus lupin. and he came out to her. firstly.

she screamed for a fourth year sirius black who excelled all of his classes, who looked in a special way at remus but then shook his head and laughed at one of james’ jokes and pat peter’s back and helped students when they needed it. she screamed for a boy that confessed his feeling to his best friend and, as they walked hand in hand in the great hall, she noticed that was the happiest he’s ever been.

she sobbed for a fifth year sirius who fucked up. badly. she remembers him coming in her office and crying, saying he didn’t think it’d get this far, and she believed him. because that was the truth. she knew he tried stuff he shouldn’t, she knew he cried himself to sleep. and she hugged him. later in life she found out that was the first, loving hug he ever got. and sirius fixed everything. they were the marauders again. and god was she proud when she found out all of his OWLs were all Outstandings and Exceed Expectations.

she cried for a sixth year sirius, now a runaway from home and she had to check up on him because he is her son. and he told her. everything. for a sirius black, all tattoos, piercings, long hair and even longer limbs with a laugh like a bark, who helped first years with directions and with studying. did peter’s charms essays when he couldn’t. he was turning into a man.

she cried for the seventh year sirius, happy and whole. she knew he had nights he didn’t sleep or nights he spent on the astronomy tower but she knew he was happy. he told her. she saw it. of course, he could be lying. but it was true, and they knew it.

she screamed for sirius black. a lover, a son, a friend, a student, a brother, a friend, a warrior with a shattered childhood.

she screamed. for her son.

my year in fic 2022

marauders edition

i started reading marauders fanfiction in July, and these are all the fics i have completed since, in order of when i read them (roughly)

just lovers (like we were supposed to be) & intermission by zeppazariel

Best Friend's Brother by zeppazariel (i will admit, i'm saving the last chapter of this one, so i'm not technically done)

Crimson Rivers by zeppazariel

All the Young Dudes by MsKingBean89

All the Young Dudes - Sirius's Perspective by Rollercoasterwords

The Hand That Feeds (series) by Rollercoasterwords

Kill Your Darlings by MesserMoon

The Cadence of Part-time Poets & Cadence: The B-Sides by motswolo

Hey Dorcas by moonymoment

The Chimaera & The Wolf (series) by Keysie

Here's Looking at You Kid by MesserMoon

Sweater Weather, Coast to Coast, & Vaincre by lumosinlove

wading in waist-high water by colgatebluemintygel

that's the art of getting by by sarewolf

Of Memories and Milk Thievery by moonymoment

Stereotypical by introvertedhufflepuff

Sober Thoughts by moonymoment & zeppazariel

This Rotten Work by Rollercoasterwords

Staying Strangers by 3amAndCounting

millions of words later...

i don't read books anymore, just them <3

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hollierc

2 years ago

yes he’s a miserable gay werewolf wizard with scars all over his face but have you ever considered that he’s also my babygirl

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hollierc

1 year ago

All The Young Dudes

“I’ve loved keeping your secret, Remus wanted to say, I’d keep a thousand more, for you.”

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hollierc

2 years ago

My policeman was so important to him

— Harry on My Policeman

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hollierc

1 year ago

"you're pretty," sirius says lazily, his fingers tangled in remus' curls; he doesn't know how to respond to that.

he doesn't think he's pretty. his nose is too big and crooked, his eyebrows are too thick, his face is uneven; his mouth and eyes are too big for his face, he has acne scars and of course, the ones he hates. he never was pretty, not even as a child, and he never wished to be. he considered beauty subjective, but it was a truth that he wasn't beautiful.

however, when he's with sirius, he can't help but feel so. he's with sirius, who makes everything seem so beautiful; sirius, who's as imperfect as he is. neither of them is perfect; and maybe that was important, maybe that was what made them who they were, that they saw the beauty in what they considered ugly, that they loved the "unlovable".

they're sitting on the floor of the ruins of the castle in remus' hometown, sirius' back pressed against the wall, remus' head in his lap. he looks up and he meets grey eyes and a straight nose, and he smiles. he sits up; they're at approximately the same level now, and amber blends into silver, and that, that, the place where remus ends and sirius begins and the place where neither knows who exactly is who, that is beautiful.

"you're pretty, too, sirius." he needn't have said that; it was one of those all-known truths, the ones written in books, the one that stars know, too.

sirius hums, and kisses him. he's beautiful; they both are.

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hollierc

2 years ago

Remus (angrily): Sirius, why do you always have to act like a fucking child?

Sirius: Because I had to grow up fast and didn’t get to enjoy my childhood. I spent my entire childhood taking care of my younger brother so he wouldn’t have to suffer as much as I did

Remus:

Sirius (spraying silly string into Remus’ face and riding away on a tricycle): So fuck you!

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hollierc

1 year ago

A mish mash of cozy boys.

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hollierc

4 years ago

this? pain? 𝘆𝗲𝘀

They Watched These Children, Laughing And Running Through Hogwarts, Grow Up. They Watched Students They

They watched these children, laughing and running through Hogwarts, grow up. They watched students they loved and nurtured and taught grow up to either be monster’s or die fighting the monsters. Generations of students lay before them, either death eaters or fighting against them. They watched little Tom Riddle, who they taught and love, turn into a horrible person. They watched little Harry Potter, always up to something, die in front of them. They watched little Remus Lupin, laughing and running around with his Marauders, die in front of them. They watched their little wizards and witches become bodies and casualties in a war that wasn’t theirs.

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hollierc

4 years ago

with the sharpest jawline out there - doodling Remus' and his name on the back of his transfiguration papers.

Sirius: I can't talk right now I'm doing hoy girl shit

Sirius: *keeps doodling hearts around "Sirius and Remus Lupin" on his notebook*

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