How Can Somebody Love The Disgusting Thing I Have Become?

I die trying to be special for someone

my range of emotions go from “it’s scary how much i feel” to “it’s scary how much i don’t feel”

I want to sleep at night for 12 hours and wake up and it still be night

How can i feel so numb but fucking feel everything all at once. I dont understand and i never will. I actually just do not want to fucking exist anymore dude.

always left behind, how am i supposed to keep going?

All I ever wanted was to experience what its like to feel safe with someone.

Omg it dose

I want to memorize your likes, your dislikes, your schedule, your everything. I’ll take notes, write everything down on paper. I need to know everything about you.

i feel simultaneously not mentally ill enough and too mentally ill for shblr