Reverse Gatekeeping. I Am On My Knees Begging People To Engage With The Source Material

Beach Vibes Still Life

Oil pastel, my own still life construction (using my art teacher’s stuff - she’s got the best collection of still life objects)

My friend if they were in The Magnus Archives (except it’s the Usher Foundation cuz we’re American)

Currently listening to Wolf359 so I drew two (secretly 3) of my favorite podcast guys atm

Welcome to Sweet♥︎Heart Archives, a visual novel/dating sim developed for the web where you, a new arrival to the Magnus Institute’s archival division, get to go on an office rom-com romp with your favourite employees as you learn the ropes, make connections with four members full of lo-fi charm, sort files, serve tea, and above all, smile! Make the most of your eight weeks in the Sweet♥︎Heart Archives to not only earn a permanent position, but attract the assistant or archivist of your dreams!

Have some (belated) TMA fake visual novel screenshots for Valentine’s Day! It’s a game where not everything is as it seems, and not everyone is enjoying their assigned office romantic comedy… but does that matter, so long as you’re having fun? ::::)c

big thanks to @gayformlessblob and @lucianinsanity for brainstorming with me and hyping me up as I worked on this! It couldn’t have happened without them :)

The Window of Padme Amidala.

Tissue paper and cardboard, based on her stained glass window from Battlefront II.

(A compilation of me making this: https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRsSCnYu/)

Just boys, boys vs the world. Playing with colors for my little silly designs.

I love donating to the Hermitcraft charity event under my irl name knowing that nobody I know will see it only to pretty much immediately get a text from my friend saying “[name] did you just donate $100 to Gamers Outreach” 💀 I forgot about someone

no i don't want to use your ai assistant. no i don't want your ai search results. no i don't want your ai summary of reviews. no i don't want your ai feature in my social media search bar (???). no i don't want ai to do my work for me in adobe. no i don't want ai to write my paper. no i don't want ai to make my art. no i don't want ai to edit my pictures. no i don't want ai to learn my shopping habits. no i don't want ai to analyze my data. i don't want it i don't want it i don't want it i don't fucking want it i am going to go feral and eat my own teeth stop itttt

Robespierre my love get behind me 🤺

So, I feel like I’m losing my mind. I keep seeing metas about how Aziraphale wants Crowley to return to Heaven and be an angel again because he wants them to be on the same side/be good/change/etc., etc., etc. but I don’t see that at all. I actually see it as the very opposite.

Aziraphale loves Crowley just as he is. But there’s something more. Something huge.

Aziraphale loves Crowley and because he is an angel who is stuck in seeing things as black and white, he constantly praises Crowley for being nice. For being good. For being kind.

Aziraphale has watched Crowley on and off for 6,000 years. He watched him thwart the plans of Heaven and Hell because it was unjust. He spared the lives of innocents. He did small things that made Aziraphale happy just because (like making Hamlet successful and saving valuable books). And because Aziraphale sees things in black and white, he sees all the things Crowley has done as nice, as good, as kind.

Crowley vehemently attests he’s not nice or good or kind.

He’s not exactly wrong nor is he lying when he says this. When Crowley spares goats during a cruel bet over a righteous man and swallowing laudanum to prevent a suicide, when he prevents Armageddon by working with Aziraphale and stopping the Anti-Christ from being the Anti-Christ, he’s not doing the nice/good/kind thing.

He’s doing the right thing.

Crowley chooses to do the right thing without hesitation. He is better than all of Heaven and Hell who have callous and dispassionate view of all existence because he questions, because he makes choices. Crowley sees the world for all its messiness and he sees himself. He sees a place where he fits in. He sees the blurred edges.

And Aziraphale sees that, even if seeing the blurred edges is hard for him.

But here’s the thing that Aziraphale can’t voice.

It’s the reason why he told Crowley about being allowed to return to Heaven and become an angel again. He doesn’t want Crowley to change. He doesn’t think Crowley is flawed. Or not enough.

It’s something that is so monumental that it cannot be put into words. Because to put it into words would be more than blasphemy. It’s down right unthinkable for anyone in Heaven, Hell, or Earth to say what Aziraphale knows deep in his soul.

God was wrong to cast out Crowley.

Aziraphale believes Crowley can/should return to Heaven because he knows that Crowley should never have fallen in the first place. He wants him to be forgiven because when Crowley fell it was unjust. Aziraphale is trying to correct a mistake. He’s trying to do the right thing.

Yes, Crowley would never accept returning to Heaven. And Aziraphale was wrong to even suggest it (although that conversation is another can of worms to unpack).

Aziraphale loves Crowley. He loves him exactly as he is. He doesn’t want him to change. Aziraphale knows that Crowley the best of all of them. He wants to change Heaven because of it. Because God was wrong and Aziraphale knows it.

Aziraphale may have difficulty seeing beyond black and white, but when it comes to Crowley he sees everything crystal clear and in vivid color.