“transandrophobia Isn’t Real” Literally Just This Morning I Walked Downstairs To Find On The Tv

Dear diary...

All of this feels so pointless...

I feel like I'm wasting my time here.

There's no point in me being here if all I ever do is suffer...

If only it worked like that :')

sigh.

Signed! Wasn't even aware this was a thing O.o I really hope it goes somewhere!

The local queer centrum asked us all to support the ban on conversion therapy in the EU initiative, so now it's My Job to do it seriously.

We still need so many signatures. Damn. So. Many. Signatures.

Come on people, we can do this!!

People forget real quickly that barely 10 years ago young girls would be put on blast for wanting to cut their hair short, let alone actually go through with it

"No one cares if women / transmascs / afab people wear pants and boy clothes!!!"

On my knees begging you to talk to people who grew up in religious fundamentalist communities and high control groups / cults

excuse me, but REAL MEN only chop and saw their own wood

Get yourself some IKEA furniture and assemble it!

The idea of "socialization" as a trans person is so interesting, because a lot of trans women talk about how they generally don't experience male socialization (I say generally because all trans experiences are different, but the general idea of true). They experience closeted trans women socialization, which I can't even begin to speak on what entails.

So in contrast, you would expect something similar to be true for trans men, and in a way, yes and no. There is some truth to seeing how men are expected to act (stoic, unemotional, etc) and internalizing that. But there is also the experience of growing up as a little girl where so much focus is put on the idea that you should grow up in service of others. That is internalized so readily in just watching your mother and sisters cooking and cleaning up thanksgiving dinner while your dad and brother sit in the family room watching football. Its in how your body is told to be covered until it can benefit the men around you (i.e. school dress codes). Its in how you, as the smart girl in class, need to pick up the slack in group projects with class clown boys, but you are still less intelligent and deserve to be talked down to. Its in how you are told to be quiet and diminish yourself and act for others and never yourself. And because you are expected to grow up as a girl, this is how you are expected to act.

But then you aren't a girl, you are now a man that lives in service to others, has internalized this idea of diminishing himself, is stoic about his emotions, and lives in a world where the crimes of cis male patriarchy are thrust on his shoulders as his responsibility. Any of his anger is seen as either violently male, or hysterically female, and so you get none of the support you need and are only ever really critiqued.

Idk, just thinking about trans men again.

I agree it went a little too far but just for once I'd like to voice my opinion on the bad state of European trans healthcare or any other of my issues, without being met with bullying to getting told about how American(and specifically always north American) trans people have it so much worse. Then when I point out that that's not always the case, I just get told to not play oppression olympics, even though that's literally what they did with my original comments. And how can I expect to "bridge the gap" when anything gets met with "ackshually"

So yeah I just kinda fucking had it at that moment. Still kinda do but slightly more reasonable now. Should indeed not have said it, but also please stop being so dismissive of trans/lgbt people from other parts of the world.

I've concluded nobody gives a shit about trans rights. Not even other trans people. And especially American trans people. Atp I hope the election takes away your hrt, shouldn't have been a selfish and inconsiderate prick to trans people outside of the US. Maybe this is karma. Good luck out there, but I won't care if you loose access to your tiddy skittles.

I hate such a love-hate relationship with public transit