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@ all my mutuals

sir that is my emotional support male celebrity that i direct all of my male attraction towards bc he is a highly idealized man that is safe to lust after because he cannot hurt me!!!!!!!

The perfect thing is, the habanero really set you up. [★] for @touchinganelectricdove.

This blog loves April Kepner

Hanging out with Kiki at VidCon: rhettmc IG Story - 13 July 2019

I haven’t watched Grey’s for a few years now and I honestly don’t know why it’s still on air. Shonda and Co. have repeatedly ruined our favourite characters and relationships. There have been repeated tropes and storylines, relationships we don’t want, and useless characters.

Grey’s should’ve ended long ago. That way we would’ve have to suffer these fucking stupid ass decisions and firings.

If there’s anything to take away from the recent news of Sarah and Jessica’s firings is that y’all shouldn’t watch anymore. ABC and Shondaland are no longer respecting their audience so y’all shouldn’t respect them either.

i wish i could put things more eloquently but right now i’m too sad and i just need to air my thoughts out. 

april kepner embodies a messy, often antagonistic without wanting to be, funny and lovable character. she isn’t effortlessly sarcastic like cristina yang, or simply cool like meredith grey, no, she’s a mix of characteristics that makes her feel real, like a friend - almost, like someone i’ve watched grow on screen and feel deeply connected to. in april, i found myself, i recognized myself.

april once said she “sees eight sides of everything”, and that’s how i’ve always felt, in an underlying plateau between knowing who you are, who you want to be and the endless possibilities that could sway you both ways. 

i find comfort in knowing that whatever direction they decide to sway april’s end of arc in, she lived her life, she had the child she always wanted, she laughed and cried and made friends and had her big, epic love. her once in a lifetime soulmate.

i thank you, sarah drew, for the beautiful job you did at creating my most beloved character. your performances were ethereal, raw, and often left me in tears. 

i laughed with april, i cried with her, i fell in love with her love story, and i will continue to love and cherish her well beyond the show that treated both actress and character wrongly.

thank you, sarah. thank you, april.

But when you close your eyes, may you remember