As A Child I Used To Pray That I Would Get Cancer

As a child I used to pray that I would get cancer

What my young eyes saw as an illness of honor

An illness that people rally behind

I wanted to have people who were proud of me for putting up a good fight

I wanted my suffering to be visible, less shameful

I yearned for someone to see me and know that I was hurting

I wanted doctors, church goers, my family, anyone at all to try to save me

So I prayed

And prayed

And prayed

I never got cancer

And I spent years saving myself

Now I’m an adult with a graduate degree and a mission

I will be the person who sees the child who is silently begging for help

I will be the one who tries their hardest to offer treatment

Because no child should suffer in silence

Praying for a death sentence so they can be seen

More Posts from J-i-poetry and Others

3 months ago

I write poetry on the bus because it's my only free time

Sleeping in and breakfast

Shower and coffee

Not necessarily in that order

Walking to the bus

Walking from the bus

Working

Working

Working

Sometimes sitting down,

Sometimes working

Walking to the bus

Walking from the bus

*

Cooking

Gazing into the abyss

Screaming into the void

YouTube

Sleeping

*Optional (but not so):

Migraine, Joint pain, Irritability, Talking


Tags
4 months ago

What are the laws of nature? Can you tell me? I can only think of one That energy cannot be created Or destroyed That it can only reconstruct One form into another

So what makes a flower bloom? Did I give the blossom My energy? I assume it comes from somewhere Within the soil, the stem But let me believe I can transform Into a beautiful thing too

2 months ago

A List of "Beautiful" Words: Variegation

Variegation—diversity of colors

Bar code - variously patterned bars and spaces

Barber pole - diagonal stripes of red and white or of red, white, and blue

Butterfly - brightly colored

Calico - blotched or spotted, predominantly white with red and black patches

Candy cane - red and white

Chameleon - changing colors

Checkerboard - having two alternating colors

Cheetah - yellowish to tan coat covered with numerous round to oval black spots

Confetti - brightly colored

Crazy quilt - patchwork without a design; colorful, jumbled

Dalmatian - white with many black or brown spots

Harlequin - a variegated pattern; a combination of patches on a solid ground of contrasting color (as in the coats of some dogs)

Iris - rainbow colored

Jaguar - brownish yellow or buff with black spots

Joseph's coat - having many colors; with variegated foliage

Kaleidoscope - variegated changing colors or patterns

Leopard - tawny or buff with black spots arranged in rosettes

Mackerel sky - a sky covered with rows of altocumulus or cirrocumulus clouds resembling the patterns on a mackerel's back

Marble - veined or mottled appearance

Moire - wavy watered appearance

Mother-of-pearl - iridescent

Nacre - mother-of-pearl; iridescent

Ocelot - tawny-yellow or grayish coat dotted and striped with black

Opal - iridescent play of colors

Patchwork quilt - various colors and shapes

Peacock - tipped with iridescent spots

Rainbow - a multicolored array

Serpentine - usually dull green and often mottled

Shot silk - two or more colours producing an iridescent appearance

Spectrum - a continuum of color

Stained glass - colored glass

Tapestry - characterized by complicated pictorial designs

Tortoise shell - mottled brown and yellow coloring

Watered-silk - pattern like that of silk subjected to watering

Zebra - patterned in stripes of black or dark brown and white or buff

More: Lists of Beautiful Words ⚜ Word Lists ⚜ Writing Resources PDFs

4 months ago
From My Latest Poetry Collection, Leaf Litter.
From My Latest Poetry Collection, Leaf Litter.
From My Latest Poetry Collection, Leaf Litter.
From My Latest Poetry Collection, Leaf Litter.
From My Latest Poetry Collection, Leaf Litter.
From My Latest Poetry Collection, Leaf Litter.

From my latest poetry collection, Leaf Litter.

CryptoNaturalist.com/books


Tags
  • bughazedoodlez
    bughazedoodlez liked this · 2 months ago
  • j-i-poetry
    j-i-poetry reblogged this · 2 months ago
  • j-i-poetry
    j-i-poetry liked this · 2 months ago
  • aubriestar
    aubriestar liked this · 2 months ago
  • traveledlight
    traveledlight liked this · 2 months ago
  • empathhealingmybrokenheart
    empathhealingmybrokenheart liked this · 2 months ago
  • fishy-fish-fishing
    fishy-fish-fishing liked this · 2 months ago
  • lifeseenbyme
    lifeseenbyme reblogged this · 2 months ago
j-i-poetry - Simple Poetry Blog
Simple Poetry Blog

Aspiring poet and cat parent.

110 posts

Explore Tumblr Blog
Search Through Tumblr Tags