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Ddlc Monika ramble bc my hyperfixation is coming back and somehow settling alongside my Omori one

Alright so like. I hate how many people treat Monika like she’s pure jealousy and obsession :/ especially given everything she’s gone through. I’d like to make a couple of points here, and analyze some of the lines from her poems (not all) to give more insight into what was going on in her mind. All the poem screenshotted are from FandomWiki, I believe.

The first part of this poem is a direct reference to when Monika gains ‘kernal access’ to her game- or more simply, self awareness. The hole appears a metaphor for a screen- She wasn’t looking into the screen, she was looking out. And the player is looking in. The second part realizing that her friends aren’t even real. She’s starting to see herself as something else than the others. And I don’t think it’s in a narcissistic way- In this case, she IS different now, because she doesn’t have a script that all her actions follow, unlike her friends. The people she cares deeply about aren’t even people; just lines in a script. The part at the end, about her brandishing her pen, is when she starts to edit the script, desperate for a way out.

I’d like to point out first that red, green, and blue are the primary colors when it comes to light- AND the colors of pixels on a screen. I can’t tell what the ‘noise’ she’s referring to exactly is; possibly a reference to anxiety, or existentialism? Most likely, in my opinion, is that it’s the game’s music. See how she compares the noise to a turntable, and a vinyl? That’s a direct connection to the music. And considering that the game’s music plays on loop… That wouldn’t exactly be fun to hear on loop for god knows how long 😬

The version of this poem from Act 2, I can’t see any meaning to the vowels missing, though perhaps someone else has. Generally, this poem just shows Monika’s mental health deteriorating further. Combined with the fully capitalized words, along with “Like playing a vinyl on a pizza crust” suddenly turning into “Like playing a KNIFE on a BREATHING RIBCAGE”- It really does mostly seem like we’re watching Monika go a bit insane. The words “KNIFE” and “BREATHING RIBCAGE” really exaggerate how much the noise really hurts her. (Also, personal comment is that this sounds a lot like overstimulation TvT)

This poem seems to be more metaphorical than the other two. ‘The Lady’ seems to refer to the game’s script- she’s a being who knows everything, knows Monika’s own thoughts and feelings, and she knows everything that can and will happen. Just like the game’s script. The imagery of Monika being a feather on the wind very much gives off the feeling of being helpless, unable to fight against the game’s script. The Lady tells her that there is no meaning, and no purpose- Likely how Monika really does feel. Nothing she does has any impact in the real world. The Lady telling Monika that “We seek only the impossible”- It’s directly telling us what it felt like when Monika learned she was the only character without a route for the player to take. There is no scripted world where Monika finds a happy ending with the player, the person she loves, the only thing she knows is real.

This last poem shows that she really doesn’t mean to hurt anyone. She doesn’t have any real malicious intent towards the other characters. She just wants to be happy.

Those are some thoughts I have on her poems. Something else I’d like to be considered is the fact that Monika knew everything her friends were going to say- including some of the harsher words her friends have used, or even thought about her. Along with the fact that her own friends were seemingly the only thing standing in the way of the player, and she’d just learned her friends weren’t even real.

Generally, I feel like people don’t empathize enough with Monika T^T this was a really long rant and idk what it accomplished but yeah-

Why did you leave me?

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Basil from my fanfic AU; this is the inktober for October 10th. Apparently, my WiFi time limits are sticking, so chances are that most of my posts are gonna be the morning after the day that they were made TvT

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Be not afraid.

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Sunflowers- They always face towards the sun. That’s how I want to be like.

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Sorry this is so late; this is the inktober for yesterday TvT also so sorry if it’s hard to see! 😭

AHHH THIS IS SO GOOD HOLY CRUD- I LOVE THE WAYS YOU SHOWED ALL THE CONTRAST WITH EACH CHARACTERS EYES AND STUFF BEING FROM THEIR SIBLINGS AJFJVJSJFHVHCHDU IM LITERALLY FANGIRLING (fanenbying?) OVER THIS!!! :DDD

OH MY GOD FINALLY SOMEONE ELSE WHO NOTICED THAT!!!! Aughh I'm so abnormal about it you don't understand... They're complimentary THEY'RE COMPLIMENTARY!!!! AND THEY MAKE A RAINBOW!!!!!!

I actually drew a little thing yesterday based around the colors :3 (But Tumblr won't let me send it</3)

AHHH THAT’S SO COOL!!! AOAHFHVJDJFHVHF-

I FREAKING LOVE HOW THEY ALL ARE COMPLIMENTARY WITH EACH OTHER AND RAINBOW COLORS AND JUST AIFHGJDJFJVJFJFAHHHHHH- IT MAKES MY HEART HAPPY 😭🫶

also you should post the drawing, if you wanna!!! I’d love to see it! :D 🫂

i love your art its so fire <3

AH TYSM- YOU’RE SO SWEET 😭🫶🫶🫶

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🫵 🩷 ☀️🌷? 🤨🏳️‍🌈

Are you asking if i like Sunny...? I mean......he is pretty.....and he's really nice...and sweet...and his voice is so soft.....his smile is so bright and- oh...am I rambling?

Inktober for yesterday; I am running out of motivation AND ideas, yayyy 💀

My theater teacher is the fvcking best; we’re doing nothing but watching SpongeBob the musical in class

(my dad, telling me I need to get my math grade up bc it’s actual sh!t rn) “I need you to rise to the challenge.”

how the fvck am I supposed to rise to the challenge when I can barely rise out of bed in the morning???