This Art Is INCREDIBLE They’re So Cute 😭

I have no idea wtf compelled me to make this but here ya go

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Bear with me, it’s essay time because crying about beefleaf while rereading some parts of book 4 gave me a LOT of thoughts and emotions.

The more I think about it, the more I’m convinced that beefleaf were never going to get a happy ending, not because mxtx didn’t want to give them one, but because their dynamic literally makes it an impossibility. I don’t think it matters that He Xuan genuinely cared for SQX as Ming Yi because he is never going to be able to look at them without recalling what they took from him. Sure, he might not hate SQX, and he might actually wish them a happy life, but that life cannot be with him.

And this is taking into account a scenario in which He Xuan didn’t kill Shi Wudu, because even if he didn’t, I don’t think he himself could ever be truly happy with SQX. There is too much pain associated with them, and even though they were not the direct cause of that pain, I think it’s still fair for He Xuan not to want to be around that reminder. Is that fair to Qingxuan? Not necessarily, but neither was any of this fair to He Xuan.

I don’t think they could ever have a healthy relationship built upon a foundation filled with so much hurt, because they would only end up hurting each other more, whether intentionally or not. I think they both know this, and it’s why I personally believe that the ending mxtx gave them is the best we could have hoped for. In the end, I believe it’s clear that neither of them hates the other, but they do harbor a lot of complicated feelings on the matter that cannot be resolved with apology and forgiveness.

For Qingxuan’s part, I don’t think they blame He Xuan for their present situation. In fact, they are adamant in relaying to Xie Lian that He Xuan didn’t do anything to them after the events of the Black Water Arc. However, they also seem intent on moving forward with their mortal life. As for He Xuan, his dropping SQX off at the royal capital, as well as his willingness to give SQX his spiritual power and the fan (regardless of the dire circumstances) shows that there’s a part of him that still cares about them. He has no desire to interfere with Qingxuan’s chances at happiness in their new life, precisely because of that affection, but he also doesn’t want to be around to grieve over what could have been. Because every time He Xuan sees SQX, there will only be regret, both for his inability to see SQX without the attached pain and for the friend (or even lover) he could have had had their fates not been so maliciously intertwined.

Yes, I love beefleaf, but what I love more than the ship are the incredibly written individuals themselves. And I do firmly believe that, in canon at least, they would both be more at peace by letting go and moving on. Not necessarily happy, but at peace.

Now, in another universe, where these two met outside of these circumstances? Beefleaf most certainly sails.

Side note: In a weird way, writing this was actually kinda cathartic because it gave me peace with and acceptance of beefleaf’s canon ending, while still acknowledging that these two definitely had the potential to be lovers. That potential can be (and already has been) explored through everyone’s lovely fan creations.

Bam took that advice and shinsu black hole-sphered it out of existence

I don’t normally do essays but on a serious note that scene in s3 made me tear up. In the grand scheme of things we don’t get a lot of scenes with Bam and Khun together, so Khun being there to comfort him as he’s struggling to deal with the fact that he had to burn the souls is such a sweet moment. Their relationship has evolved so much over the years, and despite there having been so many times when they’ve been apart, they always come back to one another and still find that they are never more honest and relaxed than when they’re around each other.

It shows how much Bam trusts Khun now, that he goes to him for comfort when he needs it most, because Khun gives him a safe space to just cry and come to terms with the worst of what he’s been through. And this is even after he confirms it was Khun who helped White get his power back. Bam fully trusts in Khun’s judgement and plans, and doesn’t even express doubt about what he did, only that he would’ve liked a heads up.

It shows how much Khun cares about Bam. He understood that burning the souls would be tough for him to come to terms with, and so was immediately there for him when he realized what Bam did. And despite Bam saying he was fine, Khun knew better. He knew it was tearing him up inside, and so gave him the words of support and reassurance that he needed. You can also see how much Khun admires Bam in this moment, because he mentions how he didn’t feel any guilt for using the souls to save his friends, unlike Bam. Bam is such a genuine and empathetic person, and he truly hurts every time someone gets hurt or dies. That is why Khun followed Bam, and why he is still following Bam. And just like Bam showed his trust in Khun, Khun shows his mutual trust in Bam by telling him never to doubt his feelings, because they are what allow him to be such a kindhearted person, and what Khun loves about him the most.

And while by season 3 Bam has become much more composed and less naive in that he is aware he cannot save everyone, this scene showed that inside he’s still the same Bam as ever, with a heart that bleeds for others and that wants to save as many people as possible. He has grown a lot, but he is still driven by love. His need to protect the friendships he has made and the people he loves is what drives him. But it is not easy, and especially by season 3 he knows he will have to make a lot of difficult choices. Yet he also knows that the people he is fighting for will always be there for him. And it is so much more poignant when that person is Khun Aguero Agnes, who was his first ever friend in the tower and who still supports and believes in him after all this time.

MY BROTHER IN CHRIST

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Hua Cheng didn’t wait 800 years for Xie Lian’s love—he waited 800 years for Xie Lian

…and that’s a difference some of y’all need to understand

These are adorable, but not the tragic beefleaf 😭

Tgcf chibis :)

I mainly post Yuri on Ice stuff BUT I made this piece and wanted to post it cause I love Nennen and Wangwang so much and they don’t get enough attention, their story made me cry it was so sad and bittersweet, and DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON YASRATCHA, especially with the most recent episodes 😭

The red thread heart 🥹 and my god the way they’re looking at each other

Let's go home, Your Highness. @oryunart

My beloved anemo archon relaxing in the sun 🩵

Realized I hadn’t actually drawn Venti yet, and I needed to remedy that cause he’s my favorite alcoholic bean and I love him and no I don’t have a problem 🍃🍺🪽🌌

A little peeking for Victor's birthday project

Not this scene 😭 The perspective is breathtaking and the framing is everything, it’s a beautiful work of art that perfectly encapsulates this moment and I might just have to go cry for a bit

My final for art class allowed to us to make literally anything so I made banana fish fanart 🤞