Do You Understand My Chart?

for free ninety nine u could be ur fav ill-adjusted yaoi today

the trick is self-inserting

onto the one that hates

vulnerability the most

…yeah i have a queer relationship with gender, why?

light yagami vs drive B

giving Jack an extremely sad home life isn’t the worst thing in the world, and it has a level of interest and emotion I fw, I’m just a little bored with the whole:

Guy That Fucks Everything Is Ac Hurting Inside trope

I think it’s even more interesting to give him a moderately empty childhood, or even a mildly good one- I feel the the island is a part of self-expression and something missing in Jack personally, rather than a reprieve for trauma yk

Not shaming shitty father headcanons tho, I still eat em up lmfao, just throwing this into the sphere

why . why the fuck is he arching. i hate him

inspo from @/saigonpafu on twt!!

oh shikanaru u

u meekish schoolyard fascination quickly catapulted into extreme codependency u

ur so observation in humanity, case study of the idiot with the sincerest smile you’ve ever seen, theory board specimen turned fiery, irrevocably hopeless timeless love

so pure spirited and full blooded is that heart skipping eyes freezing lungs failing giddy floating face flushing u r

so frozen solid and panicked as shikamaru breathes in the absolute zeal and open chested heart ache and full body mind and soulful hope leading Naruto headfirst into the rest of his life in a series of increasingly incredible and intense events that always seem to stack up into something beautiful instead of falling through the faults of the trusty human limit and nihilistic doubt

every step is on the unstable air of an oceans edge, yet Naruto makes a messiah of himself in the way he runs insultingly easy on that endless sea’s surface and Shikamaru knows objectively how and why and what Naruto is doing but he just can’t believe his eyes

his inexperienced heart pounds a hole through his chest and pulls him so thoughtlessly onto the water until he’s sweating and panting and running after Naruto with that infectious passion for life and human connection and peace- like that’s ever been more than a carrot on the end of a long, lying stick

he’s sweating a layer of his skin off and he hates the heavy exhaustion weighing down a crack through his internal promise to stay the fuck outve this- outve the adrenaline and line of fire and risk- but he forsakes his clan and his brain and the reality of the world and what being a shinobi even means because goddamn he’s hungry

he’s hungry in a way he doesn’t think contentment can soothe anymore

not even close

not when all he feels as he watches those clouds dance lazily across that bluest blue, is loss, because he knows a bluer blue and Naruto would never resign himself to sitting listless at the base of his favorite green hill because he’s off making greener pastures of shitty realities with thinly survived battles and thickly woven trust gained by the same stunned realization everyone has:

Naruto Cares

he cares so much his sleeve lead his feet because he’s long since given up hiding his heart behind his ribs like any self respecting person of moderate preservation

and shikamaru seethes as he understands so deeply he might as well be every new pair of eyes that trace the frame of Naruto’s smile with that glittering helplessness they never mean to revel

he tells himself obligations uproot his back from that perfect hill, that perfect view, those perfect clouds- duty probably, he is clan heir after all

but he knows the truth rests closer to the surface than he can manage to smother

He Knows He Can’t Help But Care Too

through, because, for, and ever after Naruto, because all of a sudden the grass itches where it once caressed and his heart creeps into that little dip between neck and shoulder

not yet on his sleeve, but it doesn’t have to be

because it’s enough

Naruto’s back faces him as he runs ever faster, over ever greater oceans, ever brighter suns that rise on that dangerous current-

And It’s enough

silent and subtle and studying- this view is now what returns that contentment he’s been basking in for so long

smiling all mock exasperation- yeah Shikamaru thinks-

This Is Enough

Stop making out

its so sad when u have a headache from looking at a screen and wearing headphones all day. bc its like ewwww i feel bad i wanna crawl into a bed and put on headphones and look at a screen. but actually what will cure you is going outside and staring at the mountains or something. terrible. awful

i really wanna smoke myself blind over this but i dont think L would appreciate that very much

look at this asshole i bet he thinks he’s just a mindless sliver in the magnetic whirlwind we call life

I bet he doesn’t even believe in human significance

I bet u he’s a pessimistic, listless, apathetic slug

Make Haste! and fetch me the salt to throw over my shoulder and onto this grease stain- he’s harshing the universal truth that love is bc love be