Sometimes I'm just so mad.
I'm just chilling, doing my thing and than my father just start an argument with me about something stupid and we always disagree and he starts to welling, but I can't well back because that's "disrespectful" and that just makes me so frustrated because I just can't think straight like this and than he would talk for minutes doing this big speech thing and I just know that if I talk back he will talk longer or start welling again so I don't. In the end I just crie. Sometimes it's a silent thing, like a response for the welling or the talks that just make me feel so wrong like I am some tipe of problem in my parents life's. Sometimes is loud. Normally it's like this when it gets to bad and I start screaming or when he hits me for something I say.
In the end he always talk with my mother in the other room, she is never in our arguments, and in the big speech hour she just listen like I do. I never understand the full thing, but I hear that it's about me. Maybe she gets a big speech too.
I don't know, but this makes me want to talk back more, to well and do the things I'm not suppose to do. Maybe that's why I started to be so "rude" to people (I think I am being just true to myself telling them what I think, but mom says that I'm rude and explosive, the second part it's kinda true.)
Don't get the wrong idea, I love my parents, or at least I think so since I don't have to much to compare. It's just that I get so mad at myself for not being capable to deal with this after all this years. This is the only thing in this days that makes me crie and that's so frustrating!
Anyways I just wrote this because I wanted to get it out of my brain so I can do my fucking work and not have to say a word for the rest of the day.
Bye I guess.
Is it bad that one of my favorite pieces of art I ever did was not something super great and instead is a really simple portrait of Roman smiling with a flower crown that I use as a phone background?
I've wanted to change my background because using your own art as background is weird, but everytime I look at him I just makes me so happy (?)
Just look at him
It's not the best thing I ever did but it makes me so happy like wtf
I'm working on my game again so here is a quick concept for Serena's Tower. I wanted it to be all about vigilance with the eyes since Serena's character based pride and greed. Always perceiving everyone and everything. The tower is a pierced chalice creating streams of liquid. I wanted it to feel regal but still connected to nature on the Underground.
I might go back to flash this concept out later, I didn't work on the scenery a lot back then so I have to think about it.
Also: this morning I found about five pages of old harringrove drawings for an animation I forgot to finish...
Would anybody want that?
Another edit because I was bored and wanted to do something with some photos I never used.
Mushroom eye
Boat eye
20's slenderman eye
Looks like it's time for an encounter. Here's to another part, we're getting close to finishing this.
Note: Logan is recalling something Patton previously told him about Remus (sorry if that looks a bit confusing)
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4 years, my fellow weirdos
Serena
Serena is a character I created for my game that is loosely based on the concept of Pride and Greed. I'm gonna show some of my ideas for her and some concept art under the cut, as well as full renders.
Personality: Sererna is extremely dramatic and quick to anger. Her eye theme alludes to always being watching, judging, and wanting more. She lives high up in isolation with her treasures and her snakes, it is unknown how conscious they are or if they are purely an extension of Serena's own self-preservation. She is easily distracted by praise and loyal to those she thinks deserve it.
Gameplay: Serena flies faster and faster through space as the player takes his belongings. To delay it, you must hit its big eye, temporarily confusing it. Possible attacks: Long distance (from above) she hits you with feather projectiles as if they were lightning; Medium distance (sides) the snakes extend to bite you (making the player temporarily slower) and UNDECIDED Short distance 1. (circular) giving a low kick to the player 2. (from above) catching the player by the feet and throwing him away when it gets too close 3. (front) flapping its wings strongly in order to push the player back.
Full renders. I almost didn't do expression 5 since I was supposed to re-use poses for different expressions but I just had so much fun doing reference poses for wings I had too many photos lmao. I think it reflects well on the character to be light on her feet and always moving around
Here is her concept art and color test. I pretty much strainght away wanted her to have the colors of the greek eyes plus some bronze and gold to complement the pride and greed theme, so I just had to decide which colors go where. I did a poll on instagram todecide at the end. I designed her doing a lot of tiny drawings so it could be understood in a smaller form so I had a lot of alternatives when drawing her full size concept (which is the only time I actually looked at vulture wings, can you tell? lol)
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