Oh My God I Binged So Hard At That Sleepover I Feel Sickly Full, I’m Sure I’ve Gone Straight Back

Life has been so out of control lately and I’m barely losing so I’m just gonna focus on getting even more control over the one thing I can.

I’m gonna start OMAD’ing a monster and a slice of sourdough toast (roughly 370 all together if I’m calculating right) and burning at least 500 through steps/pilates.

I’ll also try water fast any day I have off work.

omfg I forgot to take my Fitbit off before going on tbe swings and now it thinks I’ve done 12,000 steps when in reality I’ve probably only done like 5k at most RAJHHHH

Oh fuck oh no oh no oh no purging isn’t working nothings coming up fuck fuck fuck

I feel so alone, I keep so much to myself and whatever I do try to express I can’t properly so no one can truly understand me. I’m going to die a stranger to my loved ones.

There is so much I want to eat but changing my OMAD routine feels so scary ☹️

OMFG I KNEW I FORGOT SOMETHING AT THE SHOPS I’ve ran out of laxatives ☹️☹️

Ive lost all my thoughts

hate my mental health class in school because it immediately turns into a who’s the sickest competition someone fucking end me

Rewarding myself with getting my nails done when I reach 48kg !! I want them done so bad I need to lose 5kg asap

Does anyone have any tips on what to do after a huge painful binge besides purging/taking laxatives and walking/exercising? I’m specifically looking for ways to debloat / minimise the discomfort and ways to feel better emotionally.

Also if anyone has any ideas on how to prevent future binges triggered by hanging out with friends, that would be greatly appreciated !!