Guys fhis is a new low, not only did I spend yesterday and today binging because I was with my friend but when I tried to purge it up just now I missed the toilet bowl and projectile vomited all over my bathroom (didn’t even get much up anyways so it was a waste of time).
I’m so done, I don’t even know what to do at this point I’m just so ashamed. I want this all to stop I want someone to help me but I can’t bring myself to ask for help because I’m too fat and not sick enough to warrant even needing any help. My only hope is death, but I don’t want to die fat, but I can’t keep living like this.
Just want to say thank you to everyone for your interactions they are dearly appreciated, and hello to all my new mutuals !! I love you all so much your all so kind 🫶🫶
Why does the scale say I’m losing weight when I still look like a whale????😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
Too depressed to get all my steps in today so I’m just gonna continue my fast, it’s not like I deserve to eat after binging so much over the weekend anyways
I’m taking a break from laxatives starting tonight and I’m so anxious because they’ve been my lifeline but I gotta do what I gotta do 😔
Fasted, got nearly 25k steps and completed a workout for the first time in a year and I feel fantastic.
May is going to be my month !! 🫶🫶
Sadly still painfully bloated y’all, my mums gonna get me some medication to try flush it out but if it doesn’t work I gotta go to the doctor #prayforme
Man I took 15+ laxatives last night and it has barely effected me, I fear I have developed a tolerance smh 😔
Just finished my 20k steps, did a 10 minute stretch and stayed under my 450 cal limit we are so back and I am so ready for bed.
Goodnight lovelies may tomorrow be as, if not more successful as today has been <3
Binging has set me back so much, I’m all the way back up to basically 54kg and my mindset and discipline has crumbled. If I hadn’t binged I would be underweight and would have gotten more than 20k steps by now but alas it’s 4:30pm and I just started walking, and my endurance and motivation has gone to shit so I’ll probably only get 10k steps at best.
I know sulking won’t get me anywhere, and I’m getting back on track but it’s just so hard to deal with.
⚢ / sixteen cw: 47.2.kggw1: 48kggw2: 45kgugw: 38kgblock don’t report !!
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