I’m Back In That Phase Of Autism, Where Everything But Maybe One Or Two Things Make Me Wanna Throw

There was spider

Just got some compression socks, hope they help with my circulation and bones haha :)))

Fuck, i wish I lived alone because then I could eat an entire packet of ham or frozen bananas without being judged.

So here’s the thing… 

Chuuya grew up on the streets, and he doesn’t remember anything from before he was maybe 8 yrs old. He doesn’t remember having parents and he didn’t go to school, so he probably doesn’t know what a lot of words mean. Words that could be ‘common’ knowledge because people usually have some sort of education. Honestly he probably doesn’t even know what the word ‘family’ means. 

Think about that, if Sheep told him he was a part of their family, he wouldn’t know what that means, and he probably wouldn’t know what the internet is either, so he wouldn’t be able to look it up like we would in this day and age. People would act like it’s common knowledge to know what these words meant, because it is, for everyone except for Chuuya. And he wouldn’t like that he doesn’t know what they meant, so he would hide that he doesn’t know what they mean. 

He could take things in so many different ways, maybe he thinks the word ‘family’ means a large group of people that don’t really know each other, that ‘love’ is just a word to express something that he doesn’t know the meaning of, that there are words that we all know because we were taught about it, but he wasn’t taught about it, he wasn’t taught what names were until someone asked what his was, that having a tattoo on your neck that stated your designated code isn’t normal, or that expressing emotions other than anger isn’t going to get him killed. 

Because he grew up on the streets, fighting to survive, fighting to have at least one more day alive, even if he doesn’t even know what alive means. 

lmao

This is a 2 am rant oml I’m so sorry you had to see me do this

Mmm crunchy ice cream

My eye wants to pop out haha :)

You ever get so itchy it seems like it’d actually feel nice to rip off your skin haha :3

I with I could tear my earlobe off right now just for some kind of relief

Is it funny that I’ve only ever drank monsters for the taste?

They don’t do anything other than taste good for me, I just had like 2/3rds of my mango loco and then passed out for like 4 hours

How do I tell my mother that I don’t like cutting chicken because it feels a bit too much like my own thigh when I’m in the shower and I’m afraid to so much as put the knife against it because I don’t want to relapse

Silly goofy head cannon