Sad, Sad Times

I'm pretty sure I was more open to other people having different opinions than me as a child than I am now.

I remember being all "people can vote what they want! Voting should be anonymous! People have different opinions!" Then I turned 18 and actually had to understand my country's politics. So now I'm over here like "if you vote for any of the right wing parties you are a selfish asshole and don't deserve to call yourself norwegian <3"

For some reason elderly people keep approaching me witch random questions, and I have no idea why. So here is a list with some of my encounters that I will be adding onto as more happen

(For reference I am very visibly a lesbian with short hair, I usually wear all black or at least dark clothes, I have snakebites and a septum and usually am wearing large noice cancelling headphones)

- An old lady in the middle of a mall, with a BUNCH of people around, came up to me, ehile I was walking kinda rushed with my headphones on to get to work on time, to ask me about where another store was (I have no sense of direction and am the absolute worst person to ask)

-I was eating lunch outside in town with a friend, when an elderly man came up to us and just really wanted to chat about Cissi Klein and WW2

-I was at the store picking up a sixpack of iced coffee when a slightly older woman asked me to give her an introduction to the different kinds of iced coffee, cause she had a grandchild that was coming to visit who she knew really liked iced coffee

-I was headed for the bus after school, and the road was icy, an an old woman asked me to help her cross the road (never been this scared in my life, cause I was absolutely not confident in my own body to not slip on the ice, and just imagined taking down this frail old lady, but thankfully it turned out okay)

-An old lady at the bus stop last summer who just really wanted a chat. Not about anything in particular, just the weather etc. She actually was really nice, so I took a later bus than planned to just talk to her a bit

Now, I don't mind these interactions, but often times they ask me about stuff I don't feel confident answering, ESPECIALLY when it comes to directions. And I dont usually present myself as a very approachable person, and due to my headphones I am kinda hard to make contact with. So I truly just dont understand what it is about me that is so violently friendly or approachable that is just surpasses all the things that should make the older generation NOT want to talk to me

break out the L-word, Cas

The queer youth today are being FED

I have a younger sister who recently came out as a lesbian (to nobody's surprise) and even though the world is still sorely lacking of lesbian content, queer content has gotten a massive boost these past 5 years.

When I was young and looking for queer rep I'd find it in the weirdest places. We obviously have fandoms, and fanfic and queerbaiting, but also the amount of movies I watched just for a single queer scene? I remember watching an adam sandler film about him having a billion kids solely because one of those kinds was matthew daddario playing a queer guy. Also watching teenwolf for the one very stereotypical gay side character. There were several others aswell, but I can't remember them at the moment

I remember the feeling of reading percy jackson and finding out Nico was gay, of reading the mortal instruments and finding out Alec was gay, I was so starved for any sort of representation that I held on to my small crumbs for dear life.

(Shoutout to the 100 for being one of very few, if any, tv shows with very natural queer rep and not a single hint of homophobia in show.)

My sister now has heartstopper, young royals, warrior nun, good omens, interview with the vampire (tho she's still a bit young for that one) and she has video game characters!!! She has ellie and dina, she has pretty much everyone in the life is strange games, and she even has aloy. I remember playing life is strange with my ex (the main game) and even though it has very queer undertones etc, it isn't very explicita, tbf it's a while since I played it so I might be wrong about that

My point is, we still have a very long way to go when it comes to queer rep in media, but goddamn it IS getting better.

We watched a sex ed show in the 7th grade. This show played during lunch. One of the episodes just flashed a bunch of different (REAL) adult penises in our faces.

The trauma of it turned me into a lesbian, I came out two years later.

Why are you lgbtq+? wrong answers only GO

Deciding not to go forward with any higher education after high school was honestly one of the best decisions of my life.

I've always done quite well in school when it comes to grades etc, but for the past 5 years of it I'd spent every day exhausted and depressed, and I can't honestly say I retained ANY of the information I learned the last 3 years.

Most of my friends are currently studying, and every time I see one of them work with school stuff I just feel so relieved that I'm never going to have to do any of that shit again.

The only reason this was a hard decision for me, is because my entire life it was so ingrained in me that further studies was just what you did (especially here in norway where education is free). In the 10th grade, we applied for schools in class. It wasn't an option to just not apply, even though school after the 10th grade is optional in Norway. And then towards the end of 13th grade we had classes focusing on seeing different universities and different courses we could take, which for people who, like myself, were properly struggeling to get through each day at that school, was very demotivating. Just the knowledge of never being done with classes, studying, and tests.

My parents had a very hard time accepting this choice, being completely convinced that I'd change my mind some day, but what they somehow don't realize is that my biggest dream is working in a book store. I don't want an office job where I sit in meetings or at a computer all day, and I have no interest in taking on any more responsibility than that. I enjoy helping costumers in the store, and for a lot of people, that is the job they have for their whole life, and that's totally fine!

I am very lucky to be living in norway, where the minimum wage is an actual liveable wage (at least if you don't have kids, which I have never wanted), so I understand not everyone, especially a lot of disabled people who can't work a "normal" work-week, are able to just opt out of higher education if they are given the opportunity, simply because they wouldn't be able to survive on the money they'd get from such a job.

But for people who live in countries where it is possible to live a good life without higher education, I truly feel like it should be more normalized to just work at a place for joy, and not just as a stepping stone to a "better" position with more responsibility and a higher salary.

(Not to mention the fact that there are way too many jobs now that you seriously don't need higher education to do, but that for some reason requires it anyway)

I think it's time for me to come clean

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When I was like 13 I wrote a wattpad fanfic. A fanfic I didnt think much off after it's completion. Over the years, this super cheezy mess of a fanfic has somehow gained nearly 90k reads (and almost 2k votes)

So here are some fun facts about that!

1. It was written in it's entirety in the wattpad website, which somehow did not have an english autocorrect, and I could not spell for shit (still can't, in any language) and is hence FILLED with spelling and grammar mistakes

2. I still get comments on it to this day bullying me for spelling bus with two "S"es

3. I have not read the thing in it's entirety since the day it was written, and I do not plan to

4. I think some 14yos got engaged or some shit, and I KNOW someone in a wheelchair stood up at one point because I forgot

Anyways, I'm never gonna share the name or what fandom it was for, as the fact that this fic still exists is a great shame of mine, but I somehow can't make myself unpublish it

destiel anyone?

Just started rereading a book I really liked some years ago, not even that long ago, it was defo not before covid so probs like 2020 ish, and I have been hit with the devestating realization that the mc, who I saw as a rather well established ADULT the first time I read the book, is now in fact;

YOUNGER THAN ME

(He is 20, Im almost 22, pretty sure I was like 18 the first time I read it)

Being an adult with adult money is so fuckkng hard.

Cause I do TECHNICALLY have enough money to get the 800$ tattoo I've been wanting for a year now.

But then I'd have to use like a 5th of my savings, and I live paycheck to paycheck, eith absolutely nothing leftover whatsoever, so I kinda really need my savings for stuff like glasses, clothes, vet bills etc.

But the money is RIGHT THERE