If I were you I'd think my face is a pie Maybe it's the makeup Or the way that you die When I dance on the ceiling It makes me alive But if I were in focus I think you would fly Fly, fly, fly, bye
I've metal-bonded my tent To the clothes that I wear I don't think that it matters I don't think that you care I came to the circus 'Cause the people are here And they don't want my tears
[CHORUS So cial, so So see-ah the show So cial So come see-ah the show I'm so cial, so So see-ah the show I'm so cial So come see-ah the show ]
(yeh)
I poked your eyes in the summer You can burn me today Think that I see it comin' I'll hand you the flame "There's plenty o' room here" You gave me a smile But I'm afraid if I sit My bones'll turn to a pile A high and mighty pile
I'm so scared if I miss you That I'll miss you some more Think if I'm bein' honest That I'm bein' a bore You said you want Good vibes only today So I'll throw me away
[CHORUS]
A banquet in the evenin' I'll be there tonight Lately I'm your puppet And you're my pride Think if I share my soul I'll get a laugh outta you So I'll lie and say That's what I intended to do
'Cause no one believes me Don't think that I'm real Where do the jokes end And where is the peel The gag in my mouth, dear It sings me a song But it can't hold for long
[CHORUS x2]
Come see-ah the show Come see-ah the show Come see-ah the show Come see-ah the show
I’ll vacuum the carpet once we arrange all our figurines Funny the way that a thing catches dust without moving A push and a pull there It’s like someone put salt on the floor Really feels like the present or is that just how you came through the door?
[CHORUS: They’ve got a couple of trips to make before the end of the day They’ll be surprised to wake up and find that yesterday wasn’t a dream ]
But was it a stop sign climbin the stairs with the tables ‘n chairs? It’s just that my fingers were harmed but at least I get you in my arms Imagine the walls filled and we swim away through the living space We’ll hook up the thick screen I’m hopin the gang finds the new place easily
[CHORUS]
come on, I got some windows for ya
Walkin the list And they’ve got a couple of trips to make before the end of the day They’ll be surprised to wake up and find that yesterday wasn’t a dream Fresh out the past and color the pieces last They’re pushin up the canopy first Their brains’ll be hot Their bodies, dry But by the end they’re gonna see where it leads
I got the sheets There’s nobody left here to thank but us We’re gatherin dust I’m glad that we’re stuck in a new place
Look out the window it’s time for the sanitization Calm down sailor the end’s just an anchor aweigh Well you killed any love that I had for the organization So write your letter but we all know what you’re gonna say
[CHORUS: I couldn’t wait I couldn’t wait for the end of term It’s been a long day comin home I couldn’t wait I couldn’t wait for the end of term It’s been a long day comin home ]
You tried, buddy but you can’t depend on your slander now The boots of the people will stain all the back o’ your coat Was it worth it to try holdin back all the Mountain Due? Was it worth it to shout at the crowds just to end up alone?
[CHORUS]
Roll out the carpet our friend here is takin a final bow You’ll look your best when you’re givin your closin speech And there’s no defendin your ass now the grownups’ll take it from here now say hi to the devil when you get back home from the beach
[CHORUS]
It’s been a long day comin home It’s been a long day comin home It’s been a long day comin home
‘nd someday I’ll fall asleep, ‘nd I’ll wake up flyin’ ‘nd maybe you will get to see what I look like these days, I don’t get too far on prayin’ on a shootin’ star that I might be ‘nd maybe I won’t dream when I fall asleep, ‘nd I won’t think of the kid I oughta be layin’ on the floor you get closer to the end it’s sure ‘nd I don’t forget how I made you feel wrong, how I gave you all that grief, and how I made you leave take my blood ‘nd take my brains, you know what to do, I just need a little bit o’ space you said “it’s alright”, is it though? ‘cause the heart don’t lie ‘nd mine gets a little bit cold
I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore
You’ve got a silver necklace ‘nd I wanna know, do you see me or do you see the hair on my bones? How do I show ‘nd make up for the kid in the club who didn’t know they was better off alone Each day I eat my weight in self-hate, ‘nd each night I curse myself to sleep ‘Nd if we ever meet, I hope you see that I wanna die with my heart empty
I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore
I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore I don’t wanna be this kid anymore
No, no more
Look, I know a good number of you are from the US and things aren't amazing there either, but my country is literally on the brink of collapse. So I'd love it if we could talk about that for a minute.
If you can't do anything else, please just read and reblog.
A second COVID wave has taken out the healthcare system. There are no more hospital beds. There's an oxygen shortage. There's a critical vaccine shortage. The Central Government has thrown its hands up and is passing the baton to the State Governments to do what they can.
There are over 16 million covid cases. A record 330,000 new cases reported yesterday - comparable to the US at its peak. 187,000 dead as of today.
There is no plan.
Mass cremations are taking place. The cremation grounds are running day and night and they are short on wood. People are watching their loved ones die while waiting for a hospital bed, and then they're unable to give them the proper burial rights.
Hospitals are overwhelmed. Patients are being confined, two to a bed. They're the lucky ones.
We are on the verge of people dying in the streets.
This is the second-most populous country in the world. The largest democracy. A country that encapsulates over 15,000 years of recorded human history and has endured everything from famine to invasion to colonisation.
We might be at the end. This might be the thing that does us in.
People are dying.
People are dying.
People are dying and there is no plan.
More good news? Variants are popping up. A double mutation strain has shown up. It is resistant to current vaccines. This will not go away. This is the devastation they warned of when the anti-maskers were out protesting the minor inconvenience of covering their face in public.
My country is on the verge of an emergency state. Our government has failed us. This is as dire a situation as it ever could be.
Look. I don't do much with my life. I write fics, some of you have read them and that's pretty much it. I spend my days with my head in the clouds because that's where I like to be.
But two days ago, my grandmother tested positive, had to be taken to hospital and the ambulance caught fire.
She barely made it to the urgent care she needs.
So, here I am, using whatever meager platform I have to cobble this request together. Because I have to do something.
If you can, donate.
Or spread the word.
Help. Please.
The only time I lie at peace is when I’m swimmin’ in my lay You kiss me gentle and my heart feels nice she’s got nothing to say I must remiss myself for what the world has given me today Romantic Hamlet for my skull’s become a Microwave
[CHORUS: What else am I supposed to think? Show me what else I can think What else am I supposed to think? Show me what else I can think ]
Hope I don’t lose myself because of how these fists pound on my head We woke up coughin took a walk around the morgue and paid the rent Study-compose and theorize but shoot ‘em out? I don’t see why ‘cause she’ll condole and you’ll say “fine” but you’re still stuck with this guy
[CHORUS]
You keep my quietus my bones are fine my bod-can take a few I know you care-an all but no one needs so I’ll carry-on with you A cigarette without the taste If I can’t digest I just chew A radon test A flashing light Don’t tell me we’re just like you?
[CHORUS]
I kick it over all the time Well I can train it if I try An early bed but still no sign of progressing past the web-foot line Department expiration lights They see me staring at the tide And Paris baby wants a ride I know she can’t be far behind
Fever in my head So comfortin If I wasn't dead I would kiss you again It feels like a storm I'm on a pressure plate It makes me feel better to write you again
My thoughts are all murky Misleadin me I could be a pirate But I'm lost without sea And when I'm woozy on the couch It's so true to me So lie to me and tell me That the trees never change
I don't buy it
And I wish I could give you Every story I had But these old wicked bones Didn't know of your care And I can't help but see you Cause I'm still goin mad And it's no fault of either But the clocks turn in squares
Fever in my heart Keep sleepin in I'll fade in these cushions Til I know you again Wanna drain my head S'all coploid here Was I your dear poet? You were my pioneer
It makes me feel summer Much harder, then Got all this freedom Got no way to spend You've got to feel cool With the wind again I'll be fine when it's over Just keep moving your pen
You're gonna be the best
And I wish I could give you Every story I knew But my brain would escape me When my hand was in yours And I woke from a nightmare I was waitin for you But I'm rudely aware we went through diff'rent doors
I still want to wait anymore
And my brains press the Walls of my skull And my trash doesn't Care who I am And the moss grows Inside my remorse Cause you're still Really wonderful And the murders remind me of you And I wonder which path was the mighta' been And it's not like we're that far away I just wish I could see you there And your hair It feels unfair
Fever face is close to a guinea hen I'm always surprised when you say I'm fantastic again
I'm sorry that I stared when I looked at you The things I want to say become hard around you
Purple was the day we met Whoever she is I don’t know who she is She’s everybody and I think that means That I’m goin to Hell I’m already in Hell What the hell She’s got a brain She knows it, too It makes sense If it don’t end happy, you know
(Stop Me!)
[CHORUS: It’s never goin away I’m stuck with you in my basement in my basement You and your stoning eyes All the words unsaid Do you think I coulda made it? Too soft, too rough And you always seem to say enough Oh god, enough You better tie me down Cause it’ll happen again in my basement in my basement ]
I found him through an open door Whoever he is I don’t care who he is He’s all I think about, I don’t feel smart He’s so cool with himself Why couldn’t I meet him? He’s got his friends, I got mine, too Sure it’s alright If I don’t make him happy, you know
(Stop Me!)
[CHORUS]
Oh, take a simple way to say the things you know Oh, such a simple way to say the things you don’t want to know
I see their eyes a golden lens Whoever they is I think I know who they is They’s all I want, my life is a joke They says “that isn’t true I like believin in you” They gives me heat, they goes back home Sure it’s fine If I still gotta let them go
(Stop Me!)
[CHORUS]
(in my basement in my basement in my basement in my basement in my basement in my basement in my basement in my basement)
Worth It
Why don’t you take a break, dear from standin with your bones so dry? What good is all the pain if it only ends to let you ache?
Why don’t you take a break, dear from starin at your screens all day? I know it’s comin but if you’ll just stay your hands You’ll be here ‘nd I’ll be with you When the sirens reach our door Spare your spine, for as you sleep it grows more beautiful Your soul is far more restless when you steal it so I miss it, too, you know
come close In the morning you can feel the sun escape your breath or you could lose yourself tonight and wonder when you left And as it seems, there’s a ransom at the core of impossible routines
Why don’t you take a break, dear? Everybody goes some day I miss the way it felt to cryssal your eyes You’ll be here and I’ll be with you when the moment needs you most And I will hold your taken heart and weep so criminal You keep the pressure going ‘cause it’s what we do I know you miss it, too
stay close In the morning you can feel the sun within my chest And if you give me what you have I’ll give you what is left If we agree, I will miss you when we sleep but when we dream we will be queens again masters of the scene
Give you here, come to bed, rest your eyes and close your head as it rains, you’ll be here and I’ll be with you
I only know how to write one song and that’s “I Miss You” I’ve missed you more than I’ve ever loved myself in my whole life I know it’s not alright but I had a birthday just like that 1975 song but this time you were really there and I was gawkin at your hair and we talked until I had to leave my bed
I been scrollin through my cells tryin to teach myself how to think right but sometimes my consciousness goes away ‘cause I wish I was a loner in seaside I just wanna spend all of my money on a car and just live around It’s not ideal, but at least I’ll be really alone and I’ll fall asleep just lookin at the stars and subconsciously wishin I was missin my arms
[CHORUS: I’m dancin in the bed of my truck like we did that one time (that one time) Workin like a drug lookin for some love for another time (oh another time) I know you’re really gone but my brain is sayin otherwise Don’t even know what I would do if you walked into the room What’d I expect? I guess I’ll go to bed one more time (on my own time) ]
I keep lookin for you out in the forest except I know I won’t find you I know it’s probably embarrassing to know That I’m still dreamin about you and I don’t tell my friends about it cause I’m scared of what they’re gonna say Should I just keep lyin and hopin that I don’t have any dreams? I’m full o’ doubt, words really can’t amount but I can’t keep livin in the same old house
Sometimes I wish that I was an artist instead of honest with you ‘Nd sometimes I wish that there was a change in what I wanted to tell you Oh, and have you got a girlfriend now? (have you got a girlfriend now?) cause I swear that’s all they ever used to talk about and you (talk about) shouldn’t feel guilty for anything I do cause I’m not that sane anymore
[CHORUS]
I’m startin to regret that I ever told you anything Cause it takes away the dream of me, and cause it’s all true ‘Nd thought all year you’ve been the only one I’ve thought to exist I can’t stop from thinkin like a narcissist Just tell me if you’re done, I wouldn’t blame you one Cause I only ever hope for myself
I’m dancin in the bed of my truck like we did that one time Workin like a drug lookin for some love for another time I know you’re really gone but my brain is sayin otherwise Don’t even know what I would do if you walked into the room What’d I expect? I guess I’ll go to bed one more time (on my own time)