Me For 3 Years Straight: “sorry I Haven’t Been Myself Lately”

The Lord of the Rings: Loyal Steeds of Middle Earth

psychic: reads my mind

my mind: The Plagues (The Prince of Egypt, 1998) ten hours version

psychic: THUS SAITH THE LORD

me: 

THUS SAITH THE LORD

Me: I just sometimes get so stressed that I just want to screech

My Therapist: Then do it.

Me: I’m sorry?

My Therapist: Primal screeching is one way of completing your stress cycle, do it. Be mindful of where you are, I usually do it in my car, but yeah. Go for it.

Me: Ah- Oh.

My Therapist: Holding that kind of thing in is what’s locking you into that stress state. Screeching, running, dancing, that tells your body they the danger has passed and you’ll relax. Since you have a lifetime of that shit locked away, it’ll take a sec but yeah. Screech if you want to.

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Is there anything that does make you feel better, or have a sense of relief?  I’m asking because I’d like to know how we can help.  I don’t expect you to have all the answers, just that if there’s some way we can come through for you.  Does it help to talk, or does this kind of feedback make things worse?

What helps:

Witnesses testifying publicly that they’ve seen the harassment I’ve dealt with. I hate wording it that way but that’s how it works—people don’t believe women who decide to speak up for themselves, but they do believe women when others speak up for them.

Sincere, positive spotlights. When Kotaku featured my art a few years back, they didn’t get consent, and it was presented sensationally, which is common with photorealism [”You won’t believe these aren’t photographs!” etc]. I got so much hate. Really vulgar sexual harassment. That was my first experience with rape threats. On the other hand, when Orlando Jones signal boosted my art in an interview, he did it with honest, genuine enthusiasm, and it was wonderful. I got positive feedback and work.

Professional validation from other artists. Hoo boy the dream. Someday I’ll have a Wiki page.

Inclusion by fandom. This is sort of petty, but I make fanart, and fanartists are so rarely included in community discussions or asked about the shows they draw. We’re good communicators.

Just generally not being treated like a threat or a freak show. Is nice.

Questions about my artistic choices. It’s validating when people want to know more—it means you see it as real art.

Tagging me in stuff if it reminds you of my art. Tagging me in stuff you made.

Not putting the onus on me to deal with hate.

This is stuff you can do for any artist, I think. Sorry if it all sounds obvious.

Catmouflage. Source: thebanded on catpictures.

please watch this

Did you change your name to slimehussie and make your pic a homestuck pic at some point or did I hallucinate all of that

I would never do that

"was that awkward eye contact or were we checking eachother out" - a life story

healing factor better than deadpool. honey badgers are monsters