And As Humans We Never Realise How Much We Crave Serenity, Sometimes In Serenity Itself And Often In

Daily blog #3

[Tuesday, June 13 2023]

Today I had such an irritating cold, I was sneezing all day long. Going to attend classes didn't do any good, except making me sit in a chilled air-cond room and making the sneezing worse. I could barely concentrate in the classes and when I came back home I couldn't sleep even though I was so exhausted. Since, I couldn't study I started watching k-dramas and after just an episode of Delightfully Deceitful I wasn't left with any of the episodes to watch. So, I ended up scrolling on Pinterest. The weather cooled down a bit but the winds didn't let much of the rainfall happen. It 23:49 and my eyelids are probably the heaviest thing rn. So...

Signing off

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saying and regretting is better than the regret of never saying all that stuffed in the lungs

@huzaifawrites

I feel like I need to tell u something that I never told u before,but I can’t bring myself to tell u, I wrote messages many times but I either never sent them or erased or deleted them out I am just waiting for the right time but it never comes and my words remains unspoken.I just wish that something I haven’t told u before u are just good at reading eyes.

Wishing u all the luck in the world, fighting!!!!!!

ok if this gets 15k notes i'll burn the nta down with my favourite cousin (we're both arsonists so we'll get the job done, dw)

At times, I think I am my life's biggest paradox. The way I think, the way I act, the way I speak, my whole existence is like a paradox to me.

I love nature but I also don't like rain and I am afraid of thunderstorms. I love making friends but I don't want to tell them my problems. I tell my friends it's human to make mistakes but my tiniest mistakes eat me away. I am extremely ambitious and love the things I do, but then, I am extremely lazy too. I am a hopeless romantic, very hopeless, but I am afraid if I fall too hard for someone I might lose my own self. I am very confident about myself but it won't take me the slightest moment to get insecure when someone better read, better dressed shows up. I love myself, a lot. But, there are times I look in the mirror and don't like the way I am looking. I am an over-sharer(if that's even a word, but you get it) but I also have some major trust issues. I don't care about what others think but I also want to be likeable. I am really sensitive but I am also really tough. I am very happy but I also cry a lot.

Even my thoughts. At times, I'd think people don't really have bad intentions, it's just a matter of perspective but then I also judge a lot of people for the one thing they did wrong to me. I'd think honesty is just so very important but I also think a truth that might hurt someone shouldn't be said unless necessary.

There's so much of these things that this list could go on forever. But, then I think our lives are a little too long to hold on to just one personality, just one perspective, just one ideology. Wouldn't it be too boring to live such a predictable life?

Practice papers and cries.

The best duo >"<

Since I started journaling again, I re-did the cover of my journal. Definitely lovin it ♡♡♡

~ Meredith Grey