Oooooooooh Someone’s Got A Crush

Did any other aroace-spec people try to write fanfiction when they were younger, but struggled to write romance/romantic scenes? Because I vividly remember trying to write fanfiction when I was younger, but not really knowing how to write the romance because that wasn't something that I felt that much. And this goes for all kinds of romantic fanfic, reader insert, OC insert, shipping, etc. I tried writing all of the above, and every single time, I was unable to write, or even sometimes start, the romantic scenes, because I just didn't know what exactly that felt like or how romantic relationships started. And even when I could get through writing fanfic, it just felt SO unnatural and weird to actually write; like not bad, but just odd, like not realistic. But somehow, people really liked it, so I guess I did something right lol

I want a relationship that is completely undefinable by any existing labels or words. Like, we're so close and we hug and kiss each other's foreheads and cuddle and travel and explore together, and we get along so well and have so much in common. But at the same time, our relationship isn't fully romantic or fully platonic; it's a completely separate, open-to-interpretation thing that we tweaked as needed, and we have our own boundaries and things we are and aren't comfortable with, and we respect each other in every way, shape, and form.

Am I the only aro-spec person who switches between wanting a committed partnership, be it romantic, platonic, queerplatonic, etc, and wanting to be as far away from relationships as possible?

I WANT A QPR SOOOOOO BADDDDD!!

I want someone that I can call my partner, but not necessarily in a romantic way. I want someone to hug and be close to. I want someone who I can listen to and who can listen to me. I want someone who shares my interests. I want someone that will agree to discuss and respect our boundaries with one another. I want someone who I can just be with, like we can just exist together. I want someone who will go book shopping with me and just listen to me gush about different books. I want someone who will walk down the halls with, and maybe we'll hold hands and maybe we won't. I want someone who will always be ready to comfort me and who I can comfort whenever they need it. I want someone who will help me calm down and think through things carefully. I want someone who I can explore and go on adventures with.

Basically, I just really want a queerplatonic partner/relationship.

Doodles of the characters from Donna Tartt's The Secret History

She Drives Me Crazy by Kelly Quindlen

Orpheus Girl by Brynne Rebele-Henry

All Our Hidden Gifts by Caroline O'Donoghue (the main romance is nblw, but there is some wlw in the second and third books in the series)

anyways if you’re as upset about the first kill cancellation as i am, here’s a list of sapphic books and books featuring queer girls to check out! for those i haven’t read, i’ve heard they’re worth reading, so please check out any of the books on this list!!

the priory of the orange tree by samantha shannon

the jasmine throne by tasha suri

a lesson in vengeance by victoria lee

the falling in love montage by ciara smyth

not my problem by ciara smyth

i kissed shara wheeler by casey mcquiston

one last stop by casey mcquiston

she drives me crazy by kelly quindlen

some girls do by jennifer dugan

perfect on paper by sophie gonzales

the chosen and the beautiful by nghi vo

siren queen by nghi vo

city of dusk by tara sim

i’ll be the one by lyla lee

flip the script by lyla lee

watch over me by nina lacour

we are okay by nina lacour

the seven husbands of evelyn hugo by taylor jenkins reid

loveless by alice oseman

last night at the telegraph club by malinda lo

a memory called empire by arkady martine

gideon the ninth by tamsyn muir

ophelia after all by racquel marie

PLEASE REBLOG WITH YOUR OWN IF YOU HAVE RECS!! i’m looking to add more sapphic books to my tbr and i know i’m not the only one

promare stuff part 1

Am I the only one who has a few specific friends who I'm really close with and love to be around, and, if they wanted to, I'd be completely down for making our relationship into something different (romantic, queerplatonic, etc.), but at the same time, I don't activity have a crush on them or want to push for a different relationship bc what if they don't feel the same way or don't know what queerplatonic relationships are.

Here, take some Angel Dust drawings

edgy emo guy with long hair, jewelry, and dark clothes

alright maybe nobody will get what i'm talking about but writers, what's your character type? what's that one brand of character who is in EVERY SINGLE WIP YOU EVER HAVE. mine's the serious badass older-sister-figure with a blonde pixie cut